To love again? To love you again?
By Mad Meg Askevron
Chapter one: The Dawn has turned black
Sakura and Tomoyo walked down the halls of their collage for the first time in their new school. Tomoyo looked almost the same, if more elegant, her long black-violet hair reached down to her waist, her amethyst eyes held a certain regal light to them, and she looked like a queen. Sakura was the opposite, she was completely different, and her friends at Tomeda High wouldn't recognize her. Her hair was shoulder length, and had black streaks running through it and spiked. She was really tall now 6'3, she wore contacts that made her eyes look like a cat's, with the slit pupil and everything. She wore baggy black jeans covered in chains, studs, and safety pins. She had four piercing in her ears and one on the right side of her nose. She had on long black sleeved shirt, over it was a smaller shirt, so it showed a nice, rounded figure. Her T-shirt said " BHAHAHAHA! Sorry I need to practice laughing in you face" in white lettering with rest of the shirt black, she had safety pins all over her shirt.
She and Tomoyo made quite a picture. Tomoyo dressed in a sundress with plum blossoms along the hem and then, Sakura a head taller dressed in her clothes with heavy eyeliner. They checked in and they headed out for their car. They followed the directions to the large apartment Aunt Sonomi bought them. Sakura drove her black jaguar (A gift from her aunt as a going away present, bough there and they picked it up) up the drive and spotted a beautiful building. Her mouth fell open as she drove up to the intricate iron gates. It was obviously an apartment complex, the place was huge, it had soft pink walls, and rich beautiful gardens. Sakura hit the call button, and a voice asked them who they were through a microphone.
"Sakura and Tomoyo Kinomoto here." Aunt Sonomi had put them under Sakura's name after much thinking it would probably be easier for the Americans to pronounce.
"Good morning, your rooms are number 264, fourth floor, please come to the desk to get your keys." The thing buzzed and the gate slid, slowly open. They drove in, and parked the car as close to the door as they could. They got out and they were immediately ascended upon by four bellboys. They grabbed their luggage, 5 packs each and a sewing machine, and placed them on large trolleys. They followed the two girls up to the desk; they got their keys and continued on their way up to their room. When they arrived at the door and Sakura unlocked the door, and they went in, they boys neatly and gently put the bags in the corner. The rest left with only one guy left in the room, Tomoyo gave him a heavy tip and winked before she left the room. He turned to Sakura.
"Have a nice day and thank you for staying here." He smiled a soft, sweet smile. Sakura smiled back and closed the door behind him. Sakura picked up two packs, she opened one room, Tomoyo was in there, and she'd claimed it for her own. It was lavender color them, with purple and pink peonies as decoration, with a vase of light purple and pink roses. Sakura walked to the door on the other side of the circular room, it would be their living room. There were two more rooms. One door opened into another room, it was a pink room, and it reminded her of home. It had pink walls with roses as bordering, there was a rose wood wardrobe, a rose wood bed with a footboard and head bored painted with gold gilt. There was an empty bookshelf that was quite large, some shelves on the north wall, and a white and pink-stripped couch, chair, and a rose wood dresser heavily carved. She stepped through a door that led to another room. It turned out to be a really large bathroom. It was green marble sink top with a large mirror that took up the sage colored wall. The bathtub was large and had a curtain blacking it with the pattern of an ocean. The shower was tall and had foggy glass panes as sliding doors built into the wall, as if it were a new room. There was a large hamper, and a large pile of fluffy towels and a rack to hang clothes on after you finish drying. She opened the case she had brought in with her and set out her bathroom items. She then went back to the bedroom, and hung up her clothes, put away her jewelry and safety pins. She changed into some fresh clothes, this time into a skimpy black skirt and fishnet that looked like spider webs. She put in and earring that filled all the holes in her ear with one big chain. On the other she only put in silver rings, at the bottom of her ear was a large hoop and the rings gradually got smaller up her ears. She had on a under shirt made out of the same stuff as her leggings, with a black, silk tube top and put an emerald in her nose. She strapped on large combat boots that added several inches, and put on the make up, it was heavy black eyeliner and dark blue shadow that glittered, and last of all she put on a black ribbon choker with a little silver cherry blossom hanging from it. As she left the room she blew a kiss to a rather old teddy bear.
