Chapter One

Spencer's pov

It's been a bad few months at the BAU, starting with Prentiss' death and having to find someone to replace her. But today we had something to smile about, we caught Doyle, we caught the man who tortured and killed Emily.

We thought that it would be easy, but of course not he chose the hard way and tried to kill Morgan. That's when I stepped in and did something that I dreaded, something I've only had to do once before, I shot him.

After shooting someone I would assume I would feel bad, even depressed, but I didn't feel bad at all. Maybe it was because he took her away from me, from the team. Or maybe it was because I was madly in love with her…

But it's impossible not to love Emily, everything about her is amazing her laugh, her smile, the way she bites her lip when she's trying to concentrate, I could go on forever. It's still hard to believe she's gone…

"Spencer!" Hotch's stern voice taking me away from my thoughts,

"Yes sir?"

"I was just saying that the plane leaves for Quantico tomorrow morning" Hotch said ending the conversation.

Then, we were released. Great, I was stuck with my thoughts for the rest of the night.

Emily's pov

My team thinks I died, well everyone except JJ and Hotch. Will the team hate me for lying? Will they ever be able to forgive me? Or the most important question, will Spencer forgive me?

I know what some may say, I'm too old for him, but there's no limits to love right? I've tried to push my feelings away and say it was just a tiny crush, but tiny crushes don't last three years do they? It took me awhile to finally admit to myself that I, Emily Prentiss am in love with Dr. Spencer Reid.

I mean he's the perfect man. He may not have the biggest muscles like Morgan, but he doesn't need them, he has the most amazing smile, and that adorable habit of randomly stating statistics, and so much more…

What if I ruined every chance we had? There are so many thoughts running through my head right now, I feel like I may go insane at any moment. Then I hear my flight being announced. Thank God, maybe I can get some sleep, I don't know anything to get Spencer off my mind…