A/N: ok so i know it's like really short, and i didn't actually mean for it to come out a fanfiction buuut... i kinda discribed to character to look like alex and well... hehe, it happened. and i also felt kinda guilty for setting up an account on here and not actually writing anything. so i did. this is my first. and although i was originally ment to be a oneshot i'm wondering if i should continue it.

Disclaimer: i own very little, and have a quarter to my name. like i could afford alex rider.

On his knee's he knelt in the pouring rain next to her body, his head thrown back in a silent scream as water soked his blond hair. His hand's out streatched infront of him, were soaked in blood, while his fingers curled into bloody dripping claws. Claws that dripped dark red drop's onto her still form.

Laid to rest on her back in this dark grey parking lot. A dark stain underneath her, slowly diluting and flowing away with the streaming water. Streaming past his tattered jeans as ha ceased his silent screaming, pulling his blood stain to his chest he slouched over her lifeless form and sobbed. His salty tears dripping from his eye's onto her bloody blouse and into the gaping round whole in her chest above her heart.

He continued to cry until he ran out of tears, then he crouched there shaking for as long as he could stand then opening his chocolate brown eye's, to bright and glassy from crying, he slowly reached out a hand timidly and gently toughed her pale cheek.

His eye's welled up with tears once more threatening to fall as he slowly moved his hand to close her sightless eye's.

Pulling his hand back he slowly curled his hand around his stomach, his fingers leaving red smudged on the sides of his dirty shirt and he clutched his sides.

"I'm sorry," he whispered his voice raspy and quiet, full of the agony and guilt he felt, "I'm sorry," he whispered again sounding defeated as he took in her appearance one last time, the let the blur giving his tunnel vision spread over the rest of his sight as he sat up, and let the blackness overcome him. He fell gently into the welcoming embrace of unconsciousness.