"Eren, please, come home. " She wants to say more. After all, this is the first time they see each other in months. But the words just don't come. There is so much she wants to tell him, so much to share, but all she can choke out are a few more words.
"Carla keeps asking for you, she… She doesn't understand…."
His eyes widen at the mention of their two years old daughter, the one he left behind when he took it upon himself to undertake this incredibly dangerous and in her opinion pointless mission.
"I…" , he wants to say more, but they are swiftly brought back to reality by echoing gunshots and shouts from the rooftops. The attack of the survey corps was surprising and hit hard, but there were more and more Marley soldiers coming and it was quite clear that sooner rather than later the shock of the attack will wear off and they will be overwhelmed.
"We need to go", Mikasa exclaims, extending her hand towards Eren. He takes it, and she pulls him to his feet. "Can you get down? ", she asks, while the new gear is amazing when it comes to maneuverability and speed of transportation, its really not made to carry more then one person.
"I can jump", he says, looking at the pavement below them, "Worst case, ill just have to heal some broken bones, ", the smile he shoots her warms her heart, but she fights it down and scowls at him instead.
"We really have no time to wait for you to heal, get down, and then make your way to the edge of the city, we have a safehouse there, right next to the docks. "
He nods and slides down the dissolving titans back, hitting the ground with a thud. She forces her eyes off him, they will have time to talk later. Survival was now the foremost thing. As always when it came to the two of them.
Quickly checking her remaining gas, she makes her way back towards the rooftop, where the rest of the corps is holding back the advancing number of soldiers.
"Eren is on his way, we need to get out of here, " Levi looks at her and nods, quickly passing new orders to the corps.
"Everyone, regroup and fall back. We need to scatter to create as much diversion as possible, you all know where to go. Time to leg it, now. " The rest of the soldiers immediately jump to obey and under a blanket of cover fire start to fly in different directions. Mikasa herself separates from the bunch and starts running the pre-planned route shooting any marleyan that is stupid enough to get in her sights.
When they started training with the newly developed gear, combination of the classic one and the stuff they have taken from the military police, she immediately fell in love with it. The freedom of movement it offered with the extended range of the guns made any skilled user a killing machine. And they were skilled with it. All of them.
Her retreat was far from flawless, but in the end, she managed to lose any pursuers. As she neared the safehouse, she descended on the streets and made the rest of the route on foot. When the door creaked open, she saw that Levi was already there, sitting by the table. And Eren was present. When he saw her, his face lit up as he closed to the distance between them in two quick steps and threw her arms around her. She wanted to be angry at him. She had every right. But he was here, he was safe, and she couldn't hold back her own arms that sneaked their way around him to hug him back.
The magic of the moment was quickly broken by Levi's voice, "Save this shit, we need to wait for the rest to arrive and then there will be questions." He was eyeing Eren with almost open hostility. "If you think you are getting out of this easily Yeager, you are fucking wrong. "
Eren let go of her and made his way back to his spot where he slouched against the wall. Mikasa almost immediately missed his warm but the corporal was right. Now was no time to catch up.
Luckily the rest of the corps arrived in short intervals. None of them seriously harmed in any manner. As they crowded the small room, Eren seemed to grow more and more tense. The time to explain was coming and there was no escaping this time. Finally, Levi cleared his throat and looked straight at him.
"All right, since everyone is here I believe we can start with a simple question. What the fuck were you thinking Yeager? One morning you just disappear, with nothing but a note to explain yourself. Everyone is furious. You almost delivered the attack titan and the coordinate to the hands of the enemy. What would you do if we didn't come? You were getting your ass handed to you. "
"I... "
"No, shut the fuck up. I don't care what you were doing the months that you were alone, but now you are in presence of a superior officer and you will hold your fucking mouth until I tell you to. You have no idea how fucking angry we are with you. And if you are stupid enough not to care about military, then what about personal reasons. You left your fucking daughter, your fucking girlfriend to go die in this shithole of country with this retarded plan of yours. Now, you can talk. "
Eren stands and quickly scans the room, his eyes lingering just a fraction of second longer on Mikasa.
