AN: I know I already have Meant To Be to be working on but this story is like my baby. I've been writing it as a book for years now and I decided to publish it as a fanfiction but to do that I have to go through every chapter and change everyone's names and the towns names and peoples characteristics but it's worth it. I absolutely love this book and it means so much to me. So please tell me what you think and if I should post other chapters?

WARNING: There is suicidal thoughts, depression, self harm, drug abuse, sexual abuse, heart break and more scary topics. This is a trigger warning, this story will get really sad before it gets better. The first couple chapters aren't that bad but it gets worse. If this isn't something you want to read that dont!

Disclaimer: I don't own these characters or the town name or other stuff I got from TVD but I do own the storylines.

Broken

Chapter 1: A New Life

Saturday July 13th 2000 6:34pm

I feel completely scared, sad, hopeless, depressed, alone and broken. My parents just passed away and I thought for sure that I would be moving to New York City to live with my irresponsible 22 year old Aunt Jenna who I've known all my life and is my only living relative, I was wrong.

A week ago I found out by my parents lawyers that they had written down a man by the name of Giuseppe Salvatore as my next in kin. Supposedly he and his late wife were my godparents but I don't even remember ever meeting them. Giuseppe is my godfather and I don't remember him at all and my parents never talked about him or his wife.

Supposedly my parents were best friends with them in high school and college and were maid of honor and best man at their wedding. Supposedly they were maid of honor and best man at my parents wedding too. When I was two my dad got a new job offer in Denver and moved the family there from Mystic Falls, Virginia which was both my parents' hometown.

I am now sitting on a plane with my Aunt Jenna who was taking me from Denver the place I grew up to Mystic Falls to help me get comfortable there. I turned fourteen on May 20th. This is the time of life a girl needs her parents most. But my parents are not alive anymore. My dad won't be able to walk me down the aisle and I won't have my mom to talk to about my crushes, high school and friendship drama.

I'm moving to Mystic Falls, Virginia. I have to live with a strange man and his two kids. At least they are around my age. I hate that my parents put Giuseppe down as my legal guardian if anything were to happen to them. I have only ever known my Aunt Jenna. But my Aunt Jenna is practically my older sister. She was only 8 years older when I was born and can't raise a teenager. She is practically still a teenager herself.

So I have to move in with a random man that I have no memories of and his two teenagers. He has a son who's seventeen and I can't remember his name and another son who's fifteen named Samuel or Stephan? I can't remember exactly.

I'm going to be completely alone. I don't know anyone. Jenna's only staying for the first night but then has to get back to her summer job in New York. Jenna knew Giuseppe when she was a kid and she said whenever she met him he seemed nice. But still, I feel completely alone, broken and depressed. I have nothing left in the world.

My parents passed away three weeks ago in a car accident. Jenna has been staying with me in my home in Denver. My parent's funeral was two weeks ago and since then we've been cleaning and packing up the house. The house was willed to me but we wanted to clean it before we left so it's not too dirty whenever we go back. Giuseppe hadn't been able to get the time off work to come for the funeral so I don't even know what he looks like.

Even though I understand that Jenna wouldn't be able to raise me right I'm still am completely furious I have to live with complete strangers.

The flight attendant just told us that we will soon be landing at the Richmond airport, which is just a 40 minute drive from the small town of Mystic Falls. Mystic Falls; 6,923 is the population. This is where I'll spend my high school years. In September I'll start ninth grade. I won't have my mom to take a picture of me before I leave to start high school. A tear falls down my cheek. I really am broken. I just want my parents back and I want to be happy and living in Denver.

I am now trailing behind my Aunt Jenna while walking through crowds of people carrying my two suitcases waiting for my Aunt Jenna to spot the man I've never met. Finally my Aunt Jenna pointed to a man in a gray suit with short gray hair and a sad but friendly smile. He doesn't look too bad.

"Jennifer." He greets with a smile and hug. "So sorry about you loss. I knew them well and I'm really sad to see them go but I can't imagine what either you or Elena must be going through." He said sadly to Jenna.

"Thanks." Jenna says with a sad smile and turns to look at me a few feet behind them.