Sakura found Tomoyo setting up the kitchen after checking the 1st room which turned out to be an extra bedroom with reds and gold's them, decorated with hibiscus flowers. Tomoyo worked fast, she already had the living room done, her rooms, and she was adding the last touches to the kitchen, made of more marble though black and white this time. Tomoyo had her hair in a loose braid tied with a purple ribbon. She had on a pair of soft jeans that had plum blossoms sewed on the hems, and a purple top that hung off her shoulders elegantly. She smelled of sweet lavender, and she turned a warm smile on her, the only make up she wore was pink tinted lip balm, and she wore amethyst earrings. She walked over and admired Sakura's outfit. "That turned out nice, we did a wonderful job, maybe we can sell that one, once we get the materials to make more. C'mon lets go and buy our books and get something to eat." Tomoyo took up her purse and Sakura put her wallet and cell phone into a pocket that you couldn't see till you put your hand in it. Sakura picked up her keys, with the new one added, and locked the door behind them. They arrived at the school with no trouble, and went in, they had several people point them to the way to the book counter. At the counter were two guys their age, one was pale, and had soft blue eyes, they held a mysterious air to them, and he had wavy blue-black hair, he was strongly built and tall, but not as tall as Sakura in her boots. The guy next to him was taller, even height with Sakura; he had messy chocolate hair, and amber eyes, muscular, but not overly so. Sakura paid no attention to him but marched right up to the counter. "Welcome to Oregon University." The woman smile yet looked surprised at the sight of her. Sakura smiled sweetly, and took out her wallet. "Books for Tomoyo Daidouji and Sakura Kinomoto, please." "I'll need proof of ID." Tomoyo placed her's on the counter along side of Sakura's. "Sakura, those guys are staring at us." Sakura turned to face them, narrowing her eyes, knowing that she looked scary with her clothes, make up and cat eyes that were neon yellow. "What are you looking at?" She half-said and half-growled. The guys jumped. "I'm sorry, it's just that I know two people from Japan with those names, I'm sorry." The dark haired one said. "It's nice to meet you I'm Eriol Hiirigazawa." He bowed to them. "Eriol-kun?!" Tomoyo shirked, the boy looked surprised then delighted, and he nodded excitedly. "It's me and Sakura!" She launched on him and hugged him. Eriol turned to Sakura who had been waiting quietly in the back, aware that Syaoran was starring at her. When Eriol stepped away from Tomoyo, he opened his arms wide, and smiled. Sakura smiled back and entered his warm and friendly arms. He rocked her slightly. He finally pulled her at arm length. "Well Saku-chan that's certainly a change, though I have to say I kind of like it!" he looked her up and down and Sakura laughed. The counter lady coughed politely. "Miss here is your books and schedules." as Sakura reached for the books Eriol grabbed her hand. He stare and her left hand's ring finger, it bore a small gold ring with a large diamond in the shape of a flower, with emeralds cut to shape leaves. "Sakura is this what I think it is?" He looked up to see her smiling. "Yes, his name is Royo Kenshin, he's a really great guy, he'll be coming here to join Tomo-chan and me for school in a few weeks." Just then a girl with beautiful black hair and enchanting ruby eyes bounded up, she wrapped Tomoyo into a large hug. "Tomoyo! I didn't think I'd get to see you again! Where's Sakura?" She looked around and noticed the girl Eriol had hold of, she was dark and beautiful, with strange cat eyes that she'd almost think real, with streaked auburn hair. "Sakura?" The girl nodded, and Meiling pounced upon her. "Oh Mei-chan, it's so good to see you!" The two girls gripped each other. They finally pulled away and smiled at each other. "Have you found a room yet?" "I looked at the dorms but I just don't like it, The guys found them the perfect place but there's no room for me." Her face saddened at this. "Perfect, we have just the room for you at out home. Aunt Sonomi bought us an apartment complex, and not just any complex either." She scooped up the books and started to walk off with Meiling, telling her all about it. Tomoyo had given Eriol the number, and was close behind the other two. She glanced at Syaoran over her shoulder, but kept on going. Eriol laid a hand on his shoulder. "You should have written, or called." A single tear fell down Syaoran's face, Eriol had pulled out her left hand to see the ring, and he had seen a long white scar on Sakura's arm, from her wrist half way to her elbow, right along the path of a blue vein. He cried for her soul, for her engagement, and for her scars on both her body and soul. He quickly whipped his face and went after Eriol.
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Meiling, Tomoyo, and Sakura went out the doors, talking about nothing. Sakura went up to her car, and unlocked the doors with a remote.
"Nice Jag!" Meiling slid into the back seat with great excitement. "Oh I want a Jag!" Sakura got into the car, and put the key in the ignition.
"Where do you want to eat, my treat." Asked Tomoyo.
"How about, that one place, A touch of Grace©! That place is awesome." Sakura nodded and pulled out of the parking lot, she passed a dark blue Mercedes as she pulled out and saw the two guys, Eriol and... Syaoran. Yes Syaoran, the guy who killed my heat till Royo came along, Royo helped me gain some idea of self-esteem, and he helped her heal, in a way nobody else could, he healed her by falling in love.
Sakura pulled up and parked, they were shown to a table and they ate and talked, and laughed. It seemed like good old times, before they were separated.
"You know what? Since it's only 11:00, lets go malling!" They cheered.
"After that I want to try on clothes and stuff, besides we don't have your stuff. I can call Eriol and have him drop it by when we get home." The trio nodded in agreement. They left a tip and Meiling wrote a not that said. "The dark girl wearing spider webs thinks your cute!" without telling them. They paid their bill and left, laughing they pulled up to a large mall. The three girls went in, their first stop was at a place that sold anime and manga. The girls raced in and bought Anime that they never had time to get at home.
"Do we have a DVD?" Meiling asked while looking at another DVD.
"Nope, but we can buy one." Tomoyo said distractedly. Meiling just laughed and laughed, Sakura ended up catching her. "Let's pay and go." Meiling said whipping laughter tears from her eyes so as not to smudge her make up. They went to a computer store and bought a new laptop and a DVD player. They went down to Banana Republic, they bought a pair of cool khakis and Meiling bought a silky red skirt, Sakura bought a tiny black shirt, and Tomoyo bought a lavender skirt.
"Sakura, I dare you to change into an outfit of my choice, wash off your make up, if possible take out your contacts and wear none of your earrings or anything but what I choose." Meiling dared her with a smirk.
"I take it." Sakura held out her hand and Meiling clasped.
"Witnessed!" Tomoyo called. Meliing dragged Sakura off; she pulled out several articles of clothing. She dragged her into a jewelry store and bought a pair of earrings, she then went into a make up parlor. The whole while Tomoyo waited on a bench reading a book.
Meiling stripped her to her underwear, she took her to a sink and scrubbed her down, she took out the make up, and to her utter surprise the black streaks turned out to be colored hair spray. She took out the earrings and the nose ring and put them into a green silk pouch in her pocket. She put her in a skirt, it was a sage green with Japanese scenes embroidered on it, and slit up to the thigh with gold lining. She slipped on a shirt that laced up the back. She got it purposely too small so that it 0only reached just past her side. It showed her every curve, and quite alot of her back, with gold chains hanging down the back with jade balls hanging on the bottom. Meiling took out the earrings and hooked them into her ears; they were diamonds with little emeralds in the center. She placed a necklace that had azure blue jewels along with sea-green gems, both colors depicked on the clothing, stung by an intricate silver braid. She had her slip into some green Chinese silk slippers.
"Can you take out the contacts?"
