Title: Forgiveness
Fandom: Yu-Gi-Oh! GX
Rating: T for language
Author's Note: I decided to do this one-shot of Johan. Please tell me if it's OOC in a review, message, or email. I'll immediately edit it so it fits the character better.
Summary: Johan could forgive Haou Judai for everything he did to other people. Yubel, on the other hand, was a lot harder to forgive. Hinted Johan x Judai and Judai x Yubel.
Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh! GX
Forgiveness
Johan's POV
I wasn't there to help Judai. When he experienced the worst moments of his life, I wasn't there to help him like any friend would do. He fell into the darkness while I just watched. No, I didn't watch. She watched from my body. Even after Judai explained everything to me, how he promised to love Yubel forever, it never made it easier to forgive her. She caused everyone so much trouble, and she even took over my body to harm my friends.
I couldn't hold a grudge against though. Because Judai's precious to me, I could never hate any part of him, and Yubel is a part of him now. They are one person now, and I don't mind that. If anything, I'm happy that Judai fixed things up with Yubel. It would make him happier. I wasn't jealous of Yubel, and I certainly wouldn't go out of my way to make sure she suffers like I did. No, I would never let her suffer. Not because she is a part of Judai or because Judai loves her, but because I wouldn't harm someone out of revenge. I wasn't Judai, who had harmed many people out of obsession and anger.
So many people say we are exactly alike. We're not. Judai easily forgave Yubel for everything she did, and he declared his love for her. I couldn't do that. I am no longer angry at her, and I do not hate her for anything she has done. I just can't forgive her yet. A time will come when I will forgive her, but right now, I still cannot bring myself to accept her apology if she even made one to me.
I'm more envious of Judai than I am of Yubel. Judai is extremely close to Yubel and loves her. I wish I was as close to my family. I considered them family, but we weren't to that level that Judai felt for Yubel. Then again, love of that type is very strong and can surpass my own love for my spirits.
When Judai visited me for the first time, we just hung out as usual. At first, his visits were rare, but now they have become more frequent. He stays for around a week during the month. My family, though, never liked it when Yubel appeared. They, unlike me, claimed they could never forgive Yubel for stealing my body and using them for her own gain. They claimed she did it out of selfishness instead of love. I agreed with both. Yubel did it out of selfish needs for her love.
Recently, Judai had come to visit, but it had ended in destruction. At first, it was a normal visit. He smiled, told about his adventures, and asked me about my life. I stood up, offering him some more food only to trip. I accidently landed on top of him which ended up in a kiss. I don't know how kissed who, but it still happened. That's when Yubel appeared, smirking at the two of us. I immediately separated from him. When he asked why, I claimed I wasn't ready, and I wasn't. If I would have a relationship with Judai, I needed to forgive Yubel. I haven't forgiven Yubel. It wouldn't be fair to Judai, or Yubel, if I didn't forgive her first. That's why I need to take my time to forgive her, and then I could be with Judai. It's the fair thing to do.