A/N: This is my first Fanfic but I hope you will like it. I don't know why I wrote this but I had this in mind and I needed to do something about it so there it is. English is not my first language, so please be nice. I really hope it will be okay when you'll read this.

Anyway, enjoy and review to let me know what you think about it =)

They argued for hours before silence took place between them. Now, Stefan sits on the couch and tries to understand the girl who stands in front of him. She seems overwhelmed and lost because today, for the first time, someone is asking her to choose. It should be easy to make a choice yet, it depends on what your options are, right? Because that's the only thing that keeps her from choosing. She already made that choice ninety years ago and it didn't end well. "Him or me." She still remember Klaus' look; fear and misunderstanding are written all over his face. She also remembers how easy it was to make a choice thinking she was free but now, she won't be fooled; she won't listen to Stefan's madness and drown with him. No way.

She drinks her glass of wine and looks at Stefan. He changed. A lot. He's a good person, almost human but she doesn't get it. She doesn't get why he's doing all this, why is he trying to start a war against Klaus? She thinks it's because he's careless.

And then, she gets it. He needs to kill Klaus to destroy their bond. He needs the Old Stefan to be dead. He's making a choice, he's taking a stand.

He's free. And Rebekah hates him even more.

"I thought I had it all, you know." She breaks the silence and Stefan's eyes are immediately on her. "For a few decades, I thought being a vampire was a good thing – strength and confidence, love and eternity – until, one day, it wasn't enough anymore. It wasn't happiness, just madness and... loneliness." She pauses. "I miss being careless and innocent because when you are, you don't see misfortune, you don't have to live it either. You're just happy all the time, you're in a bubble and you're protected from all the demons you're trying to avoid today. Now, I realize I have not lived at all nor accomplished anything, for the matter. Actually, I spent my whole life pretending everything was okay." She laughs but Stefan can see the hurt on her face. "See, I don't want to find happiness in little things anymore like walking under the sun or drinking blood, I want more. I want to feel that my heart is going to explode, I want everything around me to give me the same sensation I felt when I drunk blood for the first time. Being afraid but keeping doing it anyway. I want to find what I lost and be able to mourn all the things I won't ever take back. And then, when my head will be empty from pointless thoughts and my legs will be tired from running, I'll be able to make a choice and you'll win."

She's not who she's trying to be, Stefan knows it. She's like this kid who wants to be all grown up but who can't fool anyone. She's that kind of person; the one who pretend so much that they don't know who they are anymore. Rebekah wants him to understand. She needs him to back off. It's exhausting to look into his eyes and to see how judgmental he has become. He's pushing her; he wants to crack her shell. He wants to know everything she's keeping inside: the secrets she hides and the feelings she represses.

"All I'm asking you is to reconsider my offer, Rebekah. If you help us, you won't have to run anymore, that's what you want right?"

"Don't count on me."

"Why?"

Rebekah has learned a long time ago she can't trust anyone. Not even her own brothers. She's different from them, maybe because she's the only girl of the family but still. All she ever asked was to be loved and not just a second priority which she is. Klaus is ambitious and a big dreamer even if he pretends otherwise. Elijah, like she said to Elena, is moral and wants to prove to everyone how good he can be. Finn wants Sage, he wants love but he also wants to make justice to nature even if he has to die for it. Kol is having fun, he enjoys everything about being a vampire and sometimes, she thinks he's right; that's how she should live her eternity before someone puts a dagger into her heart. But for her part, Rebekah is vulnerable and strong at the same time. She cares for everyone but hates them just as much. She wants to be human with all the benefits of being a vampire. She wants to be normal and pathetic but can't deny how much she loves adventure. Actually and to be short, Rebekah wants everything she can think of. She wants to have it all without running, hiding or fighting to get it.

She already lived a thousand years yet, it still is not enough.

Everyone around her seems to have found the meaning of their life but Rebekah is just lost. Between love and hate, joy and pain, peace and war. Between life and death.

"Because it's not about freedom or standing for ourselves, it's about Elena. You're asking me to save her and I won't. I get why you're doing this, you're in love with her but it's not my fight. I won't take the risk to be dead at the end of the night for her!"

"She deserves to live, Rebekah! At least as much as you deserve to be free. Fight with us and stand for yourself!"

"Fight with you? Have you lost your mind? The first and only time I tried to help you and the little doppelganger, she stabbed me in the back. Literally. I won't do the mistake to trust you again."

"Yet, you're doing the same mistake with your brother. All over again."

"Because I can't do it otherwise! He is my brother, Stefan!"

"It's not the real reason, is it?"

She curses herself to be so transparent. He knows her, she can't deny that but it still upsetting to see how he can read her like an open book. She can't fool him.

"Do you remember when we met in Chicago?" He nods. "It was stunning how free and careless you were. Even Klaus was impressed. You inspired me and I took a stand." He looks at her, surprised and confused. "I was waiting for you to come outside but Klaus wouldn't let me because we had to run. Mikael found us and it was too risky to have you with us. That's why he compelled you, I guess. Klaus asked me to choose between you and him." She smiles lightly when she remembers how in love she was with Stefan but her smile fades when she also realizes how naïve she was. "I chose you. I broke my promise and I chose you. That's why he stabbed me. I'm telling you all this because I want you to understand that I just can't turn my back on him. He won't let me and there's absolutely nothing I can do about it."

"You're scared, I get it but…"

"No, you don't get it, Stefan! My brother shouldn't be the one who brings me down or the one who lets me fall!" She breathes slowly to calm herself and takes another drink of her wine. "Like I said, I made a promise and I meant it. Back then, he was all that I had. Still is. But he wasn't the demon he is today that's why I'm ready to break my promise if you can promise me he will be dead by the end of the night."

Rebekah is tired. That's it. She's exhausted to keep that promise, it keeps her from being free and it's a heavy burden. The more she talks to Stefan, the more she reconsiders all of her options. Klaus or Stefan? It can't be just about them, it has to be about her because a choice is always the good one if you make it for yourself, right?

"Are you crazy? It's going to take me more than a few hours to kill him and you know it."

"Then, my answer is still the same. I won't help you."

"You're really going to fight against us, aren't you?"

She thinks about it for a few minutes. Really. Either way, she chooses between them, she'll be dead tomorrow. It's the only thing she's sure about. But Rebekah wants to live. She wants to be in a different place, at a different time. She can't choose. Or maybe she can?

"Like I said, it's not my fight, Stefan."

"I don't understand."

"Because you can't." She looks at her watch and smiles. "If I were you, I would be on my way to Elena's. Nik won't be long and you don't want to be late."

Within minutes, Stefan is gone and she is all alone.

Life or death? Easy, right?

All the weight on her shoulder seems to disappear as she's packing her bags. Regrets fade and happiness starts to grow in her heart. That's what she was looking for, that's the feeling she was talking about earlier. Her choice is made. She knows it was just the easy part but she doesn't care if she has to run because she has fifty percent chance that Klaus will be dead. It's not what she wants for him but it's what she dreams for her. It's awful and she knows it but she can't feel guilty anymore, especially now because guess what? Rebekah is free. Finally.

« The human life is made up of choices. Yes or no. In or out. Up or down. And then there are the choices that matter. Love or hate. To be a hero or to be a coward. To fight or to give in. To live. Or die. Live or die. That's the important choice. And it's not always in our hands. »

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