"Yeah." She took them out and threw them away. "I can create more with my cards. Which reminds me..." She lifter her hand and spoke in quiet words. "My power that lies within me, come out to my call, I ask thee, please grow out my hair." She imagined a long flow down past her hips. Meiling clapped when she was done. She bowed. Meiling covered her up with a trench coat, and put her clothes with Tomoyo. She took her into the beauty parlor.
A woman put on green fake nails with Chinese characters painted on them. A woman put on eyeliner, but only enough to make her lashes seem fuller, she lengthen them, and shadowed her eyes with an opalescent green. She colored her lips with a soft pink. When they were done they stood her in front of a mirror. Sakura grinned and gave two thumbs up. They walked out and Tomoyo clapped. Sakura went in and changed the skirt to white Capri pants with little green flowers at the bottom and braided her soft, new hair.
They went the day shopping, buying random things. When they got home, and put everything away. Tomoyo called Eriol. "Eriol, We need Meiling's things. Meiling and I have thought of a plan. Me and Meiling are going to pretend to go to sleep, and I want you to think of an excuse to send Syaoran."
"All right, plan A has started. Bye" they hung up and Tomoyo went to her room, followed by Meiling entering her own. Tomoyo had talked Sakura into putting on the skirt again. She looked alot like she did when she was girl, but changed. She was more graceful, elegant. Sakura sat on the couch watching TV when the doorbell rang. Sakura walked to the door, and the two other girls peeked out their doors to see the exchange.
When Sakura opened the door she rightly expected to see Eriol, but was shocked cold by the sight of Syaoran. He held a bag in his right hand and a couple of suitcases by his feet.
"May I come in?" He asked quietly.
"I don't know, I can't possibly think of what you could say. I mean you haven't talked to me in what nine, ten years? I think you could have said it then. If you hadn't noticed, I moved on, and I don't need you, I thought I did once, but that was along time to think Li-san, and I changed, and I can't change back. Trust me, you wouldn't like me the way I am now. Let's just pretend we never met, and go on with our lives. Good Bye Syaoran." She took the books and the bags just inside the door and closed the door. She heard his footsteps leaving, and she slid down the door, with her back against it. Without a word the two girls took seats next to her, and held her, not saying a word, for right now it would just get in the way. Syaoran couldn't take the glimer of pain and sworrow that marred her gem stone eyes.
Tomoyo had helped Sakura to her bed and to get her in her nightgown, she closed the door quietly and sat next to Meiling, who was sitting on the plush green couch.
"Meiling," Tomoyo looked at the floor, twisting her hands, a worried face playing on her elegant face. "I think its time I tell you this. Do you remember that long white scar running down the back of Sakura's arm?"
"Yeah, did she get it in an accident?"
"No, she tried to kill herself, Eriol found her..."
:Flash back A year ago:
Hey, I'm feeling tired. My time, is gone today. You flew with suicide. Sometimes, that's ok. Hear what others say. I'm here, standing hollow. Falling away from me. Falling away from me. Day, is here fading. That's when, I would say. I flew with suicide. Sometimes kill the pain. I can always say. 'It's gonna be better tomorrow'. Falling away from me. Falling away from me.
Eriol pulled his dark blue Mercedes up in front of Sakura's house, a cozy yellow house. Eriol knocked several times, confused, he had seen Sakura's pink bug in the grage, when she never answered he used his key and went in. He opened himself looking for Sakura's aura. He had come here looking for her, he had a surprise for her, Syaoran. He had finally got the courage to face her after eight, almost nine years of no word from him.
What he found rocked him back. When a sorceress (or Scorcer) is dying their aura's get really, really low. he found Sakura's beautiful pink and gold aura in just such a state. He raced up to her bedroom, when he came in he was sobbing.
She lay there in the white sheets of the bed, she wore a simple pink night gown, her cascading, auburn hair fell gracefully and slightly messy around her figure, reaching past her hips, even when it was dried and naturally wavy. Her face was as snowy white as a feild of snow that covered a beautiful medow. Her face had no color at all, her long, thick, black eyelashes rested softly on her paled checks. The left side of her bed was dyed a red-brown color, her left arm bearing a gapping wound still bleeding freely, she must have lost consciousness just as he arrived. There was a small, deadly sharp knife resting in her right hand. He fell to his knees crying and letting them pour, he then heard a thin, raspy whisper "I Love you my little wolf..." Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
(falling away from me). It's spinning round and round. (falling away from me). It's lost and can't be found. (falling away from me). It's spinning round and round. (falling away from me). So down.
Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
Pressing me, they won't go away. So I pray, go away.
He checked her for a pulse, He was grateful to find there was one. He wrapped her up in a softy blanket after stopping the bleeding. Her carried her out to his car, relieved to leave the room that smelled like salty copper. Eriol had never cried so much in one day, and he hoped he never would. It's falling away from me.
Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
::End of Flash Back::
Meiling looked dumbfounded, completely horrified and confused.
"Because Syaoran..."
"Yes, I want to show you something." Tomoyo walked over to Sakura's bedroom door. "Look in side." Before Meiling Sakura was harmless. her hair was no longer short and streaked, just cascading falls of auburn, she looked like an angel, and her face was soft and sweet. She had none of her piercing in, but you could tell she had them, she wore green silk pajamas, and it broke Meiling's heart, she could see a glimpse of her scar on her fore arm. The room smelled sweetly of roses and moonflowers that floated from the open door/window that lead to a stone balcony.
"Sakura, oh poor Sakura." she cried softly and silently. Tomoyo gently pulled her away, her arm wrapped around Meiling as she cried with empthy for the girl Sakura had lost, she could never be innocent and un marked. She would bear her scars and pain for the rest of her life, even if she had fallen in Love with another person.
"I must ask you to tell no one, absolutly no one that you know." Meiling nodded, helped Tomoyo clean up the living room and kitchen, it was a mess, they had eaten all the chocolate in the house. "I'll go grocery shopping tomarrow." Tomoyo set the last plate away and went to her room. She dressed in a soft white gown Sakura had made her, it was exactly like a 17th century dress a noble might wear, except softer for sleeping. Tomoyo picked up her comb and softly worked it through her silky locks. She began to sing without notcing what she was doing.
