I DON'T own CSI, I wish I did but I don't unlucky me. If only I had Nick…. *smiling*
This is Nick's POV about something. This story can be a N/S, N/C or N/OC, whatever you want, I'm not mentioning the girl's name.
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I wake up, she's still here, I guess she's asleep, if she wasn't she would leave. I hate it when she goes, but if I say it to her she won't come here again. She made it clear that what we have is 100% physical, no emotions involve, she said that if she or I feel something it will have to stop so I don't tell her, I just lie. I wonder if she noticed the change in me, I feel it, I'm different since I understood I'm in love with her.
It really hurts me that she has no feelings for me, this whole thing of "only physical relationship" is wrong, I'm only gonna get hurt in the end, when I'll really need her but she won't be there because she doesn't love me. I know I should talk to her, tell her about how I feel but when I'll do that everything will be over and I don't want it to end. I love spending time with her.
She moves and wakes up.
"Hey" I say.
"Hey" she says without looking at me "I need to go, I'll see you later" she kisses me and leaves the bed. I know she'll be back in few minutes to say goodbye again, this can be a good time to tell her.
She comes back and looks at me "bye" she says.
"Wait" I say as I try to think of a good way to tell her, I open my mouth "bye" I say. Damn! Why didn't I tell her how I feel?
She smiles to me and leaves, I know I'll hear the door closes and she'll be gone.
I hear it, she's gone but she'll be back. I hope.
It all started few weeks ago, I don't even remember how we got to my house but we spent an amazing night together. After that she offered me this whole "only physical relationship" I accepted, I thought it will be fun and it was, until I started to feel something to her. At the beginning I thought it's nothing, I thought it would pass soon but it didn't. It only got bigger and bigger every time I saw her and than I understood I'm in love with her like I've never been in love with anyone else. It was strange for me, I mean I never felt this way before and now I have this feelings for someone I wasn't suppose to even love.
I just wish this whole thing didn't even start but then again I'm glad it did because I know now who's the person I'm suppose to spend the rest of my life with and I will, I will spend the rest of my life with her. I hope so.
I need to do something else now, think about something else.
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I have to tell her, this time I'll do it I have to.
I hear her knocking, I open the door, she smiles to me, I love her smile.
"I have to tell you something," I say "it's important".
"OK" she says she looks kind of worried "what is it?"
I lead her to the couch, I can see she really wants to hear, I hope it's not because she met somebody and she wants me to stop what's going on between us.
"So what is it?" she asks.
"I'm going to say something important so I want you to listen" she nods and I continue "since the night we spent together I started to…well it began after that night, few weeks after I just started…" I take a deep breath and say it "falling in love with you and now I can't, I can't stop thinking about you".
She looks at me, with no expression but then she smiles "all this time I thought you don't feel anything for me, I always thought that you are, you know a player and that you just like our relationship the way it was, that's why I said that it would be only physical, so I will have something with you, damn".
I smile to her "that's good".
"It is", she says.
"I love you".
"I love you too" she kisses me, it's the best kiss in my life.
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The End
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I hope you liked it, I don't really know why I wrote it, I just wanted to write Nick's POV about something and that's what I wrote.