Chapter 1. A love story

Engaged. How was I ever going to explain this to Charlie or Renee. Oh god he's going to kick me out of the house. I'll be homeless. What was I going to do. How to say it, ummmm Hey Dad I've got something to tell you…I'm engaged!. No how bout Hey Dad….. oh this its ummm a ring, an engagement ring actually. Yeah. No, no, no. What was I thinking he would rip it off my finger or worse rip off my finger. How on earth do you tell your father your going to marry a vampire. A wonderful, sweet, beautiful, perfect vampire.

"Why are you starring at me like that?" Edward asked. Oh god was I starring at him, oh no. "Ummm, I was listing all of your wonderfully perfect features in my head," oh no he was going to be mad he hated how I looked at him he thought I shouldn't be so trusting in him but even after he left me and ripped out that small part of me that will never heal, I still trust my whole being in him, what other choice did I have I could not live with out him so I just had to hope that he felt even half of the love that my entire being felt for him.

"Well I could list all of the things that are perfect about you, but we'd be here for weeks," he replied. I grimaced, I had forgotten, he did love me, and he thought I was perfect, me plain old Bella Swan, perfect.

"Bella you honestly don't see yourself very well, your perfect just the way you are and I wouldn't change anything about you." That had had two meanings and I was not about to have this fight now I needed to concentrate on Charlie.

"Edward -I loved the sound of his name- we have discussed this before, if we are ever going to live happily together we needed to be equal and that means…"

"I know that's what you believe Bella but right now I could not be happier, you have finally