Meiling was dressed in silky red shorts and a matching spegtti strap shirt showing her mid-drift. Her raven hair was loose and she sat a vanity table on the chair. Her hair nearly brushed the carpeted floor. She worked a mother of pearl combe through her hair, braiding it in a loose braid. as she lay in her soft bed she heard Tomoyo's soft, sweet voice singing.
Sakura had laid in bed, unable to sleep, pretending to be asleep to the girls when they had looked in on her. Sakura got out of bed and lit only a small lamp, just enough to see by. She still had on the green out fit, she slipped out of it, and hung it up so as not to wrinkle it. She put on a black, satin, fittend night gown, it pooled around her feet and the neck hung off her shoulders, baring her soft, white neck. She left her hair loose after combing it. She slipped on some soft balck shoes. She slipped out of her room silently. She was in the circular living room, it was of dark and pale greens, she heard Tomoyo's song as she got ready for bed.
You try to hide the pain,
But I can still see the vestage of tears,
The blood shot eyes,
some how I know you cried yourself to sleep,
Like you have,
Every night,
For the past year,
It hurts me to know your heart has gone to stone,
You don't bleed any more,
You ran out of blood,
Your tears turn black,
And your face is stained,
I know the man,
Who is stained with blood,
Your blood,
I cry for you my friend,
I cry for her heart,
I cry for her soul,
I hope she learns
To Hope again,
For I have seen that dead look in her eyes,
Those beautiful emerald eyes,
They use to glow with life and light,
So now my friend,
I hope you dream,
I dream that you will hope,
I pray that you find you one true love.
Tomoyo's sweet voice trailed off softly and meaningfully. A single tear fell down Sakura's face, she silently left the rooms and went out side at a run, She wandered through the gardens finally settling down on a stone bench it had a small apple tree shading it, it was surrounded with large Moon flower bushes. She curled up her head reting on the bark, her knees pulled up to her chest.
What none of them told Sakura was that Eriol and Syaoran lived in the smae Aparatment complex. Syaoran had, by pure chance, seen Sakura run out into the gardens as her stood on his bedroom blacony. His room was just a floor above hers though two sets of rooms down form hers. He found the little spot she had found, it was almost impossable to see at night. She had fallen asleep on the tree, he settled himself down, he slowly and gently moved her so that her curled form was nestled up against hims, her head resting on his chest. Sakura felt hte warmth, it was a cool September night and the satin of her nightgown grew very cold quickly. Her thin, plae arms snkaed out to wrap around his waist in her sleep. Syaoran grinned and wrapped his rather large coat around them. he settled back, going into a light doze, if she moved he would be instantly awake. When he could not sleep anylonger he just stroked her long, silky hair.
When it had reached around three in the morning, He tucked the coat up around her and scooped her up into his arms. Walked up to her room, and knocked gentally. A sleepy and slightly mussed Tomoyo opened the door very surprised. She steped back, her elegant white gown making her look even more queenly dispite her dishiveled state. He followed Tomoyo into Sakura's room when her laid her in bed, he tucked her in, completely forgetting about the coat. She snuggled down into the pillow and as he was leaving he heard her whisper in her sleep.
"I ...Love...you...little wolf..." SHe turned over in her sleep mumbling something about mounds of chocolate, but not before he caught the glimer of a tear, it gleamed silver in the moon light and sparkled. He felt like crying as well. WHen he had come back into the living room Tomoyo set him on the couch and pushed a cup of hot tea into his hands.
"What was she doing outside?!" Tomoyo shouted quietly so as not to wake Meiling or Sakura.
"I don't know, I saw her running out side through my window and went to check on her. I found her sleeping on a stone b ench with her face up against the tree. So I wrapped her up, got her warm and brought her here." Tomoyo nodded and smiled at him.
"Thank you, but plese don't mention it to her, lets just say she won't be s grateful as I am."
"Tomoyo, I have a question." Syaoran stared down into his tea cup. Tomoyo could tell from the look on his face that it was something that had been bothering him. She nodded at him to continue. "That scar, on Sakura's arm, she tried to kill heerself, d-didn't she? B-because of m-me?" He was sobbing now, Tomoyo took the cup away and gathered the man in a comforting hold, letting him cry on her shoulder as she patted his back.
"Don't worry I made sure she has too much to live for, even if it ment setting her up with Royo. I just hope he dosn't hurt her, otherwise I will kill him myself." This coming from the gentel, pettite woman, and know it it was the hwole truth, was a bit frightning. "Well come on, you need to get back to bed. She whiped his face off with a klnex, and put the cup in the kitchen, she gave his shoulders one last squese. "Don't worry about Sakura." He nodded but wouldn't look her in the eyes. He left and headed to his own room, as he looked out into the garden, he could see where they had been, and one silver tear crept down his face.
Sakura's eyes shot open. She had just dreamed that she was out on a stone bench with Syaoran, curled up, wrapped in his warm arms, and that he was crying and stroking her hair. She could see that it was a corpse that he cradled, her face had gone snow white, and she could see a long, gapping, gash running down her arm. Kero mumbeled in his sleep, telling her to go back to bed.
***End of Chapter One***
Well I can't lay claim on Falling Away from Me, tha's KoRn but "I cry for you" is mine!
Disclamier: I don't own ccs, I don't own Jaguars (Sobs), or BUGS (Sobs) but I do own Touch of Grace and "I cry for you" oh and the apartment complex, jewelry, clothing, something else I can't think of. All those who review will go on my Thank you list at the end of every chapter, and I will answer what questions I can. Let me know the verdict and if I should continue, I have pretty much the whole story finished, I just have to write the epilouge. If you have any Ideas for songs at the wedding, (I think I'm going to fit in Cold Play's Yellow) let me know!
