Things I'll Never Say

Chapter One

I wasn't a jealous type of person. But when Oliver and Lilly started dating it really had me going. At first I thought I was happy for them, but then I realized I was totally in love with Oliver, and I could never say it.

I watched as they kissed on my couch I really felt like crying at this point cause I didn't know what to do or say, and I don't want to break them up, but how could I be happy when Olver loved Lilly and not me.

I sighed, I really wanted to tell Oliver how I felt, but I just can't and I defenitley can't stand rejection. I get up, totally can't stand watching my man kiss my best friend and I run down to the beach, at least there I can have some peace and relaxation, and I could dream of Oliver and me, and there was no Lilly in my daydreams. I wacthed as the waves creaked back and forth on the shore, I always used to come here with Oliver way before he started dating Lilly.

I actually started to cry, cause the one person I truly loved, was in love with someone else and it's not fair of how that worked out for me, I was now the loner, the single one out of the three of us and I keep getting my heart broken and there is no one to pick up the pieces.

Suddenly, I heard footsteps behind me. "Miley." I turned to see it was Oliver and this time he was alone... for what seemed like the first in two months. "Oliver." I said shocked that Lilly wasn't here with him "what you doing here?" I turned back to face the ocean instead of his beautiful face.

"I want to talk to you." He smiled sitting next to me scooting closer and closer. I felt like I couldn't breathe.

"Ok." I said sotfly.

"Look Miley, I know me and Lily going out is new to you, but please try to understand that I love her. I always have." That stabbed me right in the heart, my eyes started to fill up with tears, he grabbed my hand, but I pushed him away.

"Oliver you don't know how much I care about you." I said through my salty tears, he wiped them away with his thumb. "Sure I do." He smiled.

"No. Oliver you don't get it." I said getting more frustrated then I softly admitted my confession I held for years " Ollie, i'm in love with you." And with that said I stood up and ran off towards my house crying cause I knew he'll never return the love I have for him....still.

Oliver's POV

"Ollie, i'm in love with you." She said, then stood up and ran away from me, crying. I sat there on the sand curisng at myself for how foolish I have been. I mean the only reason I said I loved Lilly was because I didn't want her to know I was in love with her...not Lilly, only reason I got with Lilly was to keep my mind off her, and I completely hurt her with my little act.

I sighed, I couldn't believe I really hurt the one girl I really loved hurt, by telling her I loved someone else that I only love as a sister, damn, I shouldn't have done that. But Lilly thinks I really love her, how can I tell her that i'm really in love with Miley? Oh, the agony of it all.

I walked back to my house, but I stopped by the Stewart's to see how Miley was doing and I saw a small petite figure outside of her house, sniffling, and I figured it was Miley. She saw me, but She didn't turn away or go inside, she just stayed there watching me, damn, I loved her bright blue eyes, even when they're sad, they are still beautiful.

"Ollie." She said softly as I sat next to her, putting my arms around her.

"Miles, look, I'm so sorry, about what I said. truth is I don't love Lilly I love you, I adore you, I have since you moved here." I confessed, but I was cut short by her soft lips tenderly crashing against mine. I found my arm around her waist and hers around my neck, damn, how much I wanted to stay like this forever, but I need to tell Lilly, so I pulled away for a minute. "Miles, you do know I have to break-up with Lilly." She smirked "I know, but I need you right now, do it later." so seductive. I really loved her. I sincerly do.

So after, when I finally stopped kissing Miley, I decided to tell Lilly, and get it over with, I mean I want miley so bad it hurts, so I took a deep breath and I dialed her phone number.

"Hello?"

"Hey Lilly. Can You meet me at the beach in an hour, there's something I need to tell you."

"Sure Ollie, I'll be right there. Love you." She hung up, when she said Ollie my stomach just felt like getting sick, cause Miley sounds cuter saying it, and when she said 'I love you' I really wanted to say 'I love you too, but as a sister'.

When we were at the beach, Lilly's hand was intertwined into mine, I really wanted to hold Miley's soft hand, but anyway I turned towards Lilly and started to explain "Lilly, look I know we have been together for the past two months, and they were great, but for the past three years I had these feelings, about Miley, and I actually love Miley, look Lilly i'm sorry if this is hard for you, but-" She cut me off with a kiss on the cheek and then chuckled softly, "Ollie, I knew you always had a crush on Miles, come on, I even knew you liked her than her Hannah side, i'm not that gullible, but can I have a kiss good-bye Ollie? Then I can actually go back to my 'crazy' crush on Jackson and start being your 'sister' again." So we had one last kiss. it was nothing special, it was tender and sweet, but nothing like the kisses I'll share with Miley.

"Bye Lilly." I said running off.

"Bye Oliver." I heard her say softly.

END OF CHAPTER ONE.