It was on that one night, that one night that Naruto knew his purpose in life, the reason for his existence

Hello. Welcome to my second fanfiction!

I had this idea after listening to a song that I love – My curse – By Killswitch Engage.

I had always wanted to write SasuNaru and this idea just came to me. Anyway I hope you like, reviews good or bad appriciated.

I dedicate this once again to my best friend Amy, lover of SasuNaru and Ann Summers :P

Speak soon xx

It was on that one night, that one night that Naruto knew his purpose in life, the reason for his existence.

That soft raven hair, smooth pale skin, warm lips and those mysterious eyes…

"Naruto…I love you so much". The boy whispered tenderly.

Naruto's eyes began to well up"Then why are you leaving me? I can't bare to be without you. I have been lonley all my life. Don't go…"

Sasuke held up a finger and placed it upon Naruto's lips, making Naruto's skin shiver. He sighed. "You know I have no choice…" He smiled "But what we have here and now is special…He kissed his cheek, his lips moving along his jawbone before meeting his lips.

That one night.

A Passion, and a love that would curse him forever.

Naruto woke up in a daze. He felt warm inside, but he slowly returned to reality. He was laying in the sun, dozing lazily in his garden amoungst the soft grass, which swayed gently in the breeze. His blue eyes scanned the garden. How long had he been asleep?

"Naruto-Kun!" A familiar voice called out to him.

He peered over his shoulder and recognized his fiancee Sakura, walking barefoot towards him across the grass, a tray holding drinks in her hands. She sat down next to him on the grass, and he shifted away slightly. There was a small pause before Sakura spoke.

"Would you like a drink?"

Naruto nodded and took the glass she was offering him.

"You looked happy when you were asleep…what was your dream?" She asked cheerfully.

"Umm..nothing…just…" Naruto had to think fast before the turned red. He always turned red when he thought of him. Even after 5 years. "You…were pregnant?" He tried – realising his mistake as soon as it had escaped from his lips.

Sakura bowed her head low, her pink hair obscuring her face. "Im sorry…" she trembled "I don't know what's wrong with me. Im so pathetic."

Naruto put his arm around her "It's ok." He signed. He thought back to his dream. It was a dream he had been having so often lately. A sense of guilt hung over him. 5 years…he had tried everything to forget. Employment. Girlfriend. House. He ticked off the checklist. But now as he stopped being so busy and tried to settle down, he could not forget that his life now was a lie. He had dug this hole in fear, in fear of his sexuality, and he knew he could never love another man the same way he loved him…he felt that that love, that strong, unrepressible and irresistable love, would curse him for life.

"Naruto…are you ok?" Sakura looked up nervously.

Naruto looked into those green eyes. He did not love this woman. He never had.

And he never would.

So why was he here?

Guilt weighing on his shoulders, he took her hand, and walked her back to the house.

Naruto lay awake staring at the ceiling. He couldn't shake off his thoughts from the last few days. And that dream, no, that memory haunted him…

He had done everything he was supposed to he had effectively 'moved on'. But deep in his heart was a deep emptiness, a longing.

He thought back to that painful day, a day which he had fought to forget. But her remembered it as clearly as yesterday. It practically was yesterday, it seemed the lie that was those 5 years had been wasted time.

He could not move on….

"Sasuke? What's wrong? You seem down. You can tell me anything you know"

Sasuke moved away from Naruto. Surprised, Naruto's eyes widened.

"We have to move. For our family's sake. The gang is after my brother."

"THE gang?" Naruto gasped

Sasuke nodded. "Yes".

Naruto gazed at the floor. "But that means…"

"Yeah…I can't see you anymore."

Naruto stiffened for a moment before standing up suddenly "BUT I CAN'T LET YOU GO!" He cried, his lip trembling. "I love you so much. What we have is ours. Nothing can break that! No stupid gang, no nothing- can't you see? This love I have for you? Sasuke, all I need is you – don't leave me…" He collapsed to the floor, his fists clenched.

"I can't breathe without you.."

Sasuke bent done and gently raised Naruto's face to meet his. "We will never be apart. No matter how far. I love you." He kissed the boys lips lovingly.

Pulling away, Sasuke took a piece of paper from his pocket and put it into Naruto's bag.

"These are my details ok? Don't lose them." He kissed Naruto's forehead.

Naruto nodded.

Lets…have some privacy, shall we?" He winked.

Eyes full of tears…Naruto followed him upstairs…

Naruto's heart felt heavy, as so did his eyes. That piece of paper…vanished. Just gone. He always thought it had been taken. He couldn't have lost it. He wouldn't…

And so, he lost the one thing that mattered most to him.

Sasuke…

Throwing off the bedcovers, he tiptoed out of the room. He crept along the corridor to the spare room.

The spare room was a mountain of boxes and junk. But there was one box that was more precious than anything. Naruto had to see it. He climbed over and jumped between boxes until he reached the corner of the room. He opened it up and began desperatly rummaging through old school books and photo's until he found the one he was looking for. He jumped as that still face stared back at him…

Those eyes…

Naruto stared at the photo for a while, feeling desprerate. He knew he had to see him again. He had let him leave…but he knew they had to meet again.

Without a second thought, he speedily walked back to the bedroom taking the photo with him. Sakura slept softly. He grabbed a rucksack and shoved the photo, clothes and money in. He grabbed a notebook and left a note for Sakura:

Dear Sakura

This is so difficult to write, so im going to get to the point

My life is a lie. I know it sounds harsh, but I can't be with you anymore. Im so sorry.Its not your fault, so blame me. I need to go and look for someone, but don't look for me okay? The house, everything is yours…tell my boss I have quit.

Forget me. And move on.

Naruto.

He looked one last time at her face. And, without looking back, he left the room.

Outside it was pitch black. But even amougst that black, the stars casting a faint light gave Naruto a sense of hope.

And he began to walk away into the uncertain and bleak night…

I watched you walk away
Hopeless, with nothing to say
I strain my eyes
Hoping to see you again

This is my curse (the longing)
This is my curse (time)
This is my curse (the yearning)
This is my curse

There is love burning to find you
Will you wait for me?
Will you be there?