The Infamous Mad Meg
Sakura and Tomoyo walked down the halls of their collage for the first time in their new school. Tomoyo looked almost the same, if more elegant, her long black-violet hair reached down to her waist, her amethyst eyes held a certain regal light to them, and she looked like a queen. Sakura was the opposite, she was completely different, and her friends at Tomeda High wouldn't recognize her. Her hair was shoulder length, and had black streaks running through it and spiked. She was really tall now 6'3, she wore contacts that made her eyes look like a cat's, with the slit pupil and everything. She wore baggy black jeans covered in chains, studs, and safety pins. She had four piercing in her ears and one on the right side of her nose. She had on long black sleeved shirt, over it was a smaller shirt, so it showed a nice, rounded figure. Her T-shirt said " BHAHAHAHA! Sorry I need to practice laughing in you face" in white lettering with rest of the shirt black, she had safety pins all over her shirt.
She and Tomoyo made quite a picture. Tomoyo dressed in a sundress with plum blossoms along the hem and then, Sakura a head taller dressed in her clothes with heavy eyeliner. They checked in and they headed out for their car. They followed the directions to the large apartment Aunt Sonomi bought them. Sakura drove her black jaguar (A gift from her aunt as a going away present, bough there and they picked it up) up the drive and spotted a beautiful building. Her mouth fell open as she drove up to the intricate iron gates. It was obviously an apartment complex, the place was huge, it had soft pink walls, and rich beautiful gardens. Sakura hit the call button, and a voice asked them who they were through a microphone.
"Sakura and Tomoyo Kinomoto here." Aunt Sonomi had put them under Sakura's name after much thinking it would probably be easier for the Americans to pronounce.
"Good morning, your rooms are number 264, fourth floor, please come to the desk to get your keys." The thing buzzed and the gate slid, slowly open. They drove in, and parked the car as close to the door as they could. They got out and they were immediately ascended upon by four bellboys. They grabbed their luggage, 5 packs each and a sewing machine, and placed them on large trolleys. They followed the two girls up to the desk; they got their keys and continued on their way up to their room. When they arrived at the door and Sakura unlocked the door, and they went in, they boys neatly and gently put the bags in the corner. The rest left with only one guy left in the room, Tomoyo gave him a heavy tip and winked before she left the room. He turned to Sakura.
"Have a nice day and thank you for staying here." He smiled a soft, sweet smile. Sakura smiled back and closed the door behind him. Sakura picked up two packs, she opened one room, Tomoyo was in there, and she'd claimed it for her own. It was lavender color them, with purple and pink peonies as decoration, with a vase of light purple and pink roses. Sakura walked to the door on the other side of the circular room, it would be their living room. There were two more rooms. One door opened into another room, it was a pink room, and it reminded her of home. It had pink walls with roses as bordering, there was a rose wood wardrobe, a rose wood bed with a footboard and head bored painted with gold gilt. There was an empty bookshelf that was quite large, some shelves on the north wall, and a white and pink-stripped couch, chair, and a rose wood dresser heavily carved. She stepped through a door that led to another room. It turned out to be a really large bathroom. It was green marble sink top with a large mirror that took up the sage colored wall. The bathtub was large and had a curtain blacking it with the pattern of an ocean. The shower was tall and had foggy glass panes as sliding doors built into the wall, as if it were a new room. There was a large hamper, and a large pile of fluffy towels and a rack to hang clothes on after you finish drying. She opened the case she had brought in with her and set out her bathroom items. She then went back to the bedroom, and hung up her clothes, put away her jewelry and safety pins. She changed into some fresh clothes, this time into a skimpy black skirt and fishnet that looked like spider webs. She put in and earring that filled all the holes in her ear with one big chain. On the other she only put in silver rings, at the bottom of her ear was a large hoop and the rings gradually got smaller up her ears. She had on a under shirt made out of the same stuff as her leggings, with a black, silk tube top and put an emerald in her nose. She strapped on large combat boots that added several inches, and put on the make up, it was heavy black eyeliner and dark blue shadow that glittered, and last of all she put on a black ribbon choker with a little silver cherry blossom hanging from it. As she left the room she blew a kiss to a rather old teddy bear.
Sakura found Tomoyo setting up the kitchen after checking the 1st room which turned out to be an extra bedroom with reds and gold's them, decorated with hibiscus flowers. Tomoyo worked fast, she already had the living room done, her rooms, and she was adding the last touches to the kitchen, made of more marble though black and white this time. Tomoyo had her hair in a loose braid tied with a purple ribbon. She had on a pair of soft jeans that had plum blossoms sewed on the hems, and a purple top that hung off her shoulders elegantly. She smelled of sweet lavender, and she turned a warm smile on her, the only make up she wore was pink tinted lip balm, and she wore amethyst earrings. She walked over and admired Sakura's outfit. "That turned out nice, we did a wonderful job, maybe we can sell that one, once we get the materials to make more. C'mon lets go and buy our books and get something to eat." Tomoyo took up her purse and Sakura put her wallet and cell phone into a pocket that you couldn't see till you put your hand in it. Sakura picked up her keys, with the new one added, and locked the door behind them. They arrived at the school with no trouble, and went in, they had several people point them to the way to the book counter. At the counter were two guys their age, one was pale, and had soft blue eyes, they held a mysterious air to them, and he had wavy blue-black hair, he was strongly built and tall, but not as tall as Sakura in her boots. The guy next to him was taller, even height with Sakura; he had messy chocolate hair, and amber eyes, muscular, but not overly so. Sakura paid no attention to him but marched right up to the counter. "Welcome to Oregon University." The woman smile yet looked surprised at the sight of her. Sakura