That Kind of Love
Chapter One- Bare & Naked
It had been a night they would never forget, a night in which every moment they spent together felt like it was right, like it was where they were supposed to be at this moment in time. For months she found it easy to deny her feelings for Sam, but she knew the feelings she had whenever he was a mere inch away from her, it was the feelings that women spoke of in the movies just as they were about to fall in love or think they were all ready head first in the pool of love. Each kiss, whether passionate or gentle, she felt his heart telling her body that he loved every part of her and at some points she felt a peace knowing she didn't have to try so hard when she was with him but a part of her was scared knowing that she was taking such a huge gamble with him. Their bodies were dripping in sweat as they lay wrapped up in sheets in his bed, they both did their best to regain a normal breathing pattern but found it hard to do so after what felt like hours worth of sex that seemed to make up for all the times they even thought about having sex with each other or fantasized about it. With a moment of silence that fell between the two she quickly looked over at him to find his eyes looking back at her, searching for what felt like reasoning behind this more that pleasurable hookup between them before they broke into a fit of laughter. This was new for her but laughter seemed to be perfect for this moment that would usually have been that awkward moment for couples after they do the deed with each other, which she herself has experienced too many times in her lifetime to count.
"Are we finished?" Sam asked as he sat up in the bed
"With having sex or with laughing?" Addison turned to ask him with a slight smile on her face
"Uh….with laughing, I'm still debating on the first option" Sam laughed
"Sorry…sorry, I just got the urge to…" Addison tried to explain before Sam spoke up
"To laugh…believe me, I know where your coming from" Sam replied
"Do you? I mean do you really understand this, us?" Addison asked him seriously
"I like to think I do" Sam said "Look last night was crazy for the both of us with me almost losing my daughter and my grandchild all in one night, then losing…" he said before Addison cut him off to complete his words
"Dell" Addison replied sadly "Do you think we're wrong? I mean in the face of all this tragedy how can we have sex at a time like this" she tried to reason their actions
"I'm not going to sit and pretend that last night never happened. What happened to Dell or between us, but in spite of everything that has happened I think that for once in these past few months we finally made a step rather than analyzing a step we both wanted to make" Sam stated
"How can you be so sure of everything?" Addison smiled at him "I mean your just sure about things regardless of repercussions we both may face for any person that could walk in on us here laying naked in your bed" she said
"Which reminds me, is Amelia at your house or mine? I swear sometimes I forget that she's Derek's sister and not mine" Sam laughed as he played like he was looking for her outside the window from the bed before Addison playfully hit him on his bare chest
"Stop, I'm being serious" Addison laughed
"I'm being serious, this is all Amelia needs, to see me naked" Sam laughed "I think she has a small crush on me, but can you blame her" he joked
"Because your cake? double chocolate, was it?" Addison laughed hysterically at his analogy he gave her once before
"Absolutely, I'm double chocolate cake with the…" Sam said as she chimed in along with him
"Raspberry soufflés" They both declared
"Look last night proved to me that we don't have all the time in the world to go back and fix the moment where we weren't at our finest, we have to do the things that make us happy and stop living like we have forever to make it right. Right now I want to enjoy being, dare I say, a grandfather and father to a young woman, then celebrate the life of someone who I truly will miss, and I hope that along with my new found things to be grateful about it will include you" Sam said leaving her mesmerized as only his words had managed to do. He spoke so eloquently to the point where with every word he spoke made her want to kiss him and she had done just that before she leaned into kiss him
"Grandpa Sam" Addison said after breaking the kiss as she couldn't contain her laughter
"Uh, stop. That makes me sound so old" Sam groaned
"Grandpa Sam, that has a good ring to it" Addison laughed falling out of bed continuing to laugh
"That's what you get" Sam laughed "Grandpa Sam" he said to himself trying to get use to it
She had a smile painted on her face that she couldn't managed to wipe off even if she tried to from her night with Sam. After what felt like hours of talking and being wrapped up in the sheets of his bed, they both couldn't ignore the fact that they had to go into the practice. Kissing each other every step they took away from the bed of their passionate encounter, Addison had finally made it back to her house to get dressed and ready for work in her usually sexually appealing attire. Making her way downstairs she was happy to see Sam rushing over towards her house nearly trying to jump over her fence in his suit and tie just to come see her, meeting him halfway, she opened up the door only to be swept into an immediate passionate kiss. Nearly having yet another sexual encounter in her living room, she had to literally force him and herself to remain focus on the task at hand, which was to get to work. As much as she was happy to make a step towards being happy she couldn't help but feel the sorrow she felt knowing that when she stepped off the elevator she wouldn't see Dell anymore. Sam was more than happy to finally be able to have a chance with Addison, but deep down she knew him well enough to know that he wasn't looking forward to entering a workplace that had become a dysfunctional family, but none the less a family, to find a member gone. Amelia was the first to notice the pair show up together awkwardly looking more couple like than she had last seen them as they stepped off the elevator and made their way to their offices. Wasting no time on her suspicions, she made her way over to Addison's office knowing Sam wouldn't divulge any personal secrets until he had his share of red wine in his system to get him talking and even then she wasn't' sure she was ready to hear the useless information he found scandalous but was beyond PG to her. Catching the red head off guard with her sudden entrance and immediate closing of the door, Amelia quickly flopped down on the sofa allowing a moment to pass of them both looking strangely at each other before Amelia's face literally widened with the biggest of smiles.
