I don't own the characters or the song! The fabulous Yu Watase owns
the Fushigi Yugi characters, and well… the song is "On My Own" from Les
Mis. ^___^ It's a sad little thing… but I like it… Read and review. I hope
you enjoy! Ja ne, no da! ~Sakura
P.S. *Sprays patent "Lawyer-b-gone" and bows*
Nuriko tightened his coat against the cold, and glanced around, sighing in relief at the welcoming silence of slumber. He was glad to finally be alone... Life as a seishi could never be considered private. As he quietly, slipped out of the palace, he passed Hotohori's room. He stopped and looked at the door, longingly, wishing he could just go in and tell the young ruler everything… He sighed, quietly and slipped out the door, into the soft rain that was covering Honan.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'till morning.
With out him
I feel his arms around me.
And when I lose my way
I close my eyes and he has found me.
All of his nocturnal strolls seemed to lead him to the same place… the river. As he mulled over all of the thoughts flooding his brain, he sat on the edge of the river, trailing his fingers through the clear water. "Hoto-kun would love it here…" he thought, smiling, "If only I could get him out of the palace for once… what a workaholic."
In the rain
The pavement shines like silver.
All the lights
Are misty in the river.
In the darkness
The trees are full of starlight.
And all I see is him and me
Forever and forever.
His warm smile faded, slightly as the realization of his true situation hit him. He laughed, bitterly and looked at himself in the river, "Who're you kidding? You know you don't really matter. You're losing your mind, you know. He isn't really there. And you know those hands on your arms? Those are YOURS! Stop it, ya crazy nutcase!"
His eyes softened, sadly, and he whispered, "But… it could work… me and him. It could work. There's always a way…"
And I know it's only in my mind.
That I'm talking to myself and not to him.
And all though I know that he is blind
Still I say, "There's a way for us."
Nuriko stared up at the sky, feeling the tears start to gather in the corner of his eyes. He loved Hotohori… he knew that now. It wasn't some silly crush. It wasn't because he was the Emperor. Sure, it had started out as that. He was the top, the best. And Korin had to look out for Korin. Nuriko wanted the best and that's what Hotohori was. He was a new challenge. I mean, sure, he'd gotten himself into the harem, hadn't he? If he could do that, there was nothing he couldn't do! Nuriko laughed, wistfully, "Right Nuri… nothing you can't do… but you can't go a day without thinking about him… can you? You love him but you can't make him love you back, can you?"
There were always those moments. The moments when he knew that Hotohori didn't care. And the moments, when he thought that no one would miss him when he was gone. Hotohori had Miaka… Silly Miaka. How does she do it? She gets all the guys without even realizing it…
I love him but when the night is over
He is gone the river's just a river.
Without him the world around me changes.
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers.
I love him but everyday I'm learnin.
All my life, I've only been pretending.
Without me, his world will go on turning.
The world is full of happiness that I have never known.
Nuriko stood, and turned back towards the palace, glancing at the lonely moon, smiling. "Now I know how you must feel…" he thought, sadly, "What a sad existence."
I love him…
I love him…
I love him but,
Only…On my own…
~FIN~
P.S. *Sprays patent "Lawyer-b-gone" and bows*
Nuriko tightened his coat against the cold, and glanced around, sighing in relief at the welcoming silence of slumber. He was glad to finally be alone... Life as a seishi could never be considered private. As he quietly, slipped out of the palace, he passed Hotohori's room. He stopped and looked at the door, longingly, wishing he could just go in and tell the young ruler everything… He sighed, quietly and slipped out the door, into the soft rain that was covering Honan.
On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone
I walk with him 'till morning.
With out him
I feel his arms around me.
And when I lose my way
I close my eyes and he has found me.
All of his nocturnal strolls seemed to lead him to the same place… the river. As he mulled over all of the thoughts flooding his brain, he sat on the edge of the river, trailing his fingers through the clear water. "Hoto-kun would love it here…" he thought, smiling, "If only I could get him out of the palace for once… what a workaholic."
In the rain
The pavement shines like silver.
All the lights
Are misty in the river.
In the darkness
The trees are full of starlight.
And all I see is him and me
Forever and forever.
His warm smile faded, slightly as the realization of his true situation hit him. He laughed, bitterly and looked at himself in the river, "Who're you kidding? You know you don't really matter. You're losing your mind, you know. He isn't really there. And you know those hands on your arms? Those are YOURS! Stop it, ya crazy nutcase!"
His eyes softened, sadly, and he whispered, "But… it could work… me and him. It could work. There's always a way…"
And I know it's only in my mind.
That I'm talking to myself and not to him.
And all though I know that he is blind
Still I say, "There's a way for us."
Nuriko stared up at the sky, feeling the tears start to gather in the corner of his eyes. He loved Hotohori… he knew that now. It wasn't some silly crush. It wasn't because he was the Emperor. Sure, it had started out as that. He was the top, the best. And Korin had to look out for Korin. Nuriko wanted the best and that's what Hotohori was. He was a new challenge. I mean, sure, he'd gotten himself into the harem, hadn't he? If he could do that, there was nothing he couldn't do! Nuriko laughed, wistfully, "Right Nuri… nothing you can't do… but you can't go a day without thinking about him… can you? You love him but you can't make him love you back, can you?"
There were always those moments. The moments when he knew that Hotohori didn't care. And the moments, when he thought that no one would miss him when he was gone. Hotohori had Miaka… Silly Miaka. How does she do it? She gets all the guys without even realizing it…
I love him but when the night is over
He is gone the river's just a river.
Without him the world around me changes.
The trees are bare and everywhere
The streets are full of strangers.
I love him but everyday I'm learnin.
All my life, I've only been pretending.
Without me, his world will go on turning.
The world is full of happiness that I have never known.
Nuriko stood, and turned back towards the palace, glancing at the lonely moon, smiling. "Now I know how you must feel…" he thought, sadly, "What a sad existence."
I love him…
I love him…
I love him but,
Only…On my own…
~FIN~