"Elena, I'm guessing?" He says. "You've grown so much, which is to be expected in 12 years." He tries to joke but my face is emotionless. "I'm so sorry for what you're going through. I know it must be completely insane coming and living with complete strangers." He says sadly.

"Thank you, you're right, it is insanely weird." I say with little emotion.

We leave the airport and walk to his car without any words spoken. I get into the backseat and pull my IPod out of my pocket and put my earphones in. Listening to music is the only way I can relax and have a breather. It calms me. Even through I'm listening to loud rock music.

Once we get driving I see they are talking to each other. I hit pause on my IPod but I don't let them know I can hear them; this is the only way I know what people really think of my situation. I've learned a skill at pretending I'm listening to music when I'm really not.

"Lena isn't okay. She's very sad. I seriously don't know if she'll ever get even close to back to normal." Jenna says sadly.

"Hopefully, Mystic Falls will be good for her. She can have a fresh start. Her and Stefan are only a year apart. She can make friends with Stefan and he can introduce her to their classmates and she'll make lots of friends on her own and she'll eventually be okay. Stefan is very friendly and is excited to meet her. He's a positive kid with straight A's and I know he'll cheer her up whatever it takes." He explains. Great my new brother is overly cheerful and friendly, those people really annoy me nowadays.

"That's good. What about Damon? What did he say about Elena coming? How's he doing?" She asks with a sad empathic face. Damon! That's his name.

"Well as you know when you left for college Lilly had just passed away and he wasn't doing so well. He was only 12 when she passed. It started with misbehaving in school, then he started smoking, drinking, shop lifting and drugs." He says sadly. "Nothing too bad, just marijuana I think. But he's not getting any better. I told him a few days ago about Elena and I don't even know if he'll remember the conversation." He says angry. I lean my head against the window. So this Damon guy sounds weird but kind of interesting.

"I'm so sorry. I hope things get better with him." Jenna says genuine.

"Elena?" Giuseppe calls out trying to get my attention. I take out my headphones and look at him. "I got the whole basement set up for you." I look at him with a worried expression. The basement? What if there's rats? "Don't worry, it's completely finished. You won't even know you're in a basement. There are two bedrooms, a full bathroom and a small den/living room. I moved the laundry room upstairs so the whole place will be yours, nobody can go down there without your permission. I thought you would like the privacy. And the laundry room can now be your walk in closet." He explained.

"Yeah, that would be great." I said with no emotion.

"You can pick your bedroom out of the two and Jenna can stay in the other one." He said.

"Okay."

"Your bedroom isn't decorated at all but tomorrow you can pick whatever you want out of a catalog and I'll order it, okay?" He suggested.

"Sure."

"Elena, be a little more appreciative. Giuseppe is willing to spend a lot of money on you." Jenna said.

"Sorry. I'm just not feeling well right now." I say still with no emotion.

"That's okay it's understandable. Oh and Jenna you can come visit whenever you or Elena feel like it, I know you have work but if you ever have a long weekend off don't hesitate to come." Giuseppe smiles friendly.

I put my music back in a zone out. I have lots of emotions; hurt, sadness, depressed, alone, broken. I just don't feel like showing any of them. It's too exhausting.

About 20 minutes later with pass a sign saying 'Welcome to Mystic Falls, Population: 6,923'. I already hate this town. I've never lived in a small town. It seems to boring.

Five minutes later we drive through a gate where Giuseppe had to put a code into to open it. Is this guy that rich? We drive down a long drive way with trees on both sides and lots of freshly cut grass and flowers. This place is beautiful. I look at the car clock it is says 7:31pm; it should be getting dark soon. Finally we pull up to a huge white house. Three stories high. And he put me in the basement? I practically growl. It feels like I traveled through time to the 1800's.

"You like it Elena?" He asks.

"It's…" I trail off not know the right word. "Big." I say.

He laughs. "Yeah, the whole property has been passed down in the family since the mid- 1800's. The Salvatore's are one of the five founding families of this town." He said.

"Wow."

"Mhmm, I grew up in the home. And so did my father, and his father, and his father and so on." Giuseppe said.

"Do your siblings live here too or are you an only child?" I ask curiously.

"I have a younger brother, Zachary but only the oldest child gets the house." He explains.

Right when we were getting out of the car. A boy around my age with spikey dark blonde hair and a kind looking face came outside through the front door.

