Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, just borrowed for a while.
Spoilers: Princess and the Pear / Season 2 episodes 2, 7 & 10.
A/N: This is my first POV piece so apologises if it doesn't flow or needs work cos its not beta'd. I'm still fairly new at fanfic so constructive criticism is requested!
Booth's POVI never thought that I would see the day that two women would walk out on me on the same night. The feeling of rejection was there, I couldn't deny it, but confusion was at the forefront.
I get why Perotta may have gone. I mean, standing in the middle of my apartment with my partner's arms around me would make an awkward moment to walk in on. I could see the look in her eyes before this though, she thought she was going to use me for a booty call tonight. I am a quick healer after all. And I have to admit the homemade chilli she brought was a nice touch to the arrangement and thoughtful too.
Perotta is nice. I mean, a man would have to be blind to think that she was not good-looking. That kind of girl used to be my thing; blonde, tall, clever, passionate and up for anything if you know what I mean. And in all fairness, I'm still attracted to it. I wouldn't flirt with her otherwise.
I knew she would leave once she realised the situation. She understands the partnership that I have with Bones. And I'm pretty sure that after our phone conversation earlier that she knows that Bones is more of a priority to me than she was and ever will be. Thank you Vicodin!
Bones had left too though and although I couldn't see her eyes from the position we were in, I could hear the twinge of pain in her voice. As soon as I said the words "It's open!", everything fell apart. I knew what it must have looked like to her, that I'd been the one to invite Perotta over for a roll in the hay. As soon as she replied to Perotta "It is", I could hear the hurt. But it was what I heard with the next two words that shocked me.
"I'm done." The finality of those words carried with them a definite defeat and resolution. I had never heard that from her before. I didn't even have time to process it before both women had made their excuses and left, with the door shutting behind them.
I had said to them I was afraid to move after Bones had readjusted me but it was now that I realised that I couldn't for a whole other reason. The crushing weight of shame and betrayal hit me. Shame from leading Perotta on when I clearly didn't want her, I'd only ever felt it once before in this kind of situation and that was when I was with Cam a couple of years ago. The betrayal though was worse to bear. I had betrayed my partner, my best friend and, I admit, the woman I love. I never realised until then that she may possibly have some feelings for me beyond partnership and friendship. Thought she had always been straight forward and matter of fact with any of her previous relationships or the men that she liked. She would have said something to me about her feelings before, wouldn't she?
As the guilt settled in, the comparison between the two women settled firmly in Brennan's favour. Beautiful? Check for both women. Tall? Check on both accounts. Clever? Check, well, one clever, one genius so even better. Passionate? Check for both but Bones' passion extends beyond the bedroom, it's in everything that she does. Trust? I trust Bones more than anyone. Hypnotic eyes? You can just get lost in Bones'. The further down my list I got, I realised that I wasn't even including Perotta anymore. Why I ever doubted who I really wanted, I don't know.
The only thing I know now is that Bones may have feelings for me too, and I may have just ruined our chances. A talk is definitely in order. I need to reaffirm our standing together; we're the center and we must hold. My life would be nothing without her.
A/N: I'm thinking about doing a Brennan's POV after the End in the Beginning but I need to know about this one first. Please review!
Haych