I do not own vocaloid.
A/N: So…I'm writing again. This time, it's a vocaloid story; TetoxRuko. Yuri is kind of normal to me because I have spent a lot of time addicted to touhou. Well, why these two? I love Teto. And Ruko seems like a good pairing to her~ Deredere x tsundere has always been good. It's Teto's POV. It was kind of hard for me to make this, so please be kind. Hope you like this~
1-The birth of a new Kasane Teto
I had been nervous the whole day. But for the first time, I smiled.
The teacher told me to come in. He had a kind face; that made me feel more relaxed. I took a deep breath and stepped in. I was looking at the ground, until I finally dared to look at the class. It was full of people. From all of them, there were a few that I already knew… That was a relief.
"This year, a new student joins us…"
The teacher wrote with perfect calligraphy my name in the blackboard.
"Kasane Teto"
Even though I was still somewhat nervous, I put that aside and kept smiling. "Pleased to meet you all" Said I.
It was not as hard as I thought. After saying that, my body felt loosened. My hands - that were holding my skirt tightly - went instinctively to my chest, joining their fingers. A few classmates smiled back. Well, the ones who were actually paying attention smiled back. 'Everything is going to be okay' I assured myself, letting out a sigh.
The teacher pointed a seat that had no one on it and told me to go there. I did as told and went there, almost jumping from the excitement. I put my backpack in the chair, and - also for the first time in the day – I felt comfortable...
It…It hadn't been the fact that I was comfortable that had made me smile, nor was it the fact that I was beginning everything from zero…
…What had made me smile was that I could finally put my past behind.
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"Hey, there goes the fake diva"
'Shut up' I thought.
It had been that way for months. Every time people saw me walking at the VOCALOID high school, they'd say things like that. Ignoring them was not enough. Even when I was in my own world, they'd find a way of entering in my thoughts and making me feel bad.
It was completely annoying…And it wasn't even my fault…It's not like I did anything to be called like that…
Miku-chan, my cousin, she is really famous. In my old high school, Miku was an idol; a diva. Her voice could reach to really high notes, and it would keep being simply wonderful. Everybody loved her; and specially, all the guys liked her. I could sing well too, so I was in a musical club. This group of people – which had no connection to me - came and started saying that my voice was even as good as Miku's and the people easily believed that, but… The school soon discovered that even though my voice could reach all the high notes Miku's voice could, "I needed practice".
Time passed by, and everybody started calling me fake diva. I am NOT a fake diva. I have NOT said that I was a diva not even once. I did NOT compare myself with Miku. The people did. And somehow, because I let them be, it ended up in me being bothered by everyone. Why had my heart to suffer when I had done nothing wrong? My heart…It yearned to escape from that world.
And so, I told my brother, Ted, and he suggested that I should go to the UTAU high school. He said he went there and blah blah blah blah – I don't listen to my brother when he goes on talking endlessly.
I have not seen my cousin Miku since then. I don't want to see Miku. I wonder what she thinks of me…
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Before I noticed, the sun had set and I could see the beautiful shades of red and yellow in the sky. The day was reaching to its end without me realizing it. It was time to go home; sadly.
I had had a good day: I spent the day talking to the people I knew from primary school. There was –surprisingly! – A lot of people that I had already seen in primary school. People had asked me many more times than what I wanted why I had left the VOCALOID high school and came there, when the UTAU high school is a public one. I just answered that I was tired of the people in that high school, and they started telling stories about people who went there… They were exaggerating, I'm sure of that, but I knew a few people of that high school who would actually do what they were saying.
It was true, though. The UTAU high school looked like nobody took care of it. It was not as clean and not as new – or at least it didn't look as new. But I knew it was normal. It was expected, wasn't it?
'Ha…' I laughed to myself 'I'm still really liking this school'.
Though that was not the end of it.
"Teto-chan~!" Someone called my name.
I turned instantly. 'I can't believe it!' The same smile that was on my face the whole day grew bigger.
"Ruko-chan!" I yelled back.
Ruko was my very best friend from primary school. We were inseparable. We even sang together; she was never fond of her voice, but she always complimented mine. In primary school, it was as if we complemented each other. I have to admit that...I had a little crush on her. Yes. On a girl. I was really confused then, because...I thought "what would my family think of me?". But then, I realized that if I liked her, it was my business. No one else's.
