Disclaimer: I don't own twilight or any of the characters that all belongs to Stephanie Meyers. I am not going to remember to put up this disclaimer every time so I hope this will do.
Summary: What would you do if you wished you could know what it was like to be Bella Swan then suddenly after reading Twilight you found yourself waking up in her world? Sort of like the movie Pleasantville meets never ending story. Bad summary, but give it a chance its different I know.
I wasn't exactly your typical twenty three year old female sure I didn't have the classic beauty, but I wasn't exactly ugly either, I guess. Just plain and ordinary unless I decided to be bold and put some makeup on and wear more feminine clothing, but I usually tried to stay away from that. I wasn't precisely the skinny girl with bleach blonde hair, blue eyes and beautifully flawless tanned skin. I was average in build a little on the voluptuous side, my hair was a dirty blonde and my eyes were a dull green. My name was Megan and no I didn't like it, but it was my name nonetheless. I wasn't a very graceful person, but my clumsiness had subsided some over the years, which was a good thing when it came to my line of work. I was working a nine to five job basically running errands for a bigwig getting his coffee, picking up clothes from the dry cleaner, and even taking his mistress shopping. Whenever he asked me to do something I did it no questions asked. I was basically my bosses bitch and I relished the time I had off because this life lead little to the imagination and sometimes I just needed to escape.
When I was younger all through out high school really I was a very insecure, shy, awkward girl. I never went out to the parties to get drunk and wake up next to half the football team and I never got the guy like Sam did in pretty and pink. Instead I was the girl whose face was always in a book and who walked with her eyes cast down to the floor. The only guy I'd ever seem to get or should I say attract was the gothic boy with the black lipstick and painted up face. I wasn't exactly a nerd and I wasn't exactly rock chick, I just was and at the time that seemed to fit for me. I soon realized after graduating from High school that I didn't want to be the same boring virginal Megan and I decided to go out and explore. Unfortunately I explored the bar scene and became best friends with Vodka, Rum, and Gin. You see when I was hanging with them I did some pretty retarded things like experimenting with sex….. yes sex…. I was no longer Miss virgin Megan and after a couple two night stands I realized that maybe I should stop drinking and start picking up the pieces in my life.
So after two years of bullshit I realized I had to stop slacking off in College and get a degree. But as soon as I graduated with a degree in business I found there were no job prospects and I'd be forced into taking this job offer to basically become some rich pricks bitch. Well it could be worse he could ask me to wear more revealing clothing to accentuate my full size breast or make me parade myself in high heals. Oh wait that was on the memo I got last week apparently I didn't go unnoticed when it came to my vapidly shallow boss. I was use to it from other guys I came around when I'd dare to wear a shirt a little form fitting they couldn't keep their eyes on mine instead they would linger down and be hypnotized. Just because I wasn't actually flat chested doesn't mean that I wanted to feel the burn of every guys eyes on me when I was talking to them. So I opted to where less revealing clingy clothing and never did I ever wear heels because one I couldn't stand in them let alone walk and two I didn't want the opposite sex attention. Needless to say my boss wasn't too happy with my blatant attempt at ignoring his suggestions and sent me on a one week none paid vacation. I was almost enraged until I realized that I would finally have some time to myself for once so I could catch up on sleep and read or reread some of my favorite books.
It was times like these that I hated being single as I started to reread my new favorite book in my now favorite series Twilight by author Stephanie Meyer. I found myself identifying with her main character Bella Swan and I almost wished I was her. In high school I practically was the only difference was my bad habit of cursing, sarcasm, looks, and feminism. Other then that I fit her personality traits to a tee with my clumsiness, maturity, insecurities, shyness, and my social awkwardness. Although I never felt particularly bad for Bella Swan throughout the series I mean sure she had burdens to bear when it came to her love life, but she got to have Edward Cullen in the end. I mean falling in love with a vampire who could crush you with his touch and wanted to suck your blood dry wasn't exactly what dreams were made of, but she had someone who loved her and would die….again for her. I never had an Edward Cullen to pick me up when I was down or to catch me when I fell instead I had my books and the main characters lives to live through. Pathetic I know, but tonight was definitely going to be a Twilight night and for the third time this week I picked up the book and begin to read. It was moments like these that I found myself wishing I could know what it was like to be Edward Cullen's Bella. As I read I noticed it was getting kind of late so I knew I wouldn't be getting too far into the book without dosing off and I was at the part where Edward was finally about to talk to Bella for the first time in biology. I must have dosed off because I didn't get much further then that instead something extraordinary happened.
