Patience, It'll all workout somehow, I hope.
AN: Hey guys this just came to me so I started writing and this is what happened. I honestly didn't know what's going to happen.
I will update every Thursday after today, so once a week unless I think of something that I can't wait to post. ENJOY.
Chapter one - You may have found me but I'm still leaving.
You sit on your couch, your so drunk you can't see straight. Your two best friends beer and Jack Daniels litter your coffee table and sofa.
You sit there thinking where did it all go wrong? How did this happen? But most importantly you think why did I let this happen?
Your thoughts are racing around your mind but one stands out. You knew this was going to happen, you didn't know when, you couldn't prepare because out of the blue it happened. But still you knew it was going to happen. How is it that your surrounded by people who love and care for you But you feel so lonely. Everyone else is happy and now your so numb you can't feel anything.
6 months.
182 days.
4382 hours.
That's how long it took for your life to go from good, to bad, to worse and then to non-existence. You hear someone knocking on your door but your too drunk to move, still in your daze you don't realise that whoever was at your door is now in your apartment. You don't care who it is because you stopped caring a long time ago.
You an hear them talking but don't quite understand what they're saying and you think to yourself 'god I just wanna die' what you don't realise is that you said it out loud. So the person who's in your apartment crouches in from of you waving their hand in front of your face trying to snap you out of your haze.
"I'm tired." You mumble as you lay down on the sofa knocking all the bottles off luckily none of them smash.
The blackness is starting to drag you under but before it does you quietly mumble. "How did things get this bad?"
As you close your eyes you hear the person reply. "I don't know but I want to fix it." The voice is so soft and heavenly.
That's the last thing you hear before the darkness fully takes over, you know what comes next with the darkness. The nightmares you've lived with for as long as you can remember.
(your standing in a field the grass is green and the flowers are beautiful, it's a hot and sunny day. You feel amazing like you can do anything, almost as if you were yourself again. Suddenly things change the ground beneath you changes the flowers and grass die. You look up to the sky and the sun is no longer with you,
the storm clouds are out and there's nothing you can do. You feel cold and alone again and you can't see no way out as the heavens open and the rain pours down on you. Then your on your knees and you don't what happened and you can't fix it. You curl up into a ball on the floor waiting for something but something never comes.)
You wake up with a start you don't know what time it is or what day, what you do know is your head is pounding and you can smell coffee. The first is normal but the second one confuses you. Why would there be coffee nobody knows where you are except someone has found you but who?
As you sit up you notice you passed out on the couch. AGAIN. You groan as you open your eyes, the sun light is attracted to your eyes like bee's to honey.
You stand up and your just not ready to face who ever is in your kitchen so you look down and shuffle to your bedroom and close the door.
You get dressed but in the last 6 months you've changed lots of things about you. Now instead of pant suits and trusty boots you wear jeans and a leather jacket,
it makes you look super badass and it helps you act confident Even though your confidence got shattered as well as everything else. You make yourself presentable you still don't know who's in your kitchen but your about to find out. Taking deep breaths to calm yourself before you walk out of your bedroom, you walk out and what you see is not what you expected. The air in your lungs is no longer, the pounding in your head doubles and you heart feels like it's no longer beating.
"How'd you find me?" you ask since you can't bring yourself to say her name.
"I hired a private investigator to find you." Maura said.
You still haven't moved so numb that you swear you're in limbo. She used to look through you like you wasn't there before but now she's looking right at you.
How is it that one moment your trying to just live another day and the next your having to fight your most inner demons. She wants you to say something but nothing comes to mind what do you say?
"Yeah you found me alright." Jane said.
"I've been searching for a while." Maura said.
"well I guess your search is over." Jane said.
"Why? Why'd you leave." Maura asked.
"I needed time away and It was too hard for me to stay." Jane replied.
"Everybody worried until you rang Cavanagh and told him you were fine and you've just left. Gone without saying a word to anybody. Your family and friends were devastated they still are. I know you started pulling away from me before you left. i gave you time but now I want answers and your going to give them to me." Maura said.
"If I keep one promise I ever made it's to spare your feelings from this, unlike me I lost my emotions and humanity a long time ago and now I'm just a bastard who doesn't care about anything. So your wasting your time being here." Jane said.
"What happened to you to make you like this? I just want to know why?" Maura asked.
"IT DOESN'T MATTER ANYMORE! I LEFT AND THAT'S THE END OF IT YOU SHOULD QUIT WHILE YOUR AHEAD!" Jane shouted.
"Say my name." Maura requested.
"What?" Jane questioned.
"Say my name." Maura said again a little more forcefully.
"I can't happy now." Jane said.
"I'm the reason you left aren't I?" Maura asked.
"Like I said it doesn't matter." Jane replied.
"Why wont you tell me?" Maura asked.
"You need to leave now, someone's coming over." Jane said but it was too late her door was already open.
"RIZZOLI we have a problem you need to sort out Maura has found you so you need to leave." Doyle said as he closed the door and turned around. Doyle didn't know what to say as Maura stood there in front of Jane. Maura just glared at Doyle.
"I guess your too late Patty, are you reason why Jane left? Are you reason she's like this?" Maura asked as she walked over to Doyle leaving Jane to slip into her bedroom and prepare.
"Maura what are you doing here? You need to leave now." Doyle said.
"NO! I'm not leaving without answers." Maura nearly screamed.
"You can't know just yet but soon I promise Jane or I will tell you everything you need to know." Doyle said.
Maura can't be sure what made her believe him, maybe it was his eyes or the fact even though he was a ruthless mobster he was a gentle man. Jane came out of the bedroom dressed in black cargo pants, black hoody with a bulletproof vest she was also armed with two pistols and a few knives. Maura turned to look at Jane and gasped in shock at what she saw.
"Jane what the hell are you up too?" Maura asked.
"Like I said it's none of your business, you may have found me but I'm still leaving." Jane said to Maura and then looked at Doyle and said "I'm ready."
Jane walked out of her apartment not even looking at Maura she just couldn't it was too hard and she needed to do this.
"Where is she going? And what is she doing?" Maura asked.
"All in good time Maura I promise but now you need to leave. I'll be in contact with you." Doyle said as he stared at Maura.
Maura huffed and went to the door but stopped and looked back at Doyle.
"If I don't hear from you I will come back but not on my own. Do you understand?" Maura said sternly looking Doyle dead in the eye he nodded and with that Maura left.
AN: So let me know what you think and if you have any ideas PM me and I'll see what I can do.