"Stefan." Giuseppe said happily. "Come help the ladies with their bags."

Stefan smiled shyly and came over and took both of my bags and Giuseppe took both of Jenna. As Stefan came up to grab my bags I noticed his eyes were a hazel, like a greenish brown. I always look at someone's eye colour when meeting them it's just a thing I do. I believe eye shape and colour can tell a lot about a person. Jenna and I walked behind them into the house only carrying our purses.

When we got inside they both set the suitcases down on the floor of a huge foyer. There was two huge stair cases leading upstairs and everything was white.

"Stefan this is Elena, Elena this is Stefan." Giuseppe introduced.

"Hi it's nice to meet you." Stefan said politely.

"Yeah hi." I say.

He looks a little offended but shakes it off. "Stefan this is Jenna, she lived in town when you were about 10." Giuseppe said.

"Yeah I think I remember her from town parties." He smiled politely and she smiled back.

"Where's Damon?" Giuseppe asks.

"Um I don't know where he is." He says a little awkwardly. "I think he went out." He said a little scared. Giuseppe looks mad. "I told him you would be mad and he said he didn't care." He said nervous.

"Okay," He says with a very angry expression. "You can go do whatever; I'm going to get Elena and Jenna setup in the basement." Giuseppe said. He seems like such a formal man. I don't like it.

He shows us through a serious of different libraries, living rooms, dens until we get to the kitchen. It's a huge kitchen with sliding doors leading to a pool. There's a breakfast table along with stools against a huge island. All the appliances are stainless steel and they have every appliance possible. This place is huge.

He shows us to a door just past the small breakfast table and leads us down wooden stairs. When we get to the bottom I see a living room. It has a big 50 inch t.v and a leather couch and love seat. There's a big glass coffee table in the middle of the two couches and movies surrounding the t.v. It looks like there's cable, a dvd player and a blueray player. Holy crap.

"So there's dvd player, cable and blueray player. We keep about half of our movies down here and the other half are in the home theater." Giuseppe explains.

"Nice." I say still emotionless.

"Through those two doors are the bedrooms." He said pointing to two doors on either side of the t.v. I go towards the one closest to me and walk in.

It's a pretty big size room. There's a queen bed in the middle with two end tables on each side of it. The headboard of the bed in a light brown wood and it matches to wood of the end tables. One of the tables has a lamp and landline phone. The other table has an alarm clock and space to put things I want on it. On the wall with the door there a dresser which has the same wood as the bed and end tables. It's long with nine drawers and a big vanity mirror hanging from the wall in front of it. Then on the far wall are two long windows close to the ceiling. Underneath the windows are a white desk and a computer chair. I turn around and see Jenna and Giuseppe standing at the door.

"I want this room." I say.

"You didn't even see the other room." Jenna said.

"Doesn't matter, I want this room."

"Okay." They both said and Giuseppe brought in my suitcases and put them on my bed.

I leave the room to go check out the other room. Giuseppe was putting Jenna's suitcases in the room when I walk in. It's just a simple room. It's a little smaller than mine and has dark wood instead of light. But I like my room.

"The bathroom is the door beside your room Elena, and your closet is the door at the bottom of the stairs." Giuseppe says while I'm walking back to my room to unpack.

"Okay, thanks." I say and then notice another door on the other side of the living room. "Wheres that door lead too?" I ask curious.

"Oh that leads to the other side of the basement it's kind of like the boys men-cave in there but theres a separate set off stairs for over there so that door stays locked at all times. It's pretty useless actually." He says.

"Oh alright."

"I have to go do some work stuff in my study upstairs but if you guys are hungry help yourselves to any food in the kitchen." He says to both of us before walking up the stairs.

I groan. Ugh I have a head ache. I blink my eyes open and I'm alarmed by my surroundings. This isn't my room. Oh wait. It is now. I live in Mystic Falls now. Gosh what time is it. I turn over in my comfy bed and look at the clock 3:05am. After I was done unpacking I laid down for a little rest. It wasn't my intention to sleep. Now I'm wide awake. I'm thirsty.

