A flash of those sparkling green eyes, that's all he really needed right now. She didn't have to stop, didn't even have to see him. He needed to see her, to know someone out there cared about him. And he cared about her, oh how he cared. His dark eyes slowly scanned the Gryffindor side of the Great Hall, and finally he saw her from behind, her fire red hair standing out in a crowd. She was sitting at her table with the rest of the girls in her year. He wished Please turn around, please. And almost as if he had cast an Imperius Curse on her, Lily turned. He drowned in those green eyes, soaked it all in. The best part was that she didn't just turn, she turned and looked at him. She smiled at him, and he thought his heart stopped. She then mouthed the words Willow, ten. He nodded to show he got the message. She winked then turned back around to her fellow Gryffindors. He turned back to the rest of Slytherin and looked to see if anyone had noticed what he had done. No one even realized he was there, much less noticed his absence from the conversation. No one even cares about poor Severus Snape, he thought, no one but her….
After
breakfast, Severus went down to his dormitory, grabbed a book, and
walked down to the willow by the lake. He considered it their
willow. The two of them had spent many an afternoon just sitting
underneath that willow. Studying, talking, or just hanging out. It
made the time even sweeter when the Marauders passed by and shot him
a dirty look. They were just jealous. Lily and he had talked many
times about what their opinions on the Marauders. They both Peter
Pettigrew was basically a shadow and wasn't a threat to anyone.
Remus Lupin seemed nice enough to Severus; when alone, the boy was
quite amiable, and Lily agreed. They was just something off
about him. Sirius Black, on the other hand, was in Severus's view a
poor excuse for a being. Any chance that boy got, he would play
another trick on Severus. Lily thought he was bad but could be a nice
guy if he just tried. Severus figured she just let Sirius off easy
because she thought he was easy on the eyes. But they both agreed on
the last Marauder. James Potter was an arrogant, egotistical,
self-centered narcissist. He, like Sirius, played cruel jokes on
Severus. But he didn't do it for the sheer pleasure of bullying; he
did it because he resented Severus. Not of Severus Snape's good
looks, because he didn't have those. He envied Severus's
closeness to Lily, a girl James had crushed on for ages. Severus
didn't blame him; he had to give the boy some credit, because who
could resist Lily Evans? Sure, some of those in Slytherin might point
out she was Muggleborn and therefore disgusting. But Severus had
realized a long time ago that it didn't matter whether someone was
Muggleborn, pure-blood, or half-blood. What mattered was the wizard
or witch inside. For example, James and Sirius were pure-bloods, and
look what gits they turned out to be! But Lily was so very brilliant,
and he, a half-blood, was pretty decent. At least he seemed to think
so. Severus smiled to himself at the remembrance of his heritage. A
half-blood in Slytherin? Almost an oxymoron. Of course, no one knew
his father was a muggle. Most just assumed his father was in one of
the lesser known pure families. Honestly, he sometimes wished he
wasn't in Slytherin. Sure, he was cunning, but that only got you so
far. Now, the chivalrous Gryffindors—it seemed they could do
anything. Severus sighed. He didn't belong with the Gryffindors. He
was a coward, plain and simple. Lily was brave, and clever, and
kind, and ambitious. She could have been in any of the four houses.
It was one of the reasons why everyone liked her—she could identify
with everyone. Oh, Lily…..she was so out of Severus's league. But
the fact that after all these years, she still
hung out with him, maybe that counted for something. He was the one
that first introduced her to the world of magic, and that meant
something too. Or could it have been the only reason that she still
talked to him? Her sort of "thank you" for telling her about the
wizarding world? Was he just her pity case? Severus violently shook
his head. No, no one was that
sympathetic, not even
Lily Evans. Oh, just the thought of her name made him want to dance.
She was so beautiful, inside and out. Her fiery hair to match her
independent and vivacious personality, the green eyes that made him
turn to goop that reflected her softer, gentler side. Her bubbly
laugh, popping into the air. Her smile, brighter than anything on the
earth. She was the only person in this world that meant something to
him. Severus looked at his watch. 10:10. Where was she? She wasn't
the type to stand him up. She was just probably held up. No big deal.
When you were as well-liked as Lily Evans, everyone wanted to talk to
you. He sat there, reading the book he brought with him. It was his
copy of Fantastic
Beasts and Where to Find Them
by Newt Scamander. He knew it basically from cover to cover, but he
was just reviewing for his Defense Against the Dark Arts O.W.L.
coming up in a few days. He loved the subject Defense Against the
Dark Arts, even more so than Potions. Sure, he was good at Potions,
but Defense Against the Dark Arts made him feel brave, like he really
belonged in Gryffindor, like he could protect those he loved, like he
was worthy of Lily. He looked at his watch again. 10:20. Now he was
getting anxious. He knew he would do fine on his O.W.L.'s but still
needed her reassurance. A smile and a kind word would do the trick.
