Hey, do you remember when things used to be so simple between us? Back when the highlight of our monotonous, boring days was just sitting at the top of the clock tower, eating ice-cream? And we would just goof off until we were inevitably called back "home". I miss those days so much.
But not quite as much as I miss how close we used to be. I know in the beginning it took you awhile to warm up to me. You were all business back then and really quiet, but it wasn't long before I was able to make you crack a smile or laugh. And not too long after that our friendship was established, and I felt like we were inseparable.
You know what I also loved about you? I felt like we were in the same boat, like you always had my back. No matter how much the others would lie to me, or keep me in the dark, you were just as lost as I was. The two of us always got the short end of the stick, but as long as we had each other, we would be okay.
All bonds are meant to weaken, right? Towards the end I saw how your behavior towards me changed. You were far more distant and you acted like you knew something that I didn't. I felt like I was the lone rat left to run in the maze. I felt abandoned and that's what broke my heart the most.
But you want to know the real kicker? I feel like I'm losing my mind. I feel like this body and these memories and thoughts aren't my own. When I close my eyes, my memories are fuzzy, and the ones that aren't are of a boy I've never met. He looks a heck of a lot like me, and I have idea who he is. All I know is that when I think of him, my brain feels like it's trying to claw out of my skull, and I feel so many emotions towards him: Anger, sadness, happiness, even hatred.
I don't know what to tell you. I don't know what's real anymore, and I'm so afraid. I want everything back the way it used to be. I want to remember everything about you, but the more I try to remember, the more I forget. I…just wish I had my friend back.
What was your name, anyway?