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Time seemed to stand still as I stared into the pitch-black abyss of my room. The numbers on my alarm clocked continued to change minute by minute. But I didn't care because in my mind I wanted time, life, and my existence to die away. I refused to let his death get the best of me and take over my state of mind. But the truth is, it did affect me, and I wanted to slowly deteriorate into nothingness.
"Larxie? Honey? Please open your door…You're scaring me."
"I'm fine mother…. Just give me some space." I hated being so cold and standoffish with my mom, but the truth was, she couldn't help me. No one could help me.
"Okay, well come get me if you want to talk or anything…Promise?"
I could tell she was really concerned about me. "Sure mom. I love you."
"I love you, too, honey bee."
I always hated that name. As a child I developed these weird antennae looking cowlicks in the front of my hair. And since I had blonde hair, and used to love to wear black, I adopted the name 'honey bee'.
As I lay on my back in my bed, I felt my eyes slowly start to close, and I happily embraced the darkness.
When I awoke I was surrounded by darkness once again. This time I didn't want to be alone and engulfed by it. As I turned over in my bed I could vaguely hear another person's breathing. My initial reaction was to scream or call for help, but at this point I could care less if someone was in my room trying to kill me.
I rolled over and turned on my side table lamp, and I looked over my shoulder to find my dead lover living and breathing beside me. Shock overwhelmed me, and all I could utter was "You…"
"I was looking for more of a hey babe how's the afterlife and I missed you, but 'You' shall suffice."
All I could do was stare into his beautiful green eyes, and take it all in that he was in my room alive. I started to pinch myself, but if this was a dream I didn't wanna wake up. "You're not real…You're supposed to be dead…this is not happening right now."
"Well if its any consolation, I missed you." He always was the joker and light hearted one of our relationship.
I told myself; well if he's alive then I can touch him. So I slowly outreached my hand to feel of his warm, beautiful skin. As I touched his face it felt warm and very much alive. I stopped doubting that it was all a dream, and I accepted that a miracle had happened and the love of my life was alive again.
"How did this happen? I missed you so much. I thought I had lost you forever-" I felt my eyes start to water, and the tears began to flow heavily down my cheeks.
"Does it matter why I'm here? Please don't cry babe. I like you better angry and mad at me…Makes the make up sex better."
"You ass! I'm crying here and all you can do is crack your goddamn jokes." His warm fingertips felt soothing against my face as he wiped away my tears.
"That's the Larx I know and love. If you keep talking to me like that you can have your way with me later."
As I got up to leave he grabbed me by the waist and pulled onto his lap, and I laid against his hard, toned chest, never wanting to leave that position. I felt his chin resting on the top of my head, and we stayed in that position just holding each other for what seemed like hours.
"Please never leave me…Promise?"
"I couldn't even if I wanted to because knowing you, you would tie me up in a cellar and never let me leave or stalk me every night in the tree outside my window."
"You bastard, why do I love you so much?" I got up from his lap and laid on my pillow.
"Because you just can't get enough of this."
His eyes were always the main things I loved about him, and I was mesmerized by the way they danced in the light by the humor and adoration in them. He leaned down and kissed me on my forehead, and laid beside me with his arm draped over me.
I felt myself losing consciousness, and in a few seconds my moment with him was over.
The alarm clock's persistent ringing didn't faze me at all. I just reached over without even thinking, and put it on snooze. In my opinion the sleep you get right after you put your alarm clock on snooze and wake up is the best in my judgment. I knew it was getting later and later, but I didn't want to go to school to face all those people staring at me, or comforting me like I was some victim.
A knock came at my door, "Honey bee, it's time for school, if you don't get up now you'll be late."
"I'm getting up mom! Thanks!" I always hated morning time and any other time I would have snapped her head off for knocking on my door, but I realized that she only meant well and it wasn't her intention to bother me.
As I opened my eyes, the sunlight burned them. I rolled over to kiss Axel good morning, but I came to the sad realization that maybe I had dreamt the whole thing, but it seemed so real. So many mornings I had woken up beside him in my bed, and as I looked at my barren bed I realized that there would never be a morning like that again.
The ground was so cold and hard as I leaned off my bed searching for my slippers mindlessly with my feet. I finally found them after a long time of unnecessary looking; I shuffled across my room, down the hallway and into the bathroom.
I looked in the mirror and seriously told myself I looked like crap today. I did my normal morning routine, and as I stepped into the hot shower. It felt like each drop of water washed away any stress and emotional pain I was going through. It felt like I could stay in there for hours, but the moment I felt the first tiny drop of cold water I turned the faucet off and dried myself.
As I got to the doorway of my room, I caught my mother sitting on my bed crying and holding my favorite stuffed animal 'Captain McFluffy Bear'. When I moved a couple of inches forward she shot up like a pistol, and sat the stuffed animal down and started moving away from my bed.
"I finished your laundry, and I left your lunch money on the kitchen counter by your keys." She looked me in the eyes, and as she was about to pass me, she pulled me in for a long embrace. I didn't object to this sudden sign of affection, but the truth remained that I had never been close to my parents so this confused me.
I finished getting ready, and I decided I would take my time since I was going to miss first period anyways. The outfit I chose was a little risqué, but I was kind of hoping for a reason to be sent home. The top was way too low cut, and my jeans had holes and frays all over them.
As I got to my car I had forgotten how many memories I had shared with him in this place. For God's sake we shared our first kiss in this car. As I threw my bag in the passenger seat I looked down, and saw a candy bar wrapper that belonged to him. I first was hit with anger because I told him so many times to take his trash out of my car, but that little wrapper sent a shock-wave of emotion through me.
I regained my composure pulled out of the driveway, and drove to McDonald's for breakfast before second period began. As I pulled into the parking lot of McDonald's what I saw completely baffled me. I pulled into the parking lot, shocked to near speechlessness at the sight before me…there he was, Axel, in his red corvette winking at me. I knew I was hallucinating because this time I was not dreaming. The priest told my mom that I might start seeing things that would seem very real to me, but that they were only memories that my mind did not want to forget.
I brushed it off, picked up my morning breakfast, and made my way to school. When I got there I sat in my car, and enjoyed my biscuit. I mentally prepared myself for whatever reaction I was going to get from everyone.
When it got to five minutes before the next period began, I made my way to the front office. Once inside the weird attendance lady asked for my name, and distracted by the hairy mole on her face all I could say was, "What…?"
"Your name kid." This time she said it with a hint of annoyance.
"Sorry, umm…. the name is Larxene Smith."
She handed my admittance slip, and I took a deep breath, and made my way to second period.
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