Author's note: I am starting another Harry/Snape mentor story. Hope you guys like it.
Chapter 1: Dead end
It seems that I've been sleeping for a thousand years; buried underneath numerous shells and dark layers of despair. I scream for I remember the memory clear.
Flashback: Harry's POV
My first year at Hogwarts was more than a memorable one. Against my own will I had said my good-byes and went with uncle Vernon. I didn't make a sound as he had driven me back to that hell. I had repeatedly told myself that I would be back at Hogwarts soon….but even to me the word soon looked too far away. Unshed tears were begging for release but by now I had learned how to hide my emotions well. It was a skill quite needed when the Dursleys punished me.
Engrossed in my own thoughts I didn't realized that our destination came much quicker than I had expected. Taking a deep breath I had gotten out of the car. Immediately I knew something was off. The house looked ominous, too dark and shadowed; the light in the kitchen flickered and for a throbbing flashing moment I spotted blood on the window.
Before I could reach for my wand, uncle Vernon seized me by the neck and dragged me inside. As the door to the house opened my eyes had widened in shock and horror. A duplicate uncle Vernon was lying on the floor, tied up and bloodied. In panic my eyes had swept the room, finding Dudley cowering in a corner with Aunt Petunia; the fear in their eyes was unmistakable.
THUMP!
My head started spinning as something had come crashing down on my head. I landed on the floor harshly and I heard a crack; I clenched my teeth as I felt a sharp pain go through my left arm. Looking up I saw a dark haired wizard occupying the spot the first uncle Vernon occupied moments ago.
The wizard looked at me and smiled as he bent down and grabbed a fistful of my hair. I heard a shriek from somewhere behind but I was too dizzy and groggy to comprehend anything at that moment.
He looked at me and our eyes met for a brief second. It was as if I was looking at a monster in disguise, his eyes held a sense of violence and an unbelievable destruction for his cause.
"Who are you?" I asked chocking on my own words.
"Barty Crouch jr," he answered as he traced a pattern on my arm with a rather sharp pointed knife.
Knowing I shouldn't have but blaming my Gryffindor impulse I asked another question.
"What do you want?"
"YOU" He bellowed as he raised his knife into the air and plunged it into my shoulder. I felt it ripping my skin, tearing it as it went into my flesh and out again. The warm blood started oozing down my neck and shirt, staining it.
"Cat got you tongue," he said mockingly.
On pure instincts I kicked him in the chest; he let me fall to the ground as he clutched his injured chest. I had made a run for my wand which was still in the car's trunk. It was obviously a bad idea; half staggering without any sense of true direction I didn't make it too far.
"You filthy half-blood!" He grabbed me by the collars and roughly pushed me against the wall.
I glared at him, the pain in my shoulder forgotten.
He pulled his wand out, pointing it directly to my scar. I waited patiently for I knew this was going to have a painful ending for me.
"CRUCIO" He shouted and I felt my body go limp, a burning sensation entered me and I panicked.
It wasn't the physical pain I couldn't endure but rather what this spell was doing to my mind. It was causing my barriers to fall, my occlumency shields to collapse. I saw the glint in his eye and I desperately tried to keep all my shields up and running, but failed miserably.
I gulped, never had I felt so helpless before, even with the Dursleys I could have, even with most of my strength, put up a rather decent fight but it was useless fighting with this…this maniac.
He forced my mouth open as I desperately tried to keep it shut. A potion made its way down my throat as I tried helplessly to prevent it. But with a blow literally to my head and a crucio spell made my attempts seem more pathetic than possible.
Still dizzy I felt my body go limp and completely numb. I felt almost all my barriers collapse as I tried to speak. The shocking thing was I couldn't, despite how much I tried. I tried to raise my good arm but it too, failed to obey my command. I was scared; the feeling was consuming me completely. I couldn't move any part of my body, the potion had taken its affect; it was all over.
"Stand up," he commanded me. Instantly my body obeyed him and I against my will stood up.
He handed me the sharp knife and told me "put it in your left shoulder." I watched as my own hands had twisted and plunged the knife back into my own shoulder.
He smiled, wickedly and I felt cold. I felt all my courage leave my body, instead fear and helplessness replace it. I felt like a coward without my wand; all negative thoughts were rushing through my mind.
THIS PERSON WAS CONTROLLING ME!
All my breaths felt ragged, short, and my life somehow borrowed. I wanted to scream, wanted to kick, for all I know, I had never wanted to end up obeying an enemy.
My life flashed before my eyes as he took me by the arm and dragged me across the room. I watched as he grabbed uncle Vernon's liquor bottle and slowly came closer to me. I know I had the same neutral expression on my face as I did when I plunged the knife into my own shoulder. I wanted to close my eyes as I watched the glass bottle came smashing at my chest causing glass pieces to pierce my already bloodied flesh. I felt myself getting light-headed from the blood loss. This was not good at all.
I tried, I had really tried to keep my eyes open but they wouldn't obey, they closed and my knees collapsed underneath me. I fell to the floor on my front, my arm stinging slightly through the shell of numbness. The last images of my life came flashing across my eyes, one by one. I watched as I had said my good-byes to Hermione and Ron, watched as I had left Hogwarts, looking at those gates which I will never cross again.
Author's note: More chapters will be coming. Updates will be a bit late and I apologize for that. Snape will make an entrance in chapter 3 or so. Hope you guys liked it and PLZ REVIEW. ;)