Well… Her appearance had changed a bit. And by that, I mean HER CHEST had changed a bit. And by "a bit", I mean a lot. She had heterochromatic eyes - one of a bloody red color and the other one was of a river-like color - and black hair tied in two pigtails with blue streaks. There were a lot of facts that made her stand out from the others. Not only in her looks; in her attitude too. Despite being lazy and sometimes rude, if you found the right way of approaching to her, she'd be your loyal friend – and that's odd because she acts like a cat most of the times. I found that weird at first, but later understood that it was her own personality.
She came and gave me a hug. It…Lasted for more than what I would want. Don't get me wrong; Ruko is my friend and everything, but...WAIT. I know you are thinking that I'm a tsundere. I am NOT a tsundere...I seriously am not…
"Long time n' see, Teto-chan" She said, breaking the hug. "I missed ya" She smiled widely.
"I…Missed you too…" 'Heartbeats: stabilized. Face status: in deep crimson. Body: Paralyzed.' Nobody had hugged me like Ruko did. Though it was an "at home" feeling, my body could not answer to my brain. Maybe I AM tsundere after all…
"…So, what happened? Why have ya come to this school?"
'…Damn…' Resounded in my head. Ruko was a lie detector. There was no way I could lie to her.
"Eh…I…" …could not articulate a phrase. I bit my lower lip and looked at the ground, having self-pity of my uselessness.
"If ya don't wanna talk 'bout it…It's okay. You are here, that's all that matters…" She said, closing her eyes and smiling. That relaxed me.
Ruko was a lie detector just because she could look at one's face and understand everything. Just with a single look. I let out another sigh. It was easy to be with her.
…I just said it was easy and I got nervous out of the blue when she hugged me. I have a personality disorder…
"Say, Teto" She began, bringing me back to reality. "Do you wanna go for a walk, for old time's sake?"
There goes Ruko, with her sudden ideas. That, I must admit, took me by surprise. Even though my whole body wanted to do it, because it had been A LONG while since I had gone anywhere with a friend, I said that I couldn't do it because I had to take care of my little sisters – I couldn't leave them alone with Ted, that was an awful thing to do to them. "Too bad" She had replied and left. I widened my eyes…
…That was another sudden thing, but that…That was definitely different.
Ruko…She seemed…Disappointed. She acted cold towards me. Why…That thought gave me chills. It was as if a knife was stabbing my heart and I could feel the emptiness that it left after going out. How many seconds had passed? 3? Didn't matter, it was like a eternity of pain to me. Ruko, my best friend, being cold to me… I turned to see her leaving. Her tall silhouette was fading away from my range of sight. Why was she acting that way? I wonder if something had happened since I left…
I decided to stop thinking about it, because maybe it was my imagination. Well…I was happier thinking that it was my imagination.
I walked to my house. I was glad that it wasn't far away from the school. As I got there, I slightly knocked the door and waited. Nobody answered. I proceeded to put my ear next to the door.
"TED ONII-CHAN IS MEAN" I heard Koe's voice saying.
"Do-Don't cry, Koe, it's okay…" 'Luna's voice. Definitely'
"What have I done to her! When have I even touched her!" Ted-kun, as clueless as ever.
"…*sob, sob*"
I grabbed the key that I had in my backpack and opened the door. I acted as if I didn't know what was happening inside.
"Hello, everyone, I'm home~" I saluted as I entered. I widely opened my eyes when I saw Koe crying in the floor, Luna trying to cheer her up, and Ted being…Ted. "What's…up?"
Though I knew the situation would be like that, I didn't think it would be as bad as I was seeing. Koe was crying loudly. Luna had a worried expression on her face. Koe's face was red and her tears would come out endlessly. Luna was softly passing her hand back and forth on Koe's back, but Koe would not calm down. I quickly grabbed Ted's hand, calling his attention. I put my eyebrows together. "What has happened here?"
"I don't know!" Ted said, shrugging.
"Teto Onee-chan! Onee-chan, come! "Koe cried.
I turned, walked to where she was, kneeled down, patted her head and asked:
"Why are you crying, Koe-chan? Has something happened?" I have to admit that the fact that she was crying made me a lot softer with her…
"Ted-kun won't let me sing…"
I shot a glare at Ted. He raised his eyebrows as if he was innocent, or as if the situation wasn't as serious as to do that. "Why is that?"