His fears were calmed when across the field he saw red hair flying
through the air. Lily ran until she got to the trunk of the willow
tree. She sat down beside him with her legs crossed under her skirt,
her feet pointing away from the two of them. Ever
the lady, Severus
thought.
Lily's breath was uneven for a few seconds until she
finally managed to sputter out, "Sorry, Sev." Oh, how he hated it
being called Sev, almost as much as he hated being called Snivellus.
But when Lily said it, he didn't mind at all. In fact, he kind of
liked it.
"It's fine," he replied.
She then looked up at
him with those green eyes and pleaded in both expression and words,
"Forgive me?"
Forgive her? Of course! How could he not? Heck,
she needn't have pleaded with him.
"Of course," he smirked.
She smiled in reply, and he felt his heart beat louder than what he
believed humanly possible.
"So, what kept you?" he
inquired.
"Frank Longbottom at first. He's so worried about
Charms. He wanted to ask me a few simple questions, you know, second
and third year stuff. I answered them, but I feel so sorry for the
poor boy. He worries so much, but I know he knows the material, in
and out. He just needs the little confidence push once in a while.
Doesn't help much with the mother he's got. She expects the very
best."
"I see." She's
so kind. "You said
at first. What after that?"
"Ugh….I don't want to talk
about it…."
He knew immediately who it was. "Potter?" he
spat out.
"Like I said, don't want to talk about it." Her
brow furrowed in annoyance. Severus's heart skipped a beat to know
that James Potter would kill to be this close to Lily, physically and
mentally, but she didn't even want to talk about him. Her face
finally relaxed to its normal angelic state. "So, Sev, you seemed
like you needed to talk. What's up?"
Oh, she could read him
like a book. "Nothing really, just a little worried about O.W.L.'s,
considering how they determine everything else we take."
She
playfully hit his arm. "You bullock! You have nothing to worry
about! You and me, we're gonna do just fine." Her head rested on
the same arm. Severus could die right now and be happy. He took a
chance and rested his head upon hers. Unlike a majority if not all of
the rest of the Hogwarts student body, she didn't jerk away. Now
he would truly die happy. He sat there for a while, just enjoying
this moment.
"Lily, I just wonder sometimes…what about after
Hogwarts? What then? With You-Know-Who out there, it's completely
different than a lot of people like to prepare for."
"Well,
you're right. But I think we've got our heads on straight for the
most part. I want to be an Auror, fight the good fight, you know? And
you, you'll become the Defense Against the Dark Arts teacher like
you've always wanted. You just have to keep a closer eye on who you
keep company with…."
His head sprung up, and he looked at her
with confusion and a dash of anger, "And what do you mean 'who I
keep company with'?"
She sat up straight and looked back with
concern, "Well, Sev, most of your Slytherin friends have Death
Eater ideals, if they aren't Death Eaters already…"
"Oh,
so now I'm a Death Eater? Scared I'm going to kill the
Muggleborn?"
"Severus, calm down. I'm not scared of you,
just worried about you. I don't want you to fall into the wrong
crowd. I care about you too much for that to happen," she said
tranquilly.
Severus was instantly humbled. Lily Evans just said
she cared about him. Oh, could this be the moment to tell her how he
really felt? No, not yet. But he should at least let her know he
cared.
"Lily, I care for you too."
She smiled knowingly.
"Oh, tell me something I don't know."
He laughed. She
beamed. "Severus, I love it when you laugh. You should let everyone
see this side of you more often." Her hand reached out and cupped
his cheek. Oh, how warm her hand was. "If you did, people would
like you more. You'd be more popular."
She said it, that
horrible word he detested, something he hoped he'd never become,
only because he'd heard it used to describe those he depised. He
stood, fuming. "Oh, 'popular'? What makes you think I want to
be popular?"
Now it was Lily that was confused. "What wrong
with being popular?"
"Maybe I like being a bit of a loner,
Lily! Did you ever think about that?"
"Well, I just thought if
you were more popular…" She said it so softly that it was on the
verge of timidness.
"If I were more popular, it wouldn't
embarrass you, the beautiful, talented Lily Evans, to be seen with
me, the ugly, slimy Severus Snape?"
