Prologue: during Shadow Kiss, Rose and Dimitri just slept together. No strogoi attack, the next morning rose goes to see Dimitri in the gym for practice as usual…or not.

BAM! I throw the screeching alarm clock across the room. Opps, there goes another alarm clock. Well that did wake me up.

I slowly crawl out of bed to get ready for training, "oww dammit why am I so sore!" Then it all came back, Dimitri, the cabin, and losing my virginity…

I jump off my bed rushing to get ready for training, soreness or not. I throw on my usual workout clothes and practically run to the gym, the sooner I see Dimitri, the better!

I get to the gym and surprisingly find it empty. I check my watch, I'm late not early, but where is Dimitri? I go into ninja mode, thinking Dimitri is doing some weird training exercisewhere he jumps out and attacks me so I "don't let my guard down" or whatever. But no, it's empty.

I sit down on a mat and wait, or sleep after I get bored. I wake up to Dimitri's face. I could get used to waking up to him. "Comrade I was having a nice nap, I deserve it and you tired me out yesterday." I said with a smile and a wink. Then I notice that he is definitely not smiling. He has his guardian mask on even after my reference to our amazing night.

"Dimitri? What's wrong? Are you going to tell me that last night was a mistake, that it never should have happened? Cause that's bull and I'm not gonna believe it this time!" I say hotly. "But that's the truth." He says quietly, seriously. Even though I was expecting this on some level it still cuts me deep.

"What? No you're lying! I know you love me, you just feel like we should have waited until I was legal at least."

"No, Rose. That's not it. Last night I truly believed that I loved you, but then after I realized that I don't. And I feel guilty that I had sex with you when I don't love you."

"But you said…" I say shocked, "Why am I not good enough for you?"

"It's not you Rose, it's me." He says. "OHMYGOD! Did you REALLY just say that!" I scream this time. "Like are you kidding me? That is so cliché! If you are breaking up with me at least be original!" I'm just trying to get a response now, get emotion instead of that mask, but nothing. He is just standing there looking at me, guardian mask solidly in place.

"Rose, stop. We're over. Simple as that, there is nothing else to say. I'm sorry but I can't be with you if I don't love you."

I just stare at him shocked, trying as hard as I can to hold back tears. I don't want him to see me cry. I see a flash of emotion in his eyes but it's gone before I can figure out what it is. Hurt? Pity? Love? Disgust? I have no idea and can barely think with the pain in my heart, in my brain. He's really breaking up with me.

"No Dimitri! Please I love you!"

"I'm sorry Rose but I don't." he says emotionless "And there's more, I've decided to take Tasha's offer to become her guardian. I'm leaving the academy."

"You son of a bitch! You told me again and again that you loved me and now you're leaving after I slept with you? I was just an easy fuck to you! And now you're gonna go try and get in her pants too! How could you Dimitri?" I'm screaming with tears of pain and anger that I tried to hold back streaming down my face.

"I'm sorry Rose. But this is goodbye. You will be a great guardian someday and I hope by then we can be friends. I'm trying to do what's best for you by leaving so you can get over me and focus on you training." With these heartbreaking words, he turns to leave.

The gym doors slam shut and I crumple to the floor. So this is what heartbreak feels like. Actual physical pain. I wish he had just hit me or something. I can't move I don't want to, I just lay there and cry and cry in complete agony.

AN: wow that was really depressing to write! I hope you like it, and don't worry this is not just a Dimitri leaves Rose for Tasha story. It will get better, I promise! Read and Review please -foreverloveee3