I was awakened to a stir beside me and I drowsily looked up to see what all the commotion was. A few young boys seemed to be bickering over something unintelligible and I was now sitting face to face with one of the boys. He had blonde hair and blue eyes he was definitely a teenager with baby cute features and for some reason he was addressing me as Bella. Apparently I was in the twilight zone because I was actually responding to him and not entirely freaked out by this strange situation. I must be dreaming and I am now in some weird Twilight esque dream. I asked the kid his name again and where exactly we were and he just looked at me like I was crazy. For a minute I thought I was, but sense this was a dream and I was stuck here I thought I could ask whatever crazy shit I wanted to characters in my imagination and they could give me whatever looks they wanted. Cause in dream world anything goes and apparently I was in a classroom sitting on a chair with a blonde headed boy sitting on my desk with lab instructions on a black board talking to said boy. Huh this is definitely a very vivid dream and I am definitely feeling a little out of place, but hey I will play a long.
"Bella? Bella? Earth to Bella?" the blonde boy said to me snapping his fingers in my face to get my undivided attention. I was scanning the room and noticed more kids around me they all were definitely teenagers and this was definitely a high school. I wonder where the so-called teacher is probably running late or am I early?
"Are you feeling ok Bella? You don't look so good and I mean I know we haven't known each other long, but how could you not remember my name's Mike?" the boy rambled on causing me to start fidgeting.
"What did you say your name was again? And why the hell are you calling me Bella? My name sure as hell is not Bella its Megan got that sweet cheeks? Now run along to your mama and leave me alone because you are ruining a perfectly good dream. Shit at this point it may just be a nightmare." I replied in a breathless whisper causing Mike or whatever the dushebags name was to start laughing hysterically.
"Really good one Bella you had me for a minute there. I'll see you after class. Have fun working the lab with Cullen." The boy smiled then walked away and I was feeling really annoyed and about to curse him out when a thing of beauty caught my eye and I froze losing my voice in the process.
I hadn't even noticed him walk in the room because I was being harassed by some love struck teenager and I was now even more then just annoyed with the kid. He had taken more of my dream then I wanted because perfection was moving to sit down right next to me and at any moment I could wake up from this now wonderful dream. I was almost trying to will myself to stay asleep to get more time with this beautiful creature that I had nearly forgotten what Mike or dushebag as I would now call him said. Cullen, dushebag said Cullen, but no it couldn't be and then I turned to stare this angel down. He had the bronze hair the almost translucent skin and his features were practically perfect, but what made me gasp was his honey golden eyes. What the flying fuck this was Edward Cullen or dream Edward Cullen and I was "Bella Swan" this was our first real conversation and I was stuck in Forks high school. Wow this was pretty crazy, but it was a dream so I figured I'd go along with it because I think I'd go along with anything this beautiful god like being did with me.
"Hello. My Name is Edward Cullen. I didn't have a chance to introduce myself last week. You must be Bella Swan." Wow his voice really was musical and while I said I'd play along I didn't say I would play it Bella Swan way and I figured I may never have a dream as vivid as this again so I had to be bold.
"Cut the crap Cullen I know you want my blood and we both know I want you period. Or wait is this too soon in the story for you to realize that while Bella sleeps she talks in her sleep and says your name. Now I am screwing this up because I totally revealed way too early in the story that you're a vamp and you crave my blood." I started rambling on then stopped abruptly when I noticed Edward tense in front of me and start to look strangely pissed off and intrigued at the same time.
I could definitely see the intimidation rolling in waves off of him and I started to actual get a little scared, but then I just shrugged it off because this was my dream and he was here beside me. I wasn't about to let this dream become a nightmare so I thought about what I should say to make him realize that I wasn't trying to piss him off, but I couldn't come up with anything. I was so lost in thought for a moment that I didn't realize that he was actually trying to speak to me and as much as I loved the sound of his beautiful voice I knew that I didn't want to waste this dream just talking because hello I could wake up at any minute so I did something brave. I did the unthinkable I took both my hands and put them on each side of his beautiful yet hard and cold face and I leaned in. At first he stared in shock and then he tried to form words, but he was caught off by my firm yet gentle kiss. It had been a while sense I locked lips with a guy and I hadn't been as bold as I was being now so you can imagine how shocked I was when I felt that electric energy between both our lips as we molded our mouths together.
