WARNING: Religion bashing, human bashing, Shizuo bashing, slight cussing, and very slight yaoi/BL/shounen ai if you squint, and over all Izaya being a Troll.
DISCLAIMER: I do not own Durarara or any of it's characters.
NOTE: This is all in Izaya POV
I said I loved humans, I've said it time and time again, but lately I've come to the conclusion that this fact was invalid. I love to see their faces twist in despair, to see them realize how ugly and pathetic they truly are, yes this fact was true, but I don't love them. I could care less if they they decided to kill themselves or kill the ones around them. I realised that I don't really love humans, but in fact, I hate them. I hate the way they are selfish, that they think they are any above everyone else. I hate the way they would play right into my hands, like a little puppet on strings without even realising it themselves. I hate the way they are weak, physical, mentally, emotionally. They are weak and pathetic creatures. This is one of the reasons I didn't believe in "God". They say that God created humans in his image, now, turn on the News and see how many people were murdered, how many people were raped, how many people were stolen from and look me dead in the eye and say this is God's work. Can't do it? Neither can I.
I don't believe in Heaven nor do I believe in Hell. When you die you just rot in the ground to be eaten by worms, maggots and decay. There is no "after life", you have no soul. You have a mind, a personality, but no soul. There is no proof of such a thing even existing. To put in bluntly, it's bullshit. I guess that's one of the reasons why I'm afraid to die, but then again, who isn't a least a little afraid? I don't want my game to end, how ever boring it may be, and even though I despise admitting it, I am human. I feel fear and emotions just like everyone else, I am no different from the pitiful creatures I hate. Kind of hypocritical, isn't it? I hate humans, yet I myself am human. Ha, it's so illogical, almost one specific human I know.
Shizuo Heiwajima. He is the one exception to our race. Irrational and illogical in every term they could ever hope to be used, yet he's so simple. You piss him off, he doesn't care if you're in the yakuza, you're getting a vending machine to the face. You insult him, vending machine. You insult one of his few friends, vending machine. You insult his brother, two vending machines. To put it bluntly, he's an overly simple and overly violent protozoan with vending for brains. But I must admit, he keeps things interesting, like an unforeseen number or veritable. A challenge in this world of easy questions and answers. I wonder, I now say I hate humans, but does this mean I now love Shizu-Chan? He's everything humans are not; no ulterior motives nor false emotions. Plain and simple. I pride myself in being an informant, but I can't tell you the answer if I love or hate him, because I'm not a "God" nor a "Devil"; I'm only human.
THE END
Man, this did NOT turn out how I planned! I was at first going to write something about Izaya having philophobia(the fear to love or to be loved) but as you can see it didn't turn out like Oh, well~! I like it anyway!:D Please reveiw~!