"First, I want to thank you all for coming, you were right, i was getting my ass handed to me, and you saved me. Frankly, I was wrong. I thought that Willy was the holder of the titan, and I could get him with a surprise attack. Clearly it didn't work. As for my reasons, I believe I explained them in the letter I left behind. The war with Marley is inevitable. They are bigger and better armed then we are. Coordinated attack would be our doom. This was a provocation, now the people will pressure the command to attack quickly. With number of the army commanders gone, they will have problems with infrastructure. We will have a way bigger chance to fight them off. "
"This still hardly gives you the right to do what you did", Levi was visibly angry now, his voice shaking. "You have no fucking idea what would happen if they got you, do you? With almost all the titans in their hands, they would crush us. You and your stupid fucking planning almost doomed us. "
"I'm ready to explain myself"
"And you will, to the court, right as we get back. "
Levi shook his head, visibly disgusted.
"Mikasa, you are his guard from now on, please make sure that he doesn't do anything stupid. "
"Yes, sir. "
"The rest of you, the extraction is tomorrow at first light, Jean take the first watch, rest of you, try to get some sleep. ", he waves his hand towards Eren, "Mikasa, take this asshole to your room and make sure he doesn't leave. "
She nods and leads Eren out of the room and up the stairs to her place. It's a small one, with just one bed and a nightstand. Her bag is at the foot of the bed, already packed in preparation for the extraction. As she ushers him inside and closes the door behind them, she realizes how close they are standing. Without thought, her hand reaches up to run through his hair.
"Its gotten pretty long. "
His hand mirrors her movement, burying itself in her hair as he gently scratches her scalp.
"You cut yours again. "
She smiles and leans into his touch, "It's best this way, the new gear has a lot of straps the hair could catch in. "
They both move at the same time and suddenly, they are kissing, her hand sliding to his neck to pull him closer while his fall to her waist. And she knows this is stupid, they shouldn't be doing this. Their comrades as just a room away, they just escaped death, they could be discovered and attacked at any moment, but she just can't bring herself to care. And from the intensity of his kiss, he doesn't care either.
When they finally part to breathe, their foreheads remain touching. Its like neither of them wants to go too far from the other one.
"I missed you, I missed you so much. ", she finally manages to say those words she wanted to tell him back on the titan. And she feels tears pooling in her eyes. This is too much.
"I missed you more. " His hands on her waist tightens, almost as if he was afraid that she will slip away from his grasp. "I dreamt about you, about you both, I felt terrible after I left. " He looks directly into her eyes, and she sees that they are filled with pain, longing, and all those emotions she feels herself.
"Please Mikasa, forgive me, I know I hurt you, but I love you, so much. Nothing will change that. "
The tears from her eyes are now freely flowing down her cheeks as she takes a shuddering breath.
"I forgive you Eren, I love you too, you know that. "
He smiles at her words, and pulls her close again, their mouths meeting halfway. As the kisses grow hungrier, she realizes that she wants more. Her hands wander to the buttons of his shirt as she starts undoing them. His hands also spring to action as they start tugging at the straps of her gear and uncoiling her scarf.
"How many belts does this thing have? ", he mutters between kisses and he feels her smile curving against his lips.
"Enough to keep me in air, here, let me help. " She finished unbuttoning his shirt and moves to herself, her fingers undoing the straps with much more success then his.
It takes some time but finally they are gone, and he starts taking off her shirt, showing it down her arms. His top follows hers and now they are touching skin to skin, and it feels so good, she doesn't know how she managed to live without it.
She's pushy, he notices as her tongue makes its way into his mouth and her hands run over his chest. Next comes a push and he falls to the bed, Mikasa quickly straddling his waist and pulling his head back for another kiss.
Her hands leave him to move behind her back and soon she's completely bare to him, her bra joining the growing pile of clothes on the floor.
Its always like this with her. She may look cold towards the outer world but in moments of passion she is like a fire. It was the same when he finally realized he loved her. It was some time after they reached the ocean and he finally saw what a stupid ass he was towards her.
