"Fuck." Max stares at the stick in her hands, willing for it to turn back to a negative sign but it remains a positive even after 2 minutes of pointless staring, mocking Max of her helplessness.
Fuck Fuck Fuck! Max tugs at her hair really hard, then moves on to mess up her hair in a frustrated manner. How could it be? She has been on pills ever since she popped her cherry at the age of 14, and she used the condom every. single. time.
And she can't even remember who is the father.
Shit. Max Black cursed at herself, because of what she had for a childhood she vowed to herself she will not give her future children a fatherless family, if she was to have any at all.
This is the 3rd stick, and all three showed positive. Max had locked herself in the bedroom for the entire day, telling Caroline she was feeling sick. Caroline believed her because she had been vomiting in the morning and extra pale, but Blondie obviously didn't know it was morning sickness.
Caroline. Blonde hair barbie with beautiful blue eyes that curves into carved moon when she smiles. That makes her dead heart beat out of tune and her stomach to have butterflies. Max doesn't know if what she's feeling it's because she never had a friend like Caroline or when did she even develop this kind of... feelings towards her best friend. But as months passed on and her feelings deepened, Max freaked out and had more one night stands that she could ever count.
Hence, a living thing growing in her stomach right now. How will she ever tell Caroline the news? Just in time, Max hears the keys in the hole and Caroline's infamous heels clicking on the wooden floor.
"Max! I'm home!" Caroline opens her bedroom door without even knocking because well, she's... Caroline. Startled, Max pushes the stick under her pillow and looks back at the blonde with a guilty look.
"Oh hey, Caroline. How was work today?"
"Shitty. How about you, how do you feel?" Caroline asks and climbs next to Max, she turns to the brunnette and touches her forehead tenderly.
There comes the funny feeling in her tummy again and her heart dancing again. Max recoils from the touch and avoids making eye contact with Caroline.
"Fine! Better..." Max mutters and Caroline frowns, Max had been acting weird and jumpy lately and Caroline is worried for her best friend. There's nothing she wouldn't do for Max, really. Caroline gently touches Max's cheeks to face her, Max looks down. Caroline is so gentle with her all the time, it kills Max inside.
"Max, look at me." Caroline waits until Max looks at her. "You've been acting weird, is there anything you want to tell me? You know you can tell me anything, right? You can trust me." Caroline says, she herself never noticed her tenderness and care for Max have exceeded one would do for a friend. Everyone in the diner could see that the girls care and love each other more than they do with anybody else.
"I umm, there is something I need to tell you." Max stutters and takes a deep breath before looking at Caroline. Fear is clear in her eyes, Max Black is afraid: afraid of scaring Caroline away, scared of loosing Caroline, scared of Caroline's disappointed look, scared of what's coming in the future, scared of the possibilities. Both of them didn't notice that Caroline is caressing Max's cheeks to calm her down.
"Caroline, I'm pregnant." Max breathes out and her heart drops when Caroline recoils her hand on her cheek back in shock.
"What?" Caroline says before realizing her tone was judgemental at the look of hurt on Max's face. "I mean, how did that happen?" she softens her voice, making sure she doesn't sound accusing.
Max looks down. "I don't know, I don't even know who's the father." She says, ashamed.
"Oh, Max..." Caroline sighs and takes Max's hand in hers, squeezing it to get the brunnette's attention. "We'll get through it, together. Don't worry, I'm not going anywhere."
Max snaps up, surprised and moved at Caroline's easy acceptance. "You're not angry? I mean, you're okay with it?"
"Why will I be angry? And yes, I'm okay with it, I know it's going to be a lot harder. We need to go see a doctor, get you some medicine and supplements. After your trimester we can start shopping for the baby bit by bit, we just have to work harder for the business to work. That means we have to earn at least-" Caroline's business mind starts to work and she rants.
"Woah Woah there, Wharton graduate Blondie!" For the first time today, Max cracks a smile, extremely relieved that Caroline is so accepting and supportive. She feels all warm inside at that and as if a huge mountain is lifted off her shoulders. "Don't go so fast, while I'm glad you're taking it so well my brain can't take all that!"
Caroline smiles and she doesn't know what came over her, she leans forward and plant a kiss on Max's forehead as if they have done it all the time.
"Don't worry Max, I'll take care of you."
That moment, Max realizes that she's really, really in love with Caroline. There's no denying anymore, all these months questioning why and ignoring the obvious signs and Max wonders why it always takes the worse thing to happen in her life for her to realize something important.
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"Uggghhh." Max vomits in the toilet bowl as Caroline holds her hair. When she's finally done and refreshed herself, Caroline has made her some hot chocolate because obviously she can't have caffeine anymore.
"Are you feeling better?"
"Yeah thanks for this." Max says as the warm delicious hot chocolate runs down her throat to her belly. "
"You're welcome, so I did some research yesterday and this morning, we have to get you some fruits and meats. These are the vitamins you need, especially folic acid..." Caroline says happily and Max can only stares at Caroline's moving lips, not listening to a single thing Caroline says.
"Max?"
"Oh sorry, you were saying?" Max shakes her head. Stupid hormones.
"I said I made an appointment with a doctor at the hospital this morning." Caroline says but was confused at the way Max looked at her, as if almost fondly and longingly. Caroline has suspected for a while but always refused to entertain the thought.
"Oh thanks. Do we have enough money for that?"
"Yes, don't worry. I will handle it, I don't want you to stress out. I heard its not good for the baby, in fact... " Caroline says before she was shut up by Max's soft lips on hers, hands tangled in her hair. Caroline can taste chocolate and Max's cherry wine lips.
"God, you're such a dork. It's the only way to shut you up." Max says but couldn't hide the fondness in then when they finally break away for breath, her cheeks blushing deeply as she glances at Caroline, a bit nervous at what her reaction would be.
But Caroline gave her that smile. Those beautiful ocean blue eyes curved into arched moons as she smiles happily at Max.
"I knew it." Caroline whispers before pulling Max into another kiss.