"You slept with Sam!" Amelia declared before Addison quickly jumped up from her chair to check and see if Naomi had made her way up
"Keep your voice down" Addison said trying to quiet her down
"How was it?" Amelia asked
"Amelia? I'm not going to tell you about my sex life" Addison replied
"This from the woman I walked in on having sex with Mark Sloan, I know what your capable of, I'm asking about Mr. Conservative?" Amelia asked
"Sam is hardly conservative" Addison said making her way back to her desk only causing Amelia's questioning fire to fuel "I knew as soon I said it that it wouldn't come out right" she soon added grabbing a seat in her chair
"I always knew it" Amelia laughed "So was it as anticipated?" she asked
"Are you being serious?" Addison asked her
"Yes, Addie, I am" Amelia replied
"I will not disclose information about my personal life" Addison said
"Fine, be a prude" Amelia laughed just as Naomi opened the door to find the two women engaged in laughter over a conversation she clearly interrupted. Things were weird between Addison and Naomi, but it was good to know that Naomi was making an effort to repair them, which is what they always did whenever one was upset with the other, they always repaired the damaged and moved forward
"Am I interrupting anything?" Naomi asked
"No, just my annoying living habits" Amelia smiled "I'm going to go down to the hospital to look over our patient, I'll see you later" she said as she got up to leave
"You don't have to leave on my account" Naomi said to Amelia not wanting to seem like she needed to have Addison all to herself
"No, I'm busy or should get busy" Amelia said before she closed the door behind her
"I feel like I interrupted a moment or something" Naomi said nervously
"You didn't, Nae. What's up?" Addison asked her friend in her cheerful town
"You sound good" Naomi observed in her friends tone
"I'm doing better under the circumstances. I mean Dell wouldn't want us to be sad, he would want us to learn and celebrate him" Addison smiled at the memory of him
"My heart goes out towards Betsy, I couldn't imagine what she's going through" Naomi said
"Pete said that she had an Aunt, any word on how she is?" Addison asked
"I've never met her but she's suppose to be coming into town tomorrow night to get her" Naomi said
"After the service?" Addison asked
"Yes. Listen, before I forget, I wanted to thank you for saving my baby, actually Maya's baby" Naomi babbled "After everything that we've been through, I know I can count on you and you came through in a big way last night" she smiled weakly
"You're my best friend, and regardless of what happens with us, I'll always be there for you" Addison told her
"Same here" Naomi smiled "I want us to get back to us again. I want us to have our afternoon girl talks with chocolates and forget about the drama. I mean you didn't sleep with Sam because you knew what that would do to us, and I don't know why I didn't understand that, but last night I realized that we can't waste time being angry over things" she said leaving Addison in a bit of pickle to tell Naomi about the newest development in the saga that was her personal life
"Yeah, lets get back to us" Addison smiled weakly "I would love that very much" she agreed
It was on constant replay as to why she didn't tell Naomi the truth about Sam and her, each time she played the moment over and over she saw herself growing braver and braver to tell her friend that she had slept with her ex-husband, but the reality of the situation was that she didn't and now Naomi was walking around thinking they were anew again. Making her way inside the kitchen to grab another cup of coffee and her salad that she had leftover, all she wanted to do was escape the office and get a nice bottle of red wine to sip on to evaluate her life with. Mixing her perfect cup of coffee, Addison was quickly joined by Sam, who seemed to be in his usual casual upbeat mood as he too came for a cup of coffee, and dabbled with the thought of asking Addison for some of her salad or to go out and buy a meal for himself. For a moment she didn't want to make eye contact with afraid that she would have to divulge the fact that Naomi still thought of her as her loyal friend, who wouldn't sleep with her ex, but a slight smile came to her face at the sound of him humming songs that they heard on the drive into work this morning. Sam had this relaxation and coolness about him that she envied, he never seemed to over think the moment but just live in it, whether that meant to hum along to a song that he heard early this morning or not to analyze every step he made to the point where it prevented him from living his life.
