I love you?
Ch 1
Doggett had been through hell and back the last few days but he was coming out of it and he knew what he had to do to come completely out of it, he had to tell Monica how he felt.
He had played with her emotions and feelings for too long, even his ex wife told him to let her in. He felt now Luke's killer was caught he could now live fully again. He plucked up the courage to go tell her, admittedly it was during the late evening but he had to go while he felt right.
Monica was at home, laying on the sofa, arm over her face, listening to some calming music not thinking but resting, looking forward to her next few days off, wondering what she'd like to do, she startled from this by a hand on her leg, she moves her arm and smiles
"hey baby, was dinner ok for my lovely Dana?" she asks
"lovely, you spoilt me again, now I'm thinking bed?" replies a very smiley Dana
"but I'm not tired" teases Monica
"nor am I but I'm sure we could do something..." she smiles and pulls Monica's hand so she stands...
"Umm sounds fun to me" and pulls Dana into her lips.
Doggett drove over and walked up, thinking in his head how to say it, he pulled out his key; he wanted to catch her off guard so it'd be a surprise. He quietly unlocked the door and stepped in, he looked around but she wasn't in the lounge but her keys and cell were on the side so she was in. He looked in the kitchen, no sign of her.
In the bedroom Monica and Dana are in bed resting after a first round of love making, snuggling together
"I'm glad were both off the next few days" says Dana
"so am I, but what are we going to do?"
"Maybe do some shopping, go cinema" she looks at Monica who looks sad,
"I have a better idea"
Intrigued Dana smiles
"what?"
Monica suddenly moves and is sat on top of Dana,
"stay in bed and make love" they both giggle and Dana's hands start to go up Monica's back...
Doggett heard her voice from bedroom, the door was ajar so he looked in, he was stunned at what he saw... Monica was sat with her naked back to the door clearly straddling someone, he quickly popped back out, he felt sick, he'd waited to long, he knew she wasn't one for one night stands and that this was a relationship.
"Umm baby... You like that?" Monica says running her hands on Dana's bare chest, which she knows drives her crazy
"oww... Yeah moni-kins, I love you on top" replied Dana, enjoying the attention.
Outside the room he recognised the voice, he had to look in again and he saw exactly who he thought he'd hear. Dana Scullly... How could this be? He had never suspected either woman is gay but clearly they were, and even more obvious to him, they were together. His heart broke, he had to admit he had had a crush on Scullly but he thought she was with Mulder, then suspected Skinner but no... It clearly wasn't either.
Dana pulls Monica down and they kiss, its meaningful and loving
"I missed you last night" says Dana
"I missed you too, but four days non stop now" she stops thinking
"what you thinking?" asks Dana a little concerned
"how long have we been together now?" Dana thinks
"six months tomorrow, why?"
"I was just wondering, it feels longer. In a good way of course" replies Monica,
"Dana"
"yes Monica"
"I love you, I haven't told you yet today"
Dana smiles
"I love you too"
They settle down and chat about going out during their days off together.
Doggett sits on the sofa, he doesn't know what to do or feel. He can't except that Monica is gay, those looks and smiles how could it of meant nothing but friendship? He felt very aroused by what was going on in the bedroom but he hated it too, it should be him with Monica not anyone else, not even Scullly. As much as he cared for her, he felt sick that he'd introduced them which led to this. He wasn't sure how long he'd sat there but he suddenly heard Monica
"umm ill make us a coffee, I'm thirsty. Want it in bed?"
Monica stands and finds her new silk robe Dana bought her last month as Monica's was in a tatty state.
"Yeah please hun. Times like these I know why I love you" replied Dana
"I love you too dana-gater" both laughed
Doggett heard this Love... Love... He thought they were serious...
He looked around and finally saw her stepping out of the bedroom, dressed in a champagne coloured, silk, thigh length robe, wrapped and tied around her wonderful figure. She then saw him, looked stunned then stepped back into the bedroom,
"shit Dana, Johns here sat on the sofa" whispered Monica
She walked over and grabbed her jogger and t-shirt.
"What? What's he want? Does he know I'm here?"
"I don't know to all questions. Stay in here ill sort him out"
he heard noise like whispering and movement then she re appeared in joggers and t-shirt, he much preferred her in the gown. She shut the door then slowly walked over,
"hi john, you ok?" she asks so delicately
"no I'm not" he replies, harshly
"ok" she sits next to him
"what's wrong?"