Surprisingly he didn't back away or pull me off of him surprisingly he was kissing me back. His lips were definitely different from any humans, but I loved the way they felt against me and I couldn't help, but want more. So I did what you usually do when just lips is not enough I tried to deepen the kiss by sticking my tongue down vampire Edwards venomous throat and that's when he stopped me. That and the fact that I wasn't breathing anymore probably had something to do with it too. He pulled himself off my lips and in an instant I saw his once golden eyes turn a dark black and then I let out an "oops." Suddenly Edward was walking quickly out of the room and I turned to see a whole bunch of teenagers staring at me with looks of horror, jealousy, and shock on their faces. Feeling the obvious rejection from my kiss and the unwanted spotlight on my face only made me beat red. I was now silently wishing I could wakeup, but when that didn't work I started to freak out. Did I just kiss Edward Cullen and actually feel his cold hard perfect marble like skin on my soft hot flesh? Was this really still a dream or was I stuck in some alternate reality? Without further ado I promptly grabbed my backpack and high tailed it out of the classroom hoping to find Edward. Hoping no praying for some answers.
When I walked quickly out of the room and ran in the only direction I could think to run I abruptly found myself outside in a cold, rainy, and green like place. Forks Washington gee you think I could end up somewhere a little more extravagant. No not me I wasn't your extravagant kind of girl and I did wish for this didn't I? Wait a minute I wished I could be Bella Swan, but was I literally serious? Well no of course not I mean my life was pretty shitty, but I was pretty sure I didn't want to go back to high school yet again and I was pretty sure I didn't want to fall in love with a vampire whose blood lust was on the brink when it came to me. What if I am stuck in this book, what if Edward Cullen will literally be the death of me? Now he probably thinks I know his secret and we haven't had that Bella-Edward bonding chance because I blew it by rushing things and kissing him. What if I am stuck here and Edwards's family is going to have to kill me because I know too much? No, Carlisle won't let them and besides I could act like I have lost my mind or better I could just tell them what happened. Maybe they will believe me, help me even? This was becoming too much for me to handle and I really needed to find Edward and do some serious damaged control. I hope to god he doesn't eat me and actually believes me.
Just as I was about to turn and head in a different direction towards the student parking lot I saw him. He was standing in the rain leaning against his Volvo with four strikingly beautiful people standing next to him all except the short pixie like one wore angry looks on their faces. I was about twenty feet away and I knew I didn't stand a chance so rather then stare at them like a scared little human I decided to face them with my head held high and a small smile on my face. I knew who they were then and they had no clue who I was and that would surely give me the upper hand wouldn't it? The pixie like one started smiling as she saw me approach, but that wasn't what she shocked me the most it was her words that had my heart fluttering and my breath hard to take. "Megan it's nice to finally meet you. I am Alice as you probably already know." She smiled at me actually smiled and then I realized she must have had a vision and Edward whose tense posture actually loosened was now reading her mind and he now knew who I was. Soon the others were mumbling or talking in what I assumed was a fast vampire pace so I gathered they were being filled in. To avoid eye contact with the ridiculously beautiful Cullen clan I averted my eyes to the floor and caught sight of myself for the first time in a small puddle. I almost had a heart attack.
"What the flying fuck is this? This seriously has got to be a damn joke. I mean I don't even look like the damn description of Bella Swan in the damn book instead I look like my old seventeen year old self? This is just not fair I mean when I wished for that damn wish I didn't think I'd be seventeen again and in high school. I was just thinking about how I envied a girl who was like me, but with a better life and now this. Somebody seriously hates me." I started shouting more to myself as all the Cullen's stared at me with bewilderment in their eyes.
The burly curly haired one, Emmett I presumed, was the first to speak. "Wow this girls a nut job Edward no wonder you got a little obsession with her. I think I like her already when can we make her one of us?"
"You know just because I'm stuck in lala land in Bella Swans life does not mean I want to be a vampire. For your information I am not the one he has an obsession with you seriously can't be that stupid. Too much steroids or beer before you were turned make you kind of lacking in the brains department? But you know the whole being strong thing seems kind of cool right about now as I could kick your ass for that retarded comment bearing in mind the new born strength I would possess. But see I don't want to live forever and I want to go back to my life my twenty three year old life, not my seventeen year old head to the ground pretending I stuff my brawl life."
