This is my first Tai fic, but recently I've been so into him, that I couldn't resist.
This is probably a fic that you either love, or you either hate, but I hope you all love it.
Tai is also gay in this fic, so sorry if I didn't mention it earlier. But you all know now.
Please, R&R.
Disclaimer: I don't own anything.
Tai Kamiya's Diary: Chapter 1- Loneliness
It all began, on my fourteenth birthday;
My mother had made one of her 'special' birthday cakes, and, as usual, my living room was full of my relatives, half of which I couldn't name. My sister, Kari, was quietly eating quite the variation of party food. Despite her small size, she could often rival me, in a 'who can eat the most food' competition. "Tai, stop daydreaming, and come here" I heard a familiar voice, snapping me out of my thoughts.
Following my best friend's voice, I made my way through crowds of relatives, earning the occasional, "Oh, hasn't he grown?" much to my own embarrassment. Finally reaching Sora's side, I relaxed, after sighing exasperatedly from finally escaping the clutches of my grandma. My best friend simply grinned, she wasn't at all surprised by my relatives' behaviour, she was far too used to it for that. I grinned back, trying to hide my red cheeks, but not being very successful.
"Matt's here, you know?" Sora started, she was always trying to get me a boyfriend. Yeah, that's right, boyfriend. When I realised, Sora was the only person that I could confine in, and she is still the only person who knows. "Matt? Who's he" I mused, trying to remember any memory of the so called, Matt. "Well, you don't know him, but I know you'll make the cutest couple" I opened my mouth to say something, when Sora cut in. "Let me introduce you"
Sora grabbed my arm tightly, and lead me to the other side of the room. "Mark, Mark, Mark!" My best friend called, adding even more red to my obviously flushed cheeks. Either that, or it had suddenly got way hotter in here. Instantly, I found myself just inches away from Matt, his back was to me and he showed no signs of moving. "Matt, I want you to meet my best friend, Tai" I heard him sigh, and he slowly turned; his hair reflected the light perfectly, it was a perfect blonde colour.
Maybe this guy wasn't so bad, he did look kinda' cute. But then, I saw something which immediately sent a chill down my spine, his eyes; his eyes were a deep blue, they looked like they were filled with anger, about to explode. And his face; though it looked quite angelic in the light, his frown said the opposite. Though I was a complete stranger to him, he looked at me like an ancient rival. "Oh, I just remembered, I need to help your mum with the food, Tai" Sora started to walk away, is that the best she could come up with?
If that lie was as transparent as I thought it was, Matt knew too, which only made the situation all the more awkward for me. I didn't know what to say, he just focused on anything other than me. I knew that he wouldn't be interested in me, why did I let Sora drag me all this way? This is the way it always happens; she drags me along to some boy, saying that they're going to like me, but it often ends in silence. "Perhaps, we should, eat" Matt spoke, I looked from the floor, to see his cold eyes once more, but he had already walked away.
"Happy birthday dear, Tai, Happy birthday to you" The room chanted in unison, I begged everyone not to sing to me. I guess somewhere inside, though, I really loved it, just as much as when I was a little kid. I made my wish as I inhaled deeply. Letting the air escape my mouth, I blew all of the candles out, leaving smoke and darkness where they once were.
After the cake was cut, and it became late, people started leaving. Kari had fallen asleep on the couch, clutching one of her many stuffed toys, tightly. "Tai, could you please take your sister to bed" My mum called from the kitchen. Recently, I've lost count of how many times I've had carry Kari to bed, but I didn't mind. Once I had picked up her sleeping figure, she held one of her arms instinctively around my neck; she must be so used to it by now. I somehow opened our bedroom door, and placed her gently on the bottom bunk. "Tai...I'm sorry I couldn't stay awake tonight, for your birthday. I went to bed super early yesterday, just to stay awake tonight, but I guess it didn't work." I gasped. I hadn't even realised, without thinking, I quickly hugged her half sleeping figure, and placed the warm covers over her.
"It's okay Kari, good night" "Night, tai. I love you" I get really embarrassed, when anybody mentions the, 'l' word; I guess it's just because I can't express my feelings very well. But for Kari, I always make an exception. "I love you too, Kari" After making sure that she was asleep, I reached for the door handle, but stopped when I heard voices. "Come on, Matt. He's just shy, give it time" "Sora, I do not need a relationship right now. Especially not with some immature boy, who eats like a pig, doesn't talk and looks like a girl.
That was it. That was it. I suddenly realised that unless something changed in my life, I'd be alone forever. I never did let anyone close to me, besides Kari and Sora. I need to take control of my life, I need to make sure that next year, I won't end up lonely again. I'm not crazy, I know that It'll probably never happen, but if I'm sad; my mum always tells me that the feeling won't last that long, and it never does. I just need to stop letting love pass me by. I'm just so fed up of being so lonely.
I need to take control of my life.
I need to write a diary.
Sorry if it was really short.
It's just the prologue, anyway.
But, please, R)
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