She slowly stood up and,
with tears in her eyes, stated, "I can't believe you think I'm
that shallow. I have never
been ashamed of being your friend, Severus." She cautiously
stretched her hand to once again hold his face, but he hit it away.
Her eyes widened in rage. "At least, I haven't until now!"
"Good,
be humiliated of me! Go and run off with someone more popular, like
Potter!"
If one's ears could emit steam when angry, Lily's
would be mini clouds. "POTTER!!! I CANNOT BELIEVE YOU WOULD
EVEN—!"
"Well, how else do you explain why you were so late
earlier? Longbottom couldn't have asked too many questions! That's
a nice period of time you were with Potter! Probably snogging behind
a curtain—"
He couldn't finish his sentence. The loud smack
of a slap resounded through the air, and Severus's head flung back
from the sheer force of Lily's blow to his cheek. He crouched down
in pain, and once he was able to lift his head up again, all he saw
was red hair flowing through the air as Lily stormed away.
He was
such an idiot. Hitting her hand away? Insinuating she was having a
relationship with Potter? He was such a prat. He looked at his watch.
10:45. Dinner on Sundays was at 6. She would be fine and willing to
forgive after dinner.
Severus ate as fast as he could. Once finished, he looked to make sure she hadn't left yet. She hadn't. He thanked his lucky stars and sped out of the Great Hall. He stood beside the huge entrance doors, just waiting for her. Finally, after about twenty minutes of waiting, Lily sauntered out. He immediately begged with his eyes for her forgiveness. She saw him but turned up the stairs in a huff, not even giving him a second glance. Well, maybe an owl tomorrow apologizing and wishing her luck on her O.W.L.'s will do the trick. After all, she'll have slept on it. She'll have to forgive me.
Severus got up early and went to the Greenhouses. Finding the prettiest and largest rose, he cut it from the bush and went to the owlery. He grabbed one of the school's large tawny owls and attached to the owl's leg the rose along with a note that said:
Lily,
I'm
so very sorry for what I said yesterday. I was a prat. Still am one,
actually. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. And I would
wish you luck on your O.W.L.S., but I know you'll do well. Once
again, please forgive me.
Severus
P.S. I tried to find a
gift more beautiful than you to give; I couldn't. This was the
closest thing.
He went off to breakfast and waited eagerly for all the owls to bring in the mail. Finally, the flock swooped in. He quickly found his owl, easily trackable due to the rose. He watched as it flew down and landed in front of Lily. She was shocked for a moment then untied the note. Her eyes scanned the note. Severus held his hands in fists, the nails digging into his palms. He didn't care. Please let her forgive him! Lily leaned down and dug into her bag until she found a quill and a piece of parchment. She jotted something down for a few seconds then tied her note to the owl's leg before feeding him a piece of ham. The owl was obviously irritated that he had to make yet another delivery. He flew over to the Slytherin table, landed by Severus's plate, shook the note off his leg, snatched up both pieces of Severus's bacon, and took off. Severus grabbed the note and slowly unwrapped it. It said:
Sev,
I'm
going to do horrid on my O.W.L.'s. I'll be so busy remembering
how wonderful it is to be popular and worrying about how perfect my
lipstick is that I probably won't even answer a quarter of the
questions. Us beautiful people have to worry about stuff like that,
but you wouldn't know. I really shouldn't worry about my
lipstick. I mean, I'm going ruin it snogging Potter, but it'll be
worth ruining for him. Oh well.
Lily
P.S. One of the
thorns pricked me. Now my finger is bleeding. Thanks.
Now Severus was thoroughly peeved. Fine then. Don't forgive him. He tried, for Merlin's sake! He wasn't going to make another move. She'd have to come crawling back to him. He'd focus on his O.W.L.'s
Lily turned back to her table and smiled. She hated to admit it, but Sev worked best when focusing on something entirely different. And with a terrible note like that, their fight would be on his mind all week. He do wonderful on his O.W.L's. She had forgiven him for his rampage as soon as she was back in the castle. That's when this deviously genius plan came into her head. She'd tell him after the written portion of Defense of the Dark Arts. He could survive until then. She picked up the rose and held in between her right hand's thumb and index fingers while leaning on her left hand and burying her nose within the flower's petals. She had to admit, Sev was quite the romantic. Now all she had to do what get that boy to smile more. She loved his smile. But she did feel special, because she knew she was the only one he'd smile for. Oh, that boy was putty in her hand. Then again….she'd be putty in his hands if he only knew how she really felt….if he just smiled and laughed more….she sighed as she set the rose back on the table and finished her breakfast.