smiled sweetly, and took out her wallet. "Books for Tomoyo Daidouji and Sakura Kinomoto, please." "I'll need proof of ID." Tomoyo placed her's on the counter along side of Sakura's. "Sakura, those guys are staring at us." Sakura turned to face them, narrowing her eyes, knowing that she looked scary with her clothes, make up and cat eyes that were neon yellow. "What are you looking at?" She half-said and half-growled. The guys jumped. "I'm sorry, it's just that I know two people from Japan with those names, I'm sorry." The dark haired one said. "It's nice to meet you I'm Eriol Hiirigazawa." He bowed to them. "Eriol-kun?!" Tomoyo shirked, the boy looked surprised then delighted, and he nodded excitedly. "It's me and Sakura!" She launched on him and hugged him. Eriol turned to Sakura who had been waiting quietly in the back, aware that Syaoran was starring at her. When Eriol stepped away from Tomoyo, he opened his arms wide, and smiled. Sakura smiled back and entered his warm and friendly arms. He rocked her slightly. He finally pulled her at arm length. "Well Saku-chan that's certainly a change, though I have to say I kind of like it!" he looked her up and down and Sakura laughed. The counter lady coughed politely. "Miss here is your books and schedules." as Sakura reached for the books Eriol grabbed her hand. He stare and her left hand's ring finger, it bore a small gold ring with a large diamond in the shape of a flower, with emeralds cut to shape leaves. "Sakura is this what I think it is?" He looked up to see her smiling. "Yes, his name is Royo Kenshin, he's a really great guy, he'll be coming here to join Tomo-chan and me for school in a few weeks." Just then a girl with beautiful black hair and enchanting ruby eyes bounded up, she wrapped Tomoyo into a large hug. "Tomoyo! I didn't think I'd get to see you again! Where's Sakura?" She looked around and noticed the girl Eriol had hold of, she was dark and beautiful, with strange cat eyes that she'd almost think real, with streaked auburn hair. "Sakura?" The girl nodded, and Meiling pounced upon her. "Oh Mei-chan, it's so good to see you!" The two girls gripped each other. They finally pulled away and smiled at each other. "Have you found a room yet?" "I looked at the dorms but I just don't like it, The guys found them the perfect place but there's no room for me." Her face saddened at this. "Perfect, we have just the room for you at out home. Aunt Sonomi bought us an apartment complex, and not just any complex either." She scooped up the books and started to walk off with Meiling, telling her all about it. Tomoyo had given Eriol the number, and was close behind the other two. She glanced at Syaoran over her shoulder, but kept on going. Eriol laid a hand on his shoulder. "You should have written, or called." A single tear fell down Syaoran's face, Eriol had pulled out her left hand to see the ring, and he had seen a long white scar on Sakura's arm, from her wrist half way to her elbow, right along the path of a blue vein. He cried for her soul, for her engagement, and for her scars on both her body and soul. He quickly whipped his face and went after Eriol.
* * *
Meiling, Tomoyo, and Sakura went out the doors, talking about nothing. Sakura went up to her car, and unlocked the doors with a remote.
"Nice Jag!" Meiling slid into the back seat with great excitement. "Oh I want a Jag!" Sakura got into the car, and put the key in the ignition.
"Where do you want to eat, my treat." Asked Tomoyo.
"How about, that one place, A touch of Grace©! That place is awesome." Sakura nodded and pulled out of the parking lot, she passed a dark blue Mercedes as she pulled out and saw the two guys, Eriol and... Syaoran. Yes Syaoran, the guy who killed my heat till Royo came along, Royo helped me gain some idea of self-esteem, and he helped her heal, in a way nobody else could, he healed her by falling in love.
Sakura pulled up and parked, they were shown to a table and they ate and talked, and laughed. It seemed like good old times, before they were separated.
"You know what? Since it's only 11:00, lets go malling!" They cheered.
"After that I want to try on clothes and stuff, besides we don't have your stuff. I can call Eriol and have him drop it by when we get home." The trio nodded in agreement. They left a tip and Meiling wrote a not that said. "The dark girl wearing spider webs thinks your cute!" without telling them. They paid their bill and left, laughing they pulled up to a large mall. The three girls went in, their first stop was at a place that sold anime and manga. The girls raced in and bought Anime that they never had time to get at home.
"Do we have a DVD?" Meiling asked while looking at another DVD.
"Nope, but we can buy one." Tomoyo said distractedly. Meiling just laughed and laughed, Sakura ended up catching her. "Let's pay and go." Meiling said whipping laughter tears from her eyes so as not to smudge her make up. They went to a computer store and bought a new laptop and a DVD player. They went down to Banana Republic, they bought a pair of cool khakis and Meiling bought a silky red skirt, Sakura bought a tiny black shirt, and Tomoyo bought a lavender skirt.
"Sakura, I dare you to change into an outfit of my choice, wash off your make up, if possible take out your contacts and wear none of your earrings or anything but what I choose." Meiling dared her with a smirk.
"I take it." Sakura held out her hand and Meiling clasped.
"Witnessed!" Tomoyo called. Meliing dragged Sakura off; she pulled out several articles of clothing. She dragged her into a jewelry store and bought a pair of earrings, she then went into a make up parlor. The whole while Tomoyo waited on a bench reading a book.
Meiling stripped her to her underwear, she took her to a sink and scrubbed her down, she took out the make up, and to her utter surprise the black streaks turned out to be colored hair spray. She took out the earrings and the nose ring and put them into a green silk pouch in her pocket. She put her in a skirt, it was a sage green with Japanese scenes embroidered on it, and slit up to the thigh with gold lining. She slipped on a shirt that laced up the back. She got it purposely too small so that it 0only reached just past her side. It showed her every curve, and quite alot of her back, with gold chains hanging down the back with jade balls hanging on the bottom. Meiling took out the earrings and hooked them into her ears; they were diamonds with little emeralds in the center. She placed a necklace that had azure blue jewels along with sea-green gems, both colors depicked on the clothing, stung by an intricate silver braid. She had her slip into some green Chinese silk slippers.
"Can you take out the contacts?"
