Old friend why are you so shy
Ain't like you to hold back
Or hide from the light
The last time he tried to talk to her, she was still mad and didn't want to see him. It was right after he said... the word. Since this day while they were still students at Hogwarts, he never heard of her again. By now, he knew what he did back then might be so far be the greatest mistake of his life. He understood that what he had said was unforgivable, still it broke his heart and he didn't want her to be angry at him. But after all, probably wasn't angry anymore. Probably she had already forgotten him, while he would never be able to forget her. His childhood best friend, the love of his life.
He thought of this moment when he tried to tell her how sorry he was that night in front of the gryffindor common room, while he was now on the way to her wedding.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but
I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over
Lily Evans and her parents reached the church of Godric's Hollow, where James Potter would wait for her. She was perfectly happy, and nothing could ruin this day... except for the person she saw standing hidden in the shadows next to the building. For a second, their eyes met. She even smiled a little, even though it hurt to see him again after so many years. But she wasn't angry anymore, it just made her sad. She closed her eyes, exhaled, opened the door and left her past behind.
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you two
Don't forget me I beg I'll remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead, yeah
He watched her through the window as she walked down the aisle. Her beauty almost made him cry. He took a look at the guests, searching for another familiar face. Lily's sister Petunia. She wasn't there, which made Severus quite angry. He never liked Petunia. When they were children, she treated Lily very badly, not like a sister should. But luckily, Lily had him... It just didn't seem as if these summer days by the river happened more than a decade ago.
You know how the time flies
Only yesterday was the time of our lives
We were born and raised In a summer haze
Bound by the surprise of our glory days
Her dress was gorgeous, just good enough for the woman inside. Green emerald earrings sparkled through the silky wisps of her red hair. The green colour reminded him of their days at Hogwarts. In their first year, he knew he would ask her to go to the Yule Ball with him. He was sure he would ask her. But as the time came closer, she already stopped talking to him a few weeks ago. He told Narcissa Black about his problems, because he knew she would understand. Narcissa already had a date with Lucius Malfoy for the Yule Ball, but her younger sister Bellatrix was free. Severus considered Bellatrix a little too... radical, even insane, and sometimes he was even afraid of her, but without a doubt she was an attractive young witch, and that should be enough to serve his purpose. So, when the evening arrived, he stood in front of the great hall and waited for his lady, as Lily levitated down the stairs from the Gryffindor common room in a tight dark green silk dress. She smiled, sweet and kind just like he knew it, and like he hadn't seen her in weeks. He was all smiles, since he believed she was looking at him.
I hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but
I couldn't stay away I couldn't fight it
I had hoped you'd see my face
And that you'd be reminded that for me it isn't over
„Get out of my way, Snivellus, you surely have no lady to wait for anyway!", Potter shouted right behind him, pushed him aside to walk towards Lily. Potter, of course. That explains everything.
Nevermind I find someone like you I
wish nothing but the best for you two
Don't forget me I beg I'll remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead
Now, Potter was waiting for Lily again, and Severus could only stand there and watch. It broke his heart to see them in there. Some muggle clergyman said a few words Severus couldn't hear outside, then Sirius handed them the rings. Lily turned to look outside for a second. Severus smiled at her, and somehow she knew he was still glad to see her happy.
Nothing compares
No worries or cares
Regrets and mistakes they're memories made
Who would have known how bitter-sweet this would taste
As she turned back to James again, Severus left so the guests would not see him when they came out of the building.
Never mind I'll find someone like you
I wish nothing but the best for you
Don't forget me I beg I'll remember you said
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead