How I started to die
"Everything had started out well today. Natsu, Gray, Erza, and Wendy came to my house and wished me a happy new year. Everybody in the guild was happy, including me. That's why I wanted to know how. How did my day end up from going bad to worse in just a matter of minutes? How come I was kicked out of team natsu, when I was part of the reason it formed. How?
The guild I loved so much turned into my worst nightmare, all because of Natsu Dragneel, that fire breathing bastard! As soon as I left on a mission, he started getting all, lovey-lovey, with Lissanna Strauss, the bane of my existence. She caused all of my pain and suffering. It was all her. She pretended to be the nice and friendly girl, but she was really the backstabbing wench. She once was my best friend, but then she went and started dating Natsu behind my back even though she knew I was in love with him. Everything wrong with my life was emLissanna's/em freaking fault. She got me kicked out of the guild and she made my heart break into pieces! I was going to get revenge on her and Natsu. Most of my suffering was his fault for being the dense idiot that he is. He told me he would protect me from all the enemies and than he went and hurt me himself. I used to love him but now I hated him, along with the white-haired wench! I would be their destruction.
I stared at my right hand that used to hold my Fairy tail mark; it was something that would never be there again. Natsu and Lissana destroyed my life so now I would destroy their home. I would get my revenge on both of them but first, I had to master my new magic. I looked at my cruel teacher. He would beat me so I could learn and so I wouldn't feel pain, and it was working. I locked away my emotions and they would never get the best of me again. I now knew there was no such thing as nakama or a family. There was only death and destruction in this world; there always would only be that. My teacher taught me all this and he was teaching me his magic and apocalypse dragon-slayer magic. My teacher, was none other than Zeref, creator of demons and feared throughout all the world. He was the perfect teacher to learn from. He killed people without trying to and he was stronger than anybody alive. He was unbeatable./p
p style="text-align: left;" I would get my revenge under him and I would be so happy while doing it. I guess anybody would want to know how the cheery-faced, weak, celestial mage from fairy tail met the most evil and most deranged person in the world, so I guess I'll tell you.
Flashback
It was a cold Christmas night, I was walking alone by myself. I was remembering what happened at the guild. "Lucy!" Natsu yelled as he ran toward me. I was so happy somebody was talking to me, no one had since Lissanna came from edolas, not that I was holding any grudges at the time. "Natsu!" I yelled back, smiling largely at the sight of him. The rest of team natsu were running behind him at a slower pace than he was; Wendy was hiding behind Gray, crying. "Hey Luce! I have a Christmas present for you!" My eyes were opened largely, wondering what Natsu had gotten me. "What is it Natsu?" I asked excitedly. "Well, you can't hold it but I hope you like it." Natsu smiled at me and opened his mouth loudly. "Lucy! I'm kicking you out of team natsu! You're weak and aren't needed by anybody here!" Tears came to my eyes at this point. The whole guild was staring at us, waiting for my reaction. I couldn't cry in front of them anymore. They would all laugh at me. I blinked back the tears I had in my eyes and lifted my head to stare at Natsu in the eyes. "Natsu, I understand your decision completely. You think i'm a replacement for Lissanna and you want to make room for her on the team. You think i'm a weak and stupid blondie who has never had any right to talk to you or anyone in the guild after Lissanna came. I'm just someone you used who could take your mind off of Lissanna before she came back to the guild. I completely UNDERSTAND! I'm stupid, weak, ugly, a replacement, unneeded, a placeholder, just something to fill up the void Lissanna left! I know everybody in the guild thinks that since none of them has talked to me for over a year now! Nobody's cares about me now and no one here will care once I leave. Than fine. Natsu, Gray, Erza, Wendy, Levy, Mira, Master, Lissanna, Happy, Charla, Pantherlily, Gajeel, I know you'll love it when I leave so goodbye. I focused my magic on my right hand and it disappeared. I waved my right hand where my mark used to be and I walked out of the guild mark almost in tears, but I didn't cry till I was in bed where no one ever broke in any more.
The next day. . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

All of my stuff was packed up and in the spirit world thanks to virgo. Her appearance had changed. Her usual purplish hair had red and hot pink highlights in it, and she wasn't in her usual uniform. She was in a white, sleeveless dress that went down to her feet and she had no shoes on. She looked like a mix of two different people. Kind of like my heart. I already had a train ticket to clover town and was going there now. I grabbed my ticket off the last piece of furniture and I walked to the train station humming softly to myself so low that only a dragon-slayer would be able to hear it.I got to the train quickly and grabbed the last empty booth. It was there I met the twin dragonslayers and their exceeds, lector and frosche. "Frosche!" Rouge and Sting were yelling "Where did you go? Come back!" Something soft touched my leg and I looked down, it was a cat in a frog costume. I picked him up and asked him what was wrong. He said he was looking for an empty booth for him and his three other friends to sit in. I looked around my booth and there were still at least five seats left, not including mine. I told Frosche him and his friends could sit here after she took him to them, but she never had a chance to go look for his friends. Something tackled me and sent me at the wall. Than it had me at the throat. I opened my eyes a little bit;it was the shadow dragon-slayer, Rouge Cheney. "Why!" he had asked, "Why do you have fro with you?!" I stared at him and I could feel my air supply cutting off. "I would," I said in a strangled voice, "But you're strangling me." He dropped me on the ground immediately and I took a few recovery breathes. After I got my air flowing normally, I stood up and wiped off my pants. "You're little cat there, found me and asked me to help find his friends which i'm guessing are you guys. I was about to go find you but than Rouge here, tackled me against the wall." When I finished with my explanation, Rouge's face was red and Sting's face was shocked as he saw my face. "Hey,"Sting said, "Aren't you the celestial mage from Fairy Tail?" I nodded and told them the short version of what were both in shock at what Natsu had done. "That jerk!" Sting has yelled, "Now I will! actually get serious with that guy!" I asked him what he was talking about and he said he was going to Fairy Tail to challenge Natsu to a fight and Rouge was tagging along to watch. Then the train got off at Crocus and I said bye to the guys and walked straight into the Crocus forest, filled with monsters. During the night, I found a clearing with a lake and somebody was drinking water near it. He asked me what I was doing in the forest and I told him what happened with Fairy Tail. Later near dawn, he offered to train me in dark magic and dragon-slaying magic. I agreed and a few weeks later, I learned he was the dark mage Zeref. I tried to get out of the training but he said he would kill me if I Left. Than he made me promise to kill him after my training was complete. I agreed and that was how I met the dark mage, Zeref.
Flashback end.
"I have been training with Zeref for over seven years now and we have had a few close calls since I started training. Ever since I completed dragon-slayer magic, I have been learning Zeref's death magic and once I learn all of it, after I use all my dark magic in battle, I will die slowly and painfully. This magic is slowly killing me, but it's what I'll do for revenge. Revenge on them is my life now, and I will never feel loss from fairy tail again. I would be their destroyer. Even if it kills me to, I will get my revenge!

Authors note

This is the first fan fiction I'm making seriously. Please review if you liked this. I'm not writing this on paper beforehand so it's kind of weird for me to just start typing. But, WOW! This is 1,650 words! I know it's not a lot compared to what other people have written but im hoping each one is longer. Right now the authors note isn't included in the word count but maybe i'll change it soon. I'm hoping to write at least ten chapters for this. So if you have any ideas for a fanfic that maybe you don't have time to make yourself, maybe i could do that. I apologize for any mistakes and if you find any just tell me so I can fix it! Happy reading!