Dear Diary,
I feel like I'm lost, and every path I choose just brings me deeper into the mess. I'm scared, not for myself but for Stefan. I have never seen this side of him before, the blood is controlling him in every way, and even though slipped his ring back on his finger and made his choice I can tell it bothers him. Maybe things will get better, iam almost positive they will.
-Elena
It's a Saturday and I'm lounging around feeling useless. Jeremy is in his room all the time lately, I hope he's not back on drugs again, I can't handle that too. With Vicky gone it's like he is a new person. I know this sounds bad but without her he seems to be doing well. I tiptoed up to his door and listened carefully, he was laughing! I could hear him talking to someone and I could hear a girl's voice.
I knocked once on the door and opened it. Jeremy was lying down on his bed shirtless.
"Were you just talking to someone?" I asked.
He looked shocked like he didn't know what to say.
"Uh…no." he spit out.
I raised my eyebrows at him and he looked around.
"What?" he asked, clearly trying to hide something.
"Uh, nothing. Hey I'm going over to Stefan's in a little and Aunt Jenna is…somewhere." I explained still suspicious of him.
"Kay." He answered quickly.
I nodded my head and closed the door behind me.
It was colder out and the leaves on the trees still appeared orange even after snow, the wind was bad too. I threw on some jeans, an old gap tee shirt, and a leather jacket. I grabbed my keys, slipped on my converse and headed out the door. The sun shined off my mirror and blinded my vision, I threw the visor down and squinted my eyes. The necklace around my neck glinted off the sun to making the red stones appear most.
I turned the corner and drove up the road to the boarding house. I hoped he was waiting. I stepped up to the door and lifted my hand to knock, right as I was about to the door flung open.
Damon stood with his arms crossed on his chest. His expression was filled with cockiness.
"Hello hello Elena." He said with a fake surprise expression.
I rolled my eyes.
"Is Stefan home?" I asked peering through the doorway.
"Ooh sorry, he's out hunting little bunny rabbits." He teased. "But please come in." He asked while moving to the side so I could step in.
I huffed and stepped inside.
The house looked like it usually did, modern yet still held many memories of their past.
The smell of scotch filled the air. It made me gag.
"Geez Damon, have you been drinking?"
"Maybe a little here and there. I had company last night. Well not company, more like dinner but you get the point." He explained tilting one of the empty glasses on its side.
Typical Damon.
"So you lured innocent girls home to…to eat them." My voice was filled with disgust.
"Elena, silly girl, I had fun with them first." Damon said.
"Ughh." I groaned.
"Oh don't be like that, just admit you want me too." He teased.
"Yeah that will never happen and you can't compel me." I informed him flashing him the necklace around my neck.
He smiled and looked away.
"Look Elena I know you think of me like the ass of an older brother but trust me you don't know the whole story at all, in fact I think when you know the whole story you just might change your mind." He said while filling his glass with more scotch.
"I doubt that." I told him.
I changed the subject quickly.
"So how has he been?" I asked.
"The same, he's beating himself up about having a normal vampire diet which I don't get but for him it makes sense." Damon said as he staggered to the couch. "He left last night when I brought them home, guess it was too much for him to handle so now he is out killing squirrels in the woods."
Damon clearly had no sensitivity when it came to this.
"Honestly, I don't know how he does it." Damon said. "Being around you with your blood pulsing through your body, it's tempting. I fact you do realize I could jump over at you and kill you before you would even know it." He warned.
I huffed.
"You wouldn't." I replied.
"So you think." He said.
Same old Damon, trying to scare me with his death threats, not going to happen. I knew Damon was just trying to be scary he had a heart buried down deep. He still does just the painful memories of Katherine cover it up.
"You should loosen up, here have a little of the good stuff." He said flashing the bottle to me.
"No thanks." I replied. "You do remember what happened last time, you know when you kidnapped me." I practically spat.
"Don't be like that you had fun." He said.
"I also saved your life." I reminded him.
"Mhm." He mumbled.
The door creaked open and Stefan was back. I let out a sigh of relief.