It was then that I noticed Edward staring at me with a look of pure shock and admiration on his face and that alone had me swooning like an idiot. So he does actually dazzle well that's just fucking preachy. I wonder if he can hear me maybe I should think something really perverted to see his expression. Emmett and Rosalie…She really is an Ice Bitch, but Beautiful nonetheless….anyway Emmett and Rosalie having sick kinky sex…Emmett screaming as Rosalie puts on a steel strap on and fucks Emmett up the butt….nasty, but I had to do it. Nope nothing he didn't even flinch of course he could just be fucking with me because I am sure he has seen worse then that so maybe I should just come out and ask him. Oh screw this I don't know where to begin or what to do and now Edward is looking at me with this seriously angry face again….wait a minute maybe its frustration. He's frustrated; he can't read me can he. Might as well ask what harm could it do, but just as I was about to get up the courage Alice begin to speak.
"Megan we find ourselves in a very strange situation as you are clearly not Bella Swan yet the whole population aside from me and now my family thinks it. You can imagine how surprised I was to be sitting in Spanish class thinking about all things prada and out comes a vision of Bella Swan disappearing and another girl named Megan taking her place. But everyone still calls this girl Bella when she is clearly not. It was to say the least unsettling, but when I had another vision just a minute ago I knew everything would be ok. You see you and I, well all of us are going to be great friends. You know our secret and you accept us as we are. I am not sure how all of this is possible, but I do know that I for one am very happy about this." She said with a little too much enthusiasm in her glorious voice.
"Alice this is a lot to take in for Megan why don't you guys give her some space and I have a talk with her. Don't worry Alice her scent while still very appealing is somehow manageable. Unless of course you see me hurting her because if that's the case I wont go near her." Edward said with a little sadness in his voice. Did he actually want to be near me? Or was that just wishful thinking? Well whatever it was I was not going to let him psyche himself out and I was not going to stay away from him. I was here and I would take full advantage of Edward Cullen if I had to die doing it.
Alice smiled knowingly at me and Edward blanked in shock probably seeing what I was about to do next. "Edward I know I am not Bella Swan while there are some resemblances there are a lot more differences and I know you weren't meant for me, but I have only dreamt of getting the chance to meet someone like you and I don't think I could take it if you weren't near me. Please don't be scared I promise I wont try to rape you with my mouth again….unless of course you want me to which sounds totally absurd because of course you don't….so yeah I am just going to shut up now." I sighed blushing a little. Edward Cullen had just turned me into a bumbling little schoolgirl all over again.
With that Emmett smiled at me and mumbled what I had thought was "you can't rape the willing", but I knew better then that. Edward Cullen liked the skinny brunette with dowey eyes and small delicate features. Aside from our occasional personality traits being somewhat similar I was nowhere near Bella's build. I wasn't nearly as fragile and I was certainly not nearly as thin. I was curvy and big breasted where she was slender and almost flat chested. It wasn't like I wasn't use to men checking me out, but at this age I use to try and hide it even more and the funny thing is now I didn't want to hide it. Now I actually wanted Edward Cullen to notice me to see my long dirty blonde hair and green eyes just as alluring as curly brown hair and brown eyes. I abruptly became self-conscious as I tried to process more things and I was under the scrutiny of five beautiful beings. I got the chance to see myself as seventeen again and I unfortunately got the chance to see what I was wearing for the first time. I hadn't noticed before in the puddle because I was too busy noticing my maturity in my body and face slightly youthful like when I was in high school thus I didn't even bother to really look at my attire. So you can imagine how surprised and humiliated I was to see that I was actually wearing a flannel button down long sleeve shirt with denim jeans and brown man boots. How not sexy is that? I definitely wouldn't be turning heads with this getup on let alone seduce someone like Edward Cullen. Suddenly it hit me like a ton of bricks although I could relate to Bella and found her character endearing, it wasn't her life that I longed for it was the love she had with Edward. Yes I think I knew it all a long, I was in love with the idea of Edward Cullen in the books and I wasn't entirely sure if I wasn't going to fall in love with this Edward Cullen standing approximately two feet away from me. What was I going to do now?