I get up and notice my pajamas. Oh that's right I changed into my monkey pajama shorts and a tank top before I laid down. I stretch and walk over and turn on my light. I look in the mirror to make sure nothings showing. I have two teenage boys to live with now. Hopefully everyone's in bed.

I walk out of my room and leave my door open half way so I can see my way up the stairs. I walk up the stairs and open the door quietly; I don't want to wake Jenna up. The kitchens dark but I can see pretty clearly cause of the patio light from outside.

I open the fridge and grab a bottle of water. "Who the hell are you?" I hear a growl from behind me while I'm closing the door.

I turn around slowly slightly freaked out and see a extremely hot guy sitting at the island with a freshly made sandwich and orange juice in front of him. He looks to be in his late teens and he has dark brown hair and icy blue eyes. Oh this must be Damon. Ugh, he's so hot; I don't want to live in the same house as this.

"Oh you must be Damon." I say coolly and lean up against the counter.

"Who are you?" He asks cold.

"I'm Elena. I'm living with you now." I smirk. Wow a smirk. That's new.

"Why?" He asks again cold.

"I'm orphaned." I say emotionless.

He looks confused and wondering if I'm joking. "Are you joking?" He asks hesitantly.

"Nope. My parents died three weeks ago in a car crash and your dad is my godfather even though I don't remember ever meeting him." I say.

"I'm sorry." He says with a tiny bit of compassion.

"It's fine. I was born here and my parents and your parents were best friends but a little after I turned two we all moved to Denver." I explain.

"Wait, what did you say your name was again?" He asks curious.

"Elena, Elena Gilbert."

"I remember you." He says slowly.

"Seriously?" I say shocked.

"Yeah I was five when you were two. I remember your parents bringing you over to play with Stefan and me." He said.

"Oh." I said pretty shocked that he would remember that and that I was friends with them as a baby. "So what are you doing up anyway?" I ask.

"Just got back from a party. Have to sober up a little before going to bed. I don't want a hangover in the morning." He says gesturing to his sandwich and orange juice.

"Oh." I smile. I kind of feel like going to a party some time. I don't know maybe because I want to feel something other than sorrow. I mean I look way older than I am. I sure his friends won't mind, I mean at least the guys won't. I want to feel. To have a little fun. But I can't just ask him; I just met him.

"So you're thirteen?" He says like he's not believing it.

"Fourteen." I correct.

"You look a lot older."

"Yeah I get that a lot."

"I mean most of the girls my age look younger than you." He said shocked.

I smirk. "I don't know if that's a good thing of bad thing."

"Good thing." He smirks back. "We should hang out sometime."

"Yeah we should." I smile but not a genuine happy smile it's closer to a smirk. "Nice meeting you Damon." I say before heading to the stairs.

"You too Elena." He calls back not too loud.

I smirk and head down stairs to bed.

"Elena... Lena, wake up."

I open my eyes quickly and sit up fast. I was having a nightmare again. I see Jenna standing at the end of my bed. "You okay?" She asks.

"Yeah fine."

"I have to leave." She frowns. "Giuseppe's driving me to the airport. But Stefan offered to show you around town."

"Okay, that's nice." I get up and walk over to my dresser I grab my brush and start brushing the tangles out of my long brown hair. I look up into my chocolate brown eyes. I don't like looking in the mirror because all I see is my mom. I'm a spitting image of her. I start tearing up. No. I don't want to cry. I cried none stop for a week. I don't need to cry anymore.

Jenna walks over to me and turns me around and hugs me tightly. After a few seconds I push her away. "I'm fine. I'm just going to miss you." I say confidently.

"I'll try to come up for a weekend as soon as I can." She says.

"Thanks."

"I'll miss you Lena. I love you." She smiles down at me.

"I love you too."

"It'll get better, trust me." She then leaves and I follow her out.

"What time is it?" I ask.

"Quarter after eleven." Giuseppe answers me from the stairs where he's waiting with Jenna's suitcases.

"Holy, I slept in." I said.

"That's okay it's summer." Giuseppe said reassuring.

I smile small. "Stefan said he would show you around town whenever you like. Damon can drive you guys into town and I can pick you up after I drop off Jenna or you guys can wait to go until I get back." Giuseppe said friendly.

"Um while see." I said following them up the stairs. I see Stefan sitting at the island eating a sandwich.