He turns and looks at her, how can she be so calm, is not obvious he's upset because he saw her with Dana? Maybe not...
"What do you think?" he sounded harsh and knew it
"I don't know tell me" she wasn't in the mood for games...
He was getting more and more upsets
"I saw you... With Scullly" stating the obvious, she just shrugs, not sure what he means, hoping its not that he saw them in bed...
"In bed... Do I really need to be that obvious?" Monica just looks at him, what can she say to him...
"Why didn't you tell me?" he's trying to be calm
"why should I of told you? Its no ones business and we didn't want anyone to know yet" it was true but this was not like him
"not even me, I thought I was your friend" his temper was flaring and he was beginning to get louder, she knew he was hurt
"we are friends"
"they why didn't you tell me"
"cos were new together" they were new together, it just felt longer
"new! Don't make me laugh, you already have stupid nicknames, makes me sick"
Now Monica's temper was flaring, she wasn't in the mood for this
"why's it sick? You had nicknames with Barbara"
"it doesn't matter"
"yes it does, it is cos its me or cos its between two women" she couldn't believe he was sounding homophobic and she hated this
He was stumped
"I thought you were my friend but clearly your not"
"how can you say that? To me"
"well you said it to me...what's the difference?"
"I love you"
This threw her... He's on one...
"you what?"
"I love you Monica" she stands and he follows suit...
In the bedroom Dana was digging out her shorts and vest that she keeps at Monica's, in complete shock at what she is hearing, she knows the past between Monica and john but would Monica now be with him, throw what they'd built away for him? Dana was scared then she heard the word love... She couldn't listen to this anymore so she quickly dressed, needing a cigarette and to escape
Monica was mad now...
"Your just saying that to mess me up, if you loved me you'd of been with me years ago, probably married now but no, you pushed me away. Your lying" shouted Monica, right now she hated the sight of him
"I'm not...but..."
Suddenly the bedroom door opened, both turned to see Dana step out in t-shirt and shorts
"I'm not laying there listening to you two out here, I'm going out on the balcony where I can't hear. But I suggest you sort it out or I'm leaving, end of" she said,
She walk past Monica towards the kitchen on a mission for the cigarette, she needed to calm down,
"Dana... Hun... Please" says Monica as she reaches for Dana who pulls away
"no I'm going out on the balcony"
She reaches and grabs Monica's cigarettes, then walks out talking under her breath with many obscenities, shutting the balcony door loudly behind her.
They both watch as she sits on one chair, feet on the second and lights a cigarette.
Monica turns back to john
"so come on john, what is your problem? Why are you in my apartment at 8 at night on a Friday when I'm off tomorrow? Huh? Tell me"
she was growing impatient and didn't like that all this was upsetting Dana to the point she threatened to leave...
He shrugs and sits down...
"I can't lie, I came to tell you I love you and want to be with you" Monica stays standing; she looked down on him and felt sick.
"What? Your joking me. Why now? Why not all those years ago?"
He shrugs, he didn't know what to say...
"I couldn't settle till Luke's killer was found, now that's done I feel free. And I want you" he was being honest for once with her...
"No john"
He stands up and walks to her
"not no, yes. This is clearly just a fling with Scullly, your not gay. Call it a day and we can be together" he was so sure this was what it was...
"No john, its not a fling, I'm bi sexual, always have been and I've found my one true partner. I am not leaving her for you, no way" she was growing more angry at him by the minute...
"Why we'd be so good together"
"no john, I told you that years ago and you told me no, I'm now with someone who I love your too late"
"but Monica..."
"No john its too late. Now I want my key back... Now" she interrupted him...holding out her hand
"why?" asks john confused
"key now" she demands
He gets out his keys and undoes one, it has her initials on so she knows it the right one, he hands it to her
"what if I need to get in?" he asks sadly...
"Then call Dana. I can't trust you after this. Now I want you to leave" this was upsetting her now she needed him to leave...
"What? Why?" he asked
"I'm spending the evening with my partner and I've had enough of this bull shit. Bye john"
She walks towards the door and he follows
"see you Monday?" it was intended as a question
he had no idea what would happen next with them not just their relationship but also with work
"bye john" he stepped out and headed to the car.