It's harder now. I can't seem to remember your face anymore. There was a smoothness to your countenance yet every edge was sharp, just like your words. You were always so quiet, it was hard for me to talk to you and yet I tried every time…like a fool, I kept trying. Even now I wonder if any of my words ever reached you. I know you heard them, but did you really?
Your eyes, I want to remember them but all I have left in me is that look of hatred, so fierce, so stubborn. I know they were sorrowful once, I know because I saw them once before, but I can't remember, just like how I can't remember them reflecting an ounce of happiness. Were you ever happy? Did we ever make you happy?
It's harder now to recall, it was so easy before but now…now it's so difficult. Did you ever smile? Did I ever you hear you laugh. No memories come to mind, nothing at all. It makes me sad, more so it leaves me so alone. The loneliness my lack of focus leaves me when I try to picture you. So much time has passed now, and I've yet to get a refresher. My hopes for one have long died away, as have most of my memories of you.
I wanted to die by your side but instead I'll die alone…as will you I suppose. That's how you did things, that's how you've always been. Alone. That much I still remember. Your somber steps, walking away from me for the last time, a memory I can never forget, no matter how much I've tried to, it's the only thing you've left me. An empty memory of your shadowed figure.