When he finally mustered up the courage to tell her. He picked some flowers and made his way to her room where he, with lot of stammering and his face as red as her scarf, confessed what he felt. He didn't expect her to kiss him with enough force that he fell on her bed. And things kind of escalated from there.
Few hours later, when they were laying naked together, his hand idly making circles on her back, they talked. They talked about the future, about them. In the end they both agreed that they simply don't want to stay apart, especially considering Erens limited time.
They didn't plan the pregnancy, but it sort of happened and neither of them were willing to get rid of the baby. In nine months Mikasa gave birth to their daughter, Carla. As important as it was, it didn't really change things. They were both still required in the military.
Mikasa got very quickly back into form, mastering the new gear fastest of the corps. The only change there was that now they had a bigger room appointed together. They didn't have time to take care of the baby full time, but luckily there was enough women in the city willing to watch the daughter of the shifter and the strongest female soldier. It was a pure joy while it lasted. That was, until he left.
And now they were together again, after months of separation. There was so much to talk about. But she didn't want to talk. Not now. She physically hungered for his touch. And he touched her. His hands run over her stomach up to her chest. His fingers squeezing her breasts earning a moan from her, muffled by his mouth.
After a few moments of this, she feels the familiar heat in the pit of her stomach, the wetness between her legs. She pushes forward and dips her hands down to his pants, undoing his belt.
But he can't do this, he doesn't deserve it. He left her. He left their daughter. He is not supposed to feel good. So he shifts their position and lowers her to the bed, his mouth moving down to kiss her neck and lower to tongue her nipple. Her moans grow louder, and she slaps a hand to her mouth to muffle them as he continues his journey, dragging his lips down her abs to the place between her legs.
Eren sits up just long enough to pull off her boots and pants, quickly followed by the only remaining clothing piece on her body. He takes a moment then, just to look at her, because never in his life has he ever seen something so beautiful as her naked body. Its chiseled muscles and scars that some men could perhaps consider unattractive are perfect to him. He doesn't deserve her. He knows as much. He puts her legs on his shoulders and lowers his face towards her, licking her slit and tasting her. Its not the first time they have done this, and he knows what she likes. Soon she is fidgeting beneath him, her hips grinding into his mouth and her hand flying down to grip his hair. It doesn't take him long to finish her off, his mouth sucking at her clit hard enough to make her cry out. Her legs shaking on his shoulders as she comes.
Eren sits up and absently wipes his mouth, his hands rubbing soothing circles into her hips, watching her as she comes back from her high. Soon they are kissing again, her hands back on his pants and he can't fight back. Not only she is stronger, but he aches for her. The taste and smell of her turning him on in a way that's borderline painful.
Mikasa hooks a leg on his hip and switches their position again, pulling of his pants and underwear in one quick shove. Then he is in her hand and she start pumping, slowly, her thumb smoothing over the tip. He is already turned on, and with her soft but strong hand on him, he knows he won't be able to last long.
"Mikasa, if you keep this up, I don't think ill be able to continue afterwards. "
She shoots him a smile and kisses him, straddling his waist in the progress. Her fingers lines him up and she's sinking down, taking him slowly in. She doesn't stop until he is all the way in, just then taking a moment to adjust.
His hands finds her hips as she starts moving, her teeth sinking into bottom lip to keep as quiet as possible. He finds that he must do the same, because this feels so too good. She's warm and tight and exactly the same as he remembers her.
He manages to hold on just long enough for her to come first, her insides clamping down on his member and massaging it is just too much for him to handle. He comes inside her with a groan falling from his lips, mixing his release with hers.
They soon settle into embrace and he throw the covers over them, to keep them warm in the coming night. The silence stretches but he finds himself unable to say anything. This moment is just too perfect to break. Soon there will be more problems. The extraction. Home, he still must explain his decisions to the queen and hope that she will see his way. And if his plan was actually a success, the war was coming.
Yet he finds himself content. As long as the two of them are together, he feels like he can take on the world. Looking down on the woman on his chest, he knows she feels the same. The rare smile cracking her lips as their eyes lock and he moves to kiss her again.