Pedestal
By HoMeSlIcE4LiFe
A/N Hey y'all! So this a little thing from Lily's POV on why she can't let James love her. Enjoy!
You can't know. You can't understand. You're probably judging me, a million questions running through your head. Why can't she just let it happen? Why can't she love him as much as he does her? How could he love a girl like her?
Well, you know what?
Fuck you.
I'll tell you why.
I can't let it happen because it'd be a waste of time. He'd realize soon enough that I'm not who he thought I was. That pedestal of perfection, as high as the sun, will eventually tumble down into a pile of ashes and heartbreak. I know this. He doesn't. He's blinded trying to see up to the sun. I know I'm the farthest thing from what he thinks I am, and that I don't deserve any of this. I know this. He doesn't. He refuses to listen, and he refuses to tear away from the pedestal. He'll have to forget about it soon enough, or he'll be crushed when it falls. I know this. He doesn't. I'm trying to save him from himself.
So I do love him. More than he does me. His is a false love. Not on purpose, of course. He doesn't know he's doing this. See, he loves the me that he has on the pedestal. I love him and all of the badness in him. I love him for the REAL him. I love him more than humanly possible. I truly do. I do what I do, because I love him so much that I am willing to sacrifice my happiness for his. THAT is true love. THAT is a strong love.
How could he love me? Well, it's
that damn pedestal.
And the sooner it crumbles, the sooner he can
live a happy life, and find true love.
Because he deserves that.
A/N So? What do you guys think? Is she ridiculously crazy? Or does what she say make sense a bit? Let me know what y'all are thinking with a review! Snickerdoodles are up for grabs!
Love!
Alex