"Okay well we got to go. Stefan text me when or if you need me to pick you guys up." He said.

"Okay." Stefan smiles.

Jenna hugs me. "I'll call when I get home." She whispers to me.

"Okay." I smile at her and watch them walk out of the kitchen together.

"So uh, if you don't want to go into town or anything, you don't have. I understand how you are feeling and I understand if you don't really want to do anything." He tries to be friendly. I walk over to the fridge a grab a bottle of water.

"Trust me Stefan; you don't know what I'm feeling. You lost your mom when you were ten. I just lost my parents three weeks ago." I say sounding like a bitch which I'm starting to believe I am.

"I'm sorry." He says apologetically. "Are you hungry? There is like any food you can think of."

"No thanks." Come to think of it I haven't eaten since before we got on the plane yesterday. I'm just not hungry.

"Where's your brother?" I ask curious.

"Probably sleeping. He sleeps most of the day, then goes out sometime in the afternoon and then doesn't come home to sometime in the middle of the night. I barely ever see him." He shrugs.

"Ah, I see." I answer.

"Look I'm going to ride my bike into town and hang out with some friends. If you don't want to come just tell my dad you had a headache or something or he'll bug you about it." He explains and acts more himself than the friendly fake persona he had on before. He's about to leave. But then turns around. "My dad told me to tell you there's some furniture, decoration and clothing catalogs downstairs on the coffee table. You can pick out whatever you want; dad's like a millionaire or something." He smirks and walks away. I sigh and put my head on the counter.

Giuseppe and Stefan seem like fakes. They act all nice and try to buy my love but I can tell it's not completely real. Damon seems real.

I stand up and grab an apple from the fruit basket in the middle of the island. I need to eat something. I carry it and my water bottle downstairs and sit down on the expensive leather couch in front of the extensive flat screen television. I put my water on the coffee table and pick up the remote. I turn the t.v on and the cable comes on.

Eating my perfectly green apple out of one hand and flipping through the channels using the other hand. I do this for about ten minutes before I settle on a rerun of the ABC family show 'Switched At Birth'. It's from season one when Bay and Emmett are first starting to become friends. I use to love this show now it just seems boring and not important. I get up and walk into the bathroom and drop my apple core into the trashcan.

I walk out to the living room again and sit on the couch this time I grab a furniture and electronic catalog and a pen and sit up against the arm of the couch. I go through it and circle a whole bunch of stuff including a laptop, a beanbag chair, a stereo, a cool gummy bear lamp and a whole bunch more.

After about an hour I put the catalogs down, turn off the t.v and chug the rest of the water bottle. I walk up stairs looking for the recycling to put the empty plastic water bottle in. When I get upstairs I see Damon sitting at the island eating a bagel.

"Hey do you know where the recycling is?" I ask.

"Outside the patio door." He answers while chewing a bite of bagel and not even looking at me.

"Attractive." I mumble and he doesn't hear me. I walk outside and throw the water bottle into the recycling blue box. I look around the back yard quick. It's beautiful. Like paradise. Too bad I won't ever be able to enjoy since I'm completely depressed. I walk back into the kitchen to see Damon tossing his plate into the sink. He looks up at me and smirks. "Cute pajamas, didn't even notice them last night."

I look down and just realize now I haven't even changed yet. "Yeah, I'm having a lazy day." I sigh and sit down on one of the stools.

"Well, if you ever want to have a fun time, just let me know." He winks. Normal Elena would have blushed horribly and made a fool of herself. I'm not really normal anymore. I act like I didn't even notice it.

"I'll let you know." I smirk back. He looks a little shocked that I'm flirting back but he goes with.

"You know what helps with what you're feeling right now?"

"No, what?" I ask.

"Having fun. Partying. It gets your mind off things for a little while." He says truthfully.

"Nice to know." I say emotionless.

"My dad's going out of town next weekend for business, already told Stefan he had to leave Saturday night because I'm throwing a party but I'm not going to kick you out, if you want I can introduce you to people." He says friendly.

"Thanks, I'll think about it." I say getting up from the stool and heading towards the basement. "Have fun at whatever party you are going to tonight." I smirk.

"Thanks, I will." He yells back as I walk down the stairs smirking.

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