"Yeah." She took them out and threw them away. "I can create more with my cards. Which reminds me..." She lifter her hand and spoke in quiet words. "My power that lies within me, come out to my call, I ask thee, please grow out my hair." She imagined a long flow down past her hips. Meiling clapped when she was done. She bowed. Meiling covered her up with a trench coat, and put her clothes with Tomoyo. She took her into the beauty parlor.
A woman put on green fake nails with Chinese characters painted on them. A woman put on eyeliner, but only enough to make her lashes seem fuller, she lengthen them, and shadowed her eyes with an opalescent green. She colored her lips with a soft pink. When they were done they stood her in front of a mirror. Sakura grinned and gave two thumbs up. They walked out and Tomoyo clapped. Sakura went in and changed the skirt to white Capri pants with little green flowers at the bottom and braided her soft, new hair.
They went the day shopping, buying random things. When they got home, and put everything away. Tomoyo called Eriol. "Eriol, We need Meiling's things. Meiling and I have thought of a plan. Me and Meiling are going to pretend to go to sleep, and I want you to think of an excuse to send Syaoran."
"All right, plan A has started. Bye" they hung up and Tomoyo went to her room, followed by Meiling entering her own. Tomoyo had talked Sakura into putting on the skirt again. She looked alot like she did when she was girl, but changed. She was more graceful, elegant. Sakura sat on the couch watching TV when the doorbell rang. Sakura walked to the door, and the two other girls peeked out their doors to see the exchange.
When Sakura opened the door she rightly expected to see Eriol, but was shocked cold by the sight of Syaoran. He held a bag in his right hand and a couple of suitcases by his feet.
"May I come in?" He asked quietly.
"I don't know, I can't possibly think of what you could say. I mean you haven't talked to me in what nine, ten years? I think you could have said it then. If you hadn't noticed, I moved on, and I don't need you, I thought I did once, but that was along time to think Li-san, and I changed, and I can't change back. Trust me, you wouldn't like me the way I am now. Let's just pretend we never met, and go on with our lives. Good Bye Syaoran." She took the books and the bags just inside the door and closed the door. She heard his footsteps leaving, and she slid down the door, with her back against it. Without a word the two girls took seats next to her, and held her, not saying a word, for right now it would just get in the way. Syaoran couldn't take the glimer of pain and sworrow that marred her gem stone eyes.
Tomoyo had helped Sakura to her bed and to get her in her nightgown, she closed the door quietly and sat next to Meiling, who was sitting on the plush green couch.
"Meiling," Tomoyo looked at the floor, twisting her hands, a worried face playing on her elegant face. "I think its time I tell you this. Do you remember that long white scar running down the back of Sakura's arm?"
"Yeah, did she get it in an accident?"
"No, she tried to kill herself, Eriol found her..."
:Flash back A year ago:
Hey, I'm feeling tired. My time, is gone today. You flew with suicide. Sometimes, that's ok. Hear what others say. I'm here, standing hollow. Falling away from me. Falling away from me. Day, is here fading. That's when, I would say. I flew with suicide. Sometimes kill the pain. I can always say. 'It's gonna be better tomorrow'. Falling away from me. Falling away from me.
Eriol pulled his dark blue Mercedes up in front of Sakura's house, a cozy yellow house. Eriol knocked several times, confused, he had seen Sakura's pink bug in the grage, when she never answered he used his key and went in. He opened himself looking for Sakura's aura. He had come here looking for her, he had a surprise for her, Syaoran. He had finally got the courage to face her after eight, almost nine years of no word from him.
What he found rocked him back. When a sorceress (or Scorcer) is dying their aura's get really, really low. he found Sakura's beautiful pink and gold aura in just such a state. He raced up to her bedroom, when he came in he was sobbing.
She lay there in the white sheets of the bed, she wore a simple pink night gown, her cascading, auburn hair fell gracefully and slightly messy around her figure, reaching past her hips, even when it was dried and naturally wavy. Her face was as snowy white as a feild of snow that covered a beautiful medow. Her face had no color at all, her long, thick, black eyelashes rested softly on her paled checks. The left side of her bed was dyed a red-brown color, her left arm bearing a gapping wound still bleeding freely, she must have lost consciousness just as he arrived. There was a small, deadly sharp knife resting in her right hand. He fell to his knees crying and letting them pour, he then heard a thin, raspy whisper "I Love you my little wolf..." Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
(falling away from me). It's spinning round and round. (falling away from me). It's lost and can't be found. (falling away from me). It's spinning round and round. (falling away from me). So down.
Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
Pressing me, they won't go away. So I pray, go away.
He checked her for a pulse, He was grateful to find there was one. He wrapped her up in a softy blanket after stopping the bleeding. Her carried her out to his car, relieved to leave the room that smelled like salty copper. Eriol had never cried so much in one day, and he hoped he never would. It's falling away from me.
Beating me down. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground. Screaming so sad. Beating me, beating me. Down, down. Into the ground.
::End of Flash Back::
Meiling looked dumbfounded, completely horrified and confused.
"Because Syaoran..."
"Yes, I want to show you something." Tomoyo walked over to Sakura's bedroom door. "Look in side." Before Meiling Sakura was harmless. her hair was no longer short and streaked, just cascading falls of auburn, she looked like an angel, and her face was soft and sweet. She had none of her piercing in, but you could tell she had them, she wore green silk pajamas, and it broke Meiling's heart, she could see a glimpse of her scar on her fore arm. The room smelled sweetly of roses and moonflowers that floated from the open door/window that lead to a stone balcony.
"Sakura, oh poor Sakura." she cried softly and silently. Tomoyo gently pulled her away, her arm wrapped around Meiling as she cried with empthy for the girl Sakura had lost, she could never be innocent and un marked. She would bear her scars and pain for the rest of her life, even if she had fallen in Love with another person.
"I must ask you to tell no one, absolutly no one that you know." Meiling nodded, helped Tomoyo clean up the living room and kitchen, it was a mess, they had eaten all the chocolate in the house. "I'll go grocery shopping tomarrow." Tomoyo set the last plate away and went to her room. She dressed in a soft white gown Sakura had made her, it was exactly like a 17th century dress a noble might wear, except softer for sleeping. Tomoyo picked up her comb and softly worked it through her silky locks. She began to sing without notcing what she was doing.