"…I was reading…" Ted said between mumblings. I know he really doesn't like that kind of situations, because I always do things in a way that Koe is beneficiated.
"Okay" I said, getting up. "Koe, you can sing all you want. Ted, if you want to read, GO TO YOUR ROOM. And Luna…You keep being a good girl, okay?" I said, ending the discussions in a very simple way.
Ted was the oldest from all of us, but he wasn't good with kids; I can say that with certainty. He was also the most stubborn. But he did a lot for us. He had a job that maintained us four. That, of course, meant that I usually stayed with the girls and cooked and did the entire house's chores. That's how I usually ended up solving all the problems. Somehow, after all of that and the homework, I didn't end up dead. I've always wondered if I was really a zombie or something like that…
After that, I went directly to my room. I climbed up the stairs and opened the first door in front of me.
It was the first day, so they didn't told us to do anything. I could lie down calmly in my bed. But even though that I still had this feeling of "I have to do something". I tried to push that aside... I quickly fell in a deep sleep, without noticing. All that had happened that day had me tired. I began by closing my eyes slowly…
…And the next thing I remember, my phone's bell woke me up. I got up startled and grabbed my cell phone. I opened it with a single finger, rested my body in my bed again, and said:
"Hello?"
There was a little moment of silence.
"Teto-chan~…"
As I heard that voice, that characteristic low voice, a smile was drawn in my face. "Ruko-chan…! What's up?" I exclaimed while rolling on my bed.
Ruko began to mutter things I couldn't understand. She finally said something that was comprehensible to a normal human's ears:
"Hey…Teto, I have a doubt…Do ya know about…Ya kno'…"
I put my eyebrows together again. She sounded disturbingly troubled. And that was really strange. Ruko usually took everything easy. She never had troubles not even at school – in fact, she was really good at school.
"…? What….Are you talking about?" I asked, confused.
. "…Nothin'. So, I wanted to tell you about this musical club…I'm sure ya wanna join in, don't ya? Your voice is the best I've ever heard!" She exclaimed. She was talking normally again after that, with a voice that could make me space out in the conversation; and of course, I tried my best not to do it
There. In that moment, my hand started trembling, just in the same moment that my heart's beats got accelerated. Those words were really kind… Ruko's voice on the phone saying that to me was music for my ear. I started breathing heavily, for I had no idea of what to say to that. I started feeling dizzy. It was like a fantasy. I could feel my body's temperature go really high and how my body got paralyzed again. There was no way of describing Ruko's voice in that moment. Such a soothing, calmed, deep voice…
"Th-Thanks…Well…"
I couldn't say yes after what happened in my other high school! I couldn't! And I wouldn't. But…I was afraid. What if Ruko did the same thing that she had done in the afternoon? It would hurt me again. That feeling was enough to make me want to suicide. I was scared. I didn't want her to hate me.
"Whaddaya say? C'mon, I am in it too and you know that I'm not cut out for this!"
'That is NOT true' A voice in my head shouted. "Ruko, your voice is amazing! I…Personally like it. I find it…Perfect. Be-Besides!-"
"Teto, I don't care 'bout that… Will ya join or not? I would really like to…Sing a duet with you sometime~" She interrupted me. That last phrase… She said it in a melodically voice that had enchanted me.
'God knows that I can't refuse to that. But I can't say yes! I…I am not as stupid as to commit the same mistake once again…I will not commit the same mistake…But I need to soften my answer.'
'Idea~!'
"Look, I don't know if I can give myself the liberty of doing that in my current state…"
She sighed. "I see, then…"
My body started shouting "No". I knew that voice. She was as disappointed as before. I wasn't going to let that happen, either.
"Wa-Wait!"
"Mh?"
I had to calm myself down, and even though I succeeded, I was as stupid as to say this:
"…There's another reason. But… Okay, if tomorrow you have free time, we…We can go somewhere alone and…And…I'll tell you… " 'I sound like a hentai-manga schoolgirl!'
I couldn't believe that I actually say that. But amazingly, she DID have free time and – most importantly - she DID agree to come with me. She said she had to go, I said goodbye, and she left.
After that, I closed my cell phone. I rolled in my bed again, putting my cell phone close to my chest. A smirk was drawn in my face.
Ruko…I hope you never find out about my secret feelings. I love you, Ruko. Always have, always will.