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Even I Cry
'My name is Merlin. I am a man-servant to King Arthur. He likes to tease me a lot. He teases me the most for being a girl. He says that no man is worth my tears. If only he knew.
One time Arthur saw me cry in the slightest bit was when he slew a beast. That beast was actually a cursed druid girl. I loved her with all my heart, and he killed her. He picked on me for crying for a fallen beast. What he did not know was that I was crying for a fallen lover. I still can harbor no hate for him after that.
Another time he was me cry was when a man we barely knew died. His name was Balinor. Arthur though I was crying because we could not save him. He told me that no man was worth my tears that day. One thing he did not know was that Balinor was my father and now all I have left of him is the statue of a dragon and my powers as a Dragon Lord.
I cried the night Lancelot died. Once again Arthur made fun of me. He did not know that Lancelot was the only person who I could talk with about my magic. He was my safe haven among the knights. He knew me. Once he told me that I deserved a knighthood for all the time I have saved Arthur. Not that Arthur knows about it.
I also cried when William died. Will was my best friend and in his last breath he saved me. He protected me with his last breath. I owe him my life. I can't even talk about his sacrifice without feeling the need to cry.
The last time Arthur saw me cry was just tonight. We had a musician come in and he performed a song called 'Hallelujah'. It reminded me of my life and my struggles. I guess that's why I'm writing this now. I just needed to let it all out. I'll try not to cry any more though. More for the sake of Arthur than for me.'
Arthur put down the journal shock written on his face. Is this what Merlin had gone through? Reading previous pages he realized just how much Merlin had been hurt. He continued reading about Merlin's adventures and how he had, in fact, saved Arthur's life many times. After finishing the 20 page journal he threw it down on the bed and stormed out of his chambers. He practically ran to where he knew his friend would be. Arthur threw open the door to Gaius' chambers and demanded "Where's Merlin". Merlin ran out of his room, having heard the commotion. Arthur strode up to him and did the manliest thing he could do at, given his emotional state. He hugged him.
"I'm sorry Merlin. For everything. I didn't know. Please forgive me. I don't mean it you're not a girl. I don't care if you cry. I accept every part of you. Even your magic." Arthur said just letting his thoughts slip out. He pulled back, tears in his eyes, and said one last thing… "Even I cry".
To everyone who is reading What If? yes i am still alive. I wrote this in like 20 minuets. I am in the process off typing it. I will give you more info about why it is so late when i post chapter 6.
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