"This salad looks really good" Sam said making his way over towards the red head
"You want my salad?" Addison asked him turning to look at him
"Oh, I want more than just your salad, but I'll settle for some of your salad" Sam smiled
"We have a problem, you see, I want my salad as well" Addison said as she looked on at the small container that contained her Roman salad that they were both eyeing
"What about you let me have some of your salad, and I'll repay you tonight over dinner" Sam suggested
"Okay, I'll settle for a well cooked meal" Addison said allowing herself to be bribed with a meal
"How is your day going so far?" Sam said as he began to pick at her salad with his fork while she sipped on her coffee
"As well as to be expected. I'm almost going to see the last of Emily Morrison, the patient from hell, after this baby is born that is the last I will see of her" Addison stated as Sam laughed at her excitement
"Amelia told me Naomi came by to see you today, how was that?" Sam asked
"It was good" Addison replied
"Really? See she handled it better than you thought, all we had to do was be honest and she'd come around" Sam smiled as he kissed her on the cheek
"Yeah, she came around to the fact that we didn't sleep together, but that was last night" Addison said before she quickly saw a disappointed look creep onto Sam's face
"So she thinks we're still estranged?" Sam asked
"No, she just thinks we're friends, who haven't slept together" Addison replied
"Which is a lie" Sam quickly replied
"Look I will tell her, I just need time. Everything is happening so fast, and we have the funeral to go to tomorrow, then we have Maya's joy to think about. The last thing we need to be is at odds on something, when we should all be united" Addison reasoned
"I'm glad you worked that out in your head, but this is only a gateway for you not to tell her, which will lead to us having to sneak around and I don't want that, not from us" Sam said
"Sam?" Addison said
"No, its okay. Just do what you feel is right, I'll deal with whatever choice you make" Sam replied before he kissed her on the cheek before he quickly left the kitchen
"You didn't even finish the salad!" Addison declared
Throwing down his keys as he made his way inside the house, Sam flipped the stack of mail that had seemed to accumulate over the past two days, of course he had been home last night but it really didn't count considering all he did was sleep and then his nocturnal activities with Addison. There hadn't seemed to be a minute that didn't pass where he didn't think about her in the day or even night, he would be sitting at his desk doing paperwork and then out of nowhere he's thinking about her, he would be making a cup of coffee and then he'd start wondering if she had her cup all ready, just any little thing caused him to think of her. So much of him wanted to just scream to the world that he had finally found someone that he gave a damn about since Naomi, someone who he at least wanted something with. It drove him crazy tip toeing around Naomi, who had clearly moved on from him and now had two guys in love with her, and now that he had someone he loved, it was all of sudden wrong. Irritated with his lack of progression in his romance department and now the amount of bills he had to pay, Sam made his way to the kitchen to grab a beer just as Amelia came in from sitting out on the beach with her lap top in hand. He didn't think much of her coming in with a huge grin from ear to ear because Amelia was always badgering him about something, it was like having a built in little sister living with him when he thought about it.
"How is Maya doing?" Amelia asked
"Her and the baby are doing good. They're actually coming tomorrow to the funeral, she wants to pay respect to Dell. She damn near fought Addison tooth and nail on letting her go" Sam laughed
"Stubborn just like Naomi" Amelia smiled "Is everything set up for the funeral?" she then asked
"Yeah, I just swung by the funeral home for the final preparations. We're going to have it out by the peir, Dell loved surfing, so having his service there only seemed fitting. How are you doing?" Sam asked
"You mean since he died on my table?" Amelia asked sadly
"No, I didn't mean it like that" Sam quickly replied "I know you did all you could" he added
"I'm doing fine. I've actually heard news that has brightened me up a bit in the face of things" Amelia said
"And what news has brought on that effect?" Sam asked Amelia
"I'm just happy for you my friend" Amelia smiled as she grabbed a seat at the counter
"For what?" Sam asked her
"C'mon, don't make me have to say it" Amelia laughed "About bedding Addie, about finally stopping the brooding and depressed Sam that was forming and finally grabbing the bull by the horns" she said excitedly
"Calm down, its not that serious" Sam laughed
"Sam?" Amelia looked at him not buying his lack of excitement
"Naomi is still very much a factor, Addison hasn't told her about us sleeping together" Sam said as he finished up his beer
"So then you tell her, take the lead and tell Naomi" Amelia said
"Yeah, can't do that" Sam said running that conversation through his head until he came to the conclusion that he shouldn't "Regardless of how frustrating it is that Naomi is controlling my life, Addison is her best friend, and if I in any way damage that, it would severely effect my relationship with Addison" he explained
"You guys think too much here, you care too much about hurting people's feelings" Amelia stated
"Yeah, its called be considerate of other people" Sam replied
"No, its called denying yourself the happiness that you deserve" Amelia declared
"Aren't we the optimist, are we back on drugs again?" Sam laughed
"Future reference, not funny, but yes, I'm optimistic for the people I care about" Amelia said "Just stop letting people or things get in the way of what you want, you'll regret it if you do" she said
"Okay, well I consider your advice, and I appreciate your advice" Sam said as he made his way over towards her to try and pull her into a hug before she quickly got up to dodge his advances
"Sam, no!" Amelia squealed as she ran around the living room with him following behind with open arms
"I appreciate you!" Sam declared as he chased behind her unable to control his laughter
"Stop!" Amelia laughed hysterically as she ran out the house towards the beach
It had been a slow and steady day at the office, but pretty much a typical day at the practice and at the hospital for Addison. Throughout the day she would see the budding relationship between Pete and Violet as their behaviors were showing that they were only days away from tearing each others close off, she was happy for them, they deserved to be happy, now if only she would do the same for herself. She played over and over again in her head whether she should just be upfront about her feelings to Naomi or just conceal her personal life because technically Naomi didn't need to know every detail of her life was all she could think, but deep down she knew that Naomi meant much more to her to just act like she was just her typical friend, they were family in more ways than she could imagine. All this thinking had worn her down to the point where she felt her body tense up with every thought she had on the subject, throwing her keys down on the entry table, Addison quickly took a hot shower and slipped into some comfortable clothing before grabbing a bottle of red wine on her way over to Sam's house. She could quickly spot Amelia and Sam sitting out on the patio talking and laughing about something as she made her way over towards them.
