Why do I allow MI6 to blackmail me?
Because of the innocence in others eyes. The carefree happiness.
Because while I know better, my classmates still think they are immortal.
Because I know I could disappear if they tried to get rid of me.
Because I know I could kill them if they tried to kill me.
Because without me, everyone would be dead many times over.
Because they would ruin another kids life if I left.
Because I have no one to mourn for me.
If another died, people would mourn.
If I died, no one would know. Or care for that matter.
Because I am addicted to the adrenaline rush.
Because I don't care if I die tomorrow.
I know I am mentally fucked up. I don't care. I am an assassin, a spy. I have survived things that grown adults wouldn't, havent before. I don't care. I am Alex Rider, Cub, a rumour, a myth, a legend, a druggie, a rich guys son, a bankers son, a blackmail victim, a tortutre survivor, someone with so may identities that I can't remember them all.
I could be anyone. Could I also be no-one?
I don't know.
But now, with so many names I could be no one.
After all, who would know?