DEAD AND GONE
"Jane you don't have to do this!" said my best friend, Doctor Maura Isles. "It's not your fault Joe was killed, Jane!"
"yes it was Maura. I could've shot that guy, i could've killed him and i didn't." i said.
Joe Grant was my boyfriend up until a week ago when we were robbed by a gang. After they got what they wanted, one of them stayed and pulled a gun on us. Yes, Joe and I are both cops, but all happened in literally the blink of an eye. He had Joe and me up against a wall until Joe was on the ground with a bullet lodged in his chest. Now Joe was gone, and i was standing on the edge of my aparment building's roof.
"Jane, please. come on, we can talk about this reasonably inside." Maura said.
"there's nothing to talk about, Maura." I said.
"Jane, if you make me come up there and get you in this outfit, i swear i'll kill you myself."
I rolled my eyes, "please!" i said.
"Jane, please. Come inside!"
My voice was shaking "Maura give me one good reason why I shouldn't jump off of this building."
she paused. " i would miss you." she said.
"you're gonna have to do better than that." I said
Maura sighed. "Fine. I've tried to reason with you. if I can't stop you from killing yourself, I'll have to try something different."
"what?" I asked.
"i'm calling your mother." she said sternly.
I shot her my 'dagger' stare. "You wouldn't." I said sharply.
She pulled out her IPhone and dialed a number, "Watch me." she said. " Hi, Mrs. Rizzoli? yeah, it's Maura, i'm at Jane's apartment. I think you need to-"
I cut her off. "Fine! Fine! i'm coming down! God, i can't believe you pulled my mother on me!"
"Jane Rizzoli that has to be the stupidest, most wreckless, idiotic thing you have ever done!" Maura yelled.
"thanks.." I said, avoiding the disappointed stare of my best friend.
"Are you insane? What on Earth were you thinking, Jane?" she looked me over. "My God, i'm glad you're okay!" she hugged me.
"ow!" i said.
"sorry," she said, "what's wrong?"
I sighed, closed my eyes, and pointed to my right arm. "there's another confession..."
Maura lifted my sleeve and saw the slits up to my elbow. she nodded her head.
"Not too deep." she said. "Disinfect them though."
"I'm sorry, Maura" i said.
She didn't look at me. "you're staying at my house tonight. I have to make sure you don't anything else stupid."
that night i was in my usual place of the guest room until around 3 a.m. I left Maura a note on her kitchen table.
Maura, don't worry, i'm not going to commit suicide.
I just have to get out of Boston for a while. I don't know
where i'm going, so don't look for me. thank you for everything.
Tell my parents i love them and i'll be back, I don't know when,
But i will. I'm gone, Maura. You can kill me later.
-Jane
That's the last thing i said to anyone from Boston in 3 years. I have no intentions of going back anytime soon. I guess you could say that part of me is dead, or gone... For now at least.