"Addie! Addie and Sam, Sam and Addie….this is a sight to see" Amelia smiled
"Always a pleasure to have you here" Sam said sarcastically
"Oh, you love me. I'll leave you two to do whatever you do, I have a date" Amelia said getting up from her seat
"With anyone we know?" Addison asked
"No, no one you know" Amelia smiled "Goodnight" she said leaving the two to themselves
"Are you mad?" Addison asked placing the bottle of wine down in front of Sam as some sort of peace offering
"No, I'm not mad" Sam replied
"Really? So we're good" Addison replied
"Yeah, we're good" Sam said taking the bottle of wine into the house as Addison followed behind him waiting for the interjection to come about how he really felt about the matter at hand
"Sam? Its okay, you can tell me how you really feel" Addison said as he put the wine on his wine rack
"You want to know how I feel?" Sam asked turned to ask her
"Yes, I do" Addison replied before he quickly pulled her into a deep and passionate kiss that seemed to make her knees go weak.
Hours later, after many sexual explosions in the kitchen, Addison found her self gasping for air as Sam scurried around the kitchen gathering all the necessary condiments they'd need for their dinner he had prepared for them to eat on the floor. Laughing at the sight of Sam in his boxers running around the kitchen like a crazy person, Addison couldn't contain her joy that she had felt from just being with him, it was like being with her best friend with him. Wrapping the blanket around her naked body, Addison quickly grabbed the fork that Sam had handed her before she began to pick away at her meal.
"I forget how good you are at cooking, that's always a bonus with you" Addison smiled as she ate
"My cooking?" Sam looked at her knowing that wasn't what she enjoyed most about him
"That and your obvious bedroom skills" Addison laughed
"Thank you, I aim to please" Sam laughed
"I'm sorry…I'm sorry if I hurt your feelings today…" Addison said before he cut her off
"I know what she means to you, I know what Naomi means to you because once upon a time she meant the same to me" Sam said "You love her, and I'm not going to force the issue anymore" he told her
"You won't?" Addison asked
"All I want is you, I just want you. So if I have to wait until you feel comfortable enough to tell her, then I'll wait because your worth that" Sam said
"I am?" Addison asked in disbelief that someone felt that way about her
"Yeah, I strongly believe that" Sam said leaning over to kiss her on the forehead "And I hate the person, whoever made you believe that you weren't" he whispered to her
"I really like your cooking" Addison cried making him laugh at how girly she could be at times before he leaned into give her two quick kisses as they finished up the rest of their meals
Looking out onto the ocean, they all stood watching the raft that carried their beloved friend and family member sail away into the sunset, gripping on tight to each other to survive the moments of sadness that crept upon them. It was moment like this that made them realize the important things in life, and that it shouldn't take a death to make you realize all that is right, won't necessarily make you happy. Each took turns tending to Betsy as the realization of the only father she's ever known had sailed away along with his ashes, but to their surprise she had managed it better than they had anticipated. After the funeral, everyone had gathered back at Sam's house for food and drinks, which brought about some teary moments of Dell. Catching her by her lonesome, Addison quickly made her way over to Naomi as if she were trying to mentally prepare herself for what she was about to do.
"Nae, can we talk?" Addison asked her friend
"Yeah, sure" Naomi replied
"I don't know how to tell you this, but I just want to tell you this because I want to be honest with you" Addison babbled
"About what? Sam?" Naomi asked
"Yes" Addison replied letting a moment of silence come between them before she spoke again "We recently….we slept together. Sam and I are together now" she said stated nervously as her friend stood motionless as to what she just heard