Meiling was dressed in silky red shorts and a matching spegtti strap shirt showing her mid-drift. Her raven hair was loose and she sat a vanity table on the chair. Her hair nearly brushed the carpeted floor. She worked a mother of pearl combe through her hair, braiding it in a loose braid. as she lay in her soft bed she heard Tomoyo's soft, sweet voice singing.
Sakura had laid in bed, unable to sleep, pretending to be asleep to the girls when they had looked in on her. Sakura got out of bed and lit only a small lamp, just enough to see by. She still had on the green out fit, she slipped out of it, and hung it up so as not to wrinkle it. She put on a black, satin, fittend night gown, it pooled around her feet and the neck hung off her shoulders, baring her soft, white neck. She left her hair loose after combing it. She slipped on some soft balck shoes. She slipped out of her room silently. She was in the circular living room, it was of dark and pale greens, she heard Tomoyo's song as she got ready for bed.
You try to hide the pain,
But I can still see the vestage of tears,
The blood shot eyes,
some how I know you cried yourself to sleep,
Like you have,
Every night,
For the past year,
It hurts me to know your heart has gone to stone,
You don't bleed any more,
You ran out of blood,
Your tears turn black,
And your face is stained,
I know the man,
Who is stained with blood,
Your blood,
I cry for you my friend,
I cry for her heart,
I cry for her soul,
I hope she learns
To Hope again,
For I have seen that dead look in her eyes,
Those beautiful emerald eyes,
They use to glow with life and light,
So now my friend,
I hope you dream,
I dream that you will hope,
I pray that you find you one true love.
Tomoyo's sweet voice trailed off softly and meaningfully. A single tear fell down Sakura's face, she silently left the rooms and went out side at a run, She wandered through the gardens finally settling down on a stone bench it had a small apple tree shading it, it was surrounded with large Moon flower bushes. She curled up her head reting on the bark, her knees pulled up to her chest.
What none of them told Sakura was that Eriol and Syaoran lived in the smae Aparatment complex. Syaoran had, by pure chance, seen Sakura run out into the gardens as her stood on his bedroom blacony. His room was just a floor above hers though two sets of rooms down form hers. He found the little spot she had found, it was almost impossable to see at night. She had fallen asleep on the tree, he settled himself down, he slowly and gently moved her so that her curled form was nestled up against hims, her head resting on his chest. Sakura felt hte warmth, it was a cool September night and the satin of her nightgown grew very cold quickly. Her thin, plae arms snkaed out to wrap around his waist in her sleep. Syaoran grinned and wrapped his rather large coat around them. he settled back, going into a light doze, if she moved he would be instantly awake. When he could not sleep anylonger he just stroked her long, silky hair.
When it had reached around three in the morning, He tucked the coat up around her and scooped her up into his arms. Walked up to her room, and knocked gentally. A sleepy and slightly mussed Tomoyo opened the door very surprised. She steped back, her elegant white gown making her look even more queenly dispite her dishiveled state. He followed Tomoyo into Sakura's room when her laid her in bed, he tucked her in, completely forgetting about the coat. She snuggled down into the pillow and as he was leaving he heard her whisper in her sleep.
"I ...Love...you...little wolf..." SHe turned over in her sleep mumbling something about mounds of chocolate, but not before he caught the glimer of a tear, it gleamed silver in the moon light and sparkled. He felt like crying as well. WHen he had come back into the living room Tomoyo set him on the couch and pushed a cup of hot tea into his hands.
"What was she doing outside?!" Tomoyo shouted quietly so as not to wake Meiling or Sakura.
"I don't know, I saw her running out side through my window and went to check on her. I found her sleeping on a stone b ench with her face up against the tree. So I wrapped her up, got her warm and brought her here." Tomoyo nodded and smiled at him.
"Thank you, but plese don't mention it to her, lets just say she won't be s grateful as I am."
"Tomoyo, I have a question." Syaoran stared down into his tea cup. Tomoyo could tell from the look on his face that it was something that had been bothering him. She nodded at him to continue. "That scar, on Sakura's arm, she tried to kill heerself, d-didn't she? B-because of m-me?" He was sobbing now, Tomoyo took the cup away and gathered the man in a comforting hold, letting him cry on her shoulder as she patted his back.
"Don't worry I made sure she has too much to live for, even if it ment setting her up with Royo. I just hope he dosn't hurt her, otherwise I will kill him myself." This coming from the gentel, pettite woman, and know it it was the hwole truth, was a bit frightning. "Well come on, you need to get back to bed. She whiped his face off with a klnex, and put the cup in the kitchen, she gave his shoulders one last squese. "Don't worry about Sakura." He nodded but wouldn't look her in the eyes. He left and headed to his own room, as he looked out into the garden, he could see where they had been, and one silver tear crept down his face.
Sakura's eyes shot open. She had just dreamed that she was out on a stone bench with Syaoran, curled up, wrapped in his warm arms, and that he was crying and stroking her hair. She could see that it was a corpse that he cradled, her face had gone snow white, and she could see a long, gapping, gash running down her arm. Kero mumbeled in his sleep, telling her to go back to bed.
***End of Chapter One***
Well I can't lay claim on Falling Away from Me, tha's KoRn but "I cry for you" is mine!
Disclamier: I don't own ccs, I don't own Jaguars (Sobs), or BUGS (Sobs) but I do own Touch of Grace and "I cry for you" oh and the apartment complex, jewelry, clothing, something else I can't think of. All those who review will go on my Thank you list at the end of every chapter, and I will answer what questions I can. Let me know the verdict and if I should continue, I have pretty much the whole story finished, I just have to write the epilouge. If you have any Ideas for songs at the wedding, (I think I'm going to fit in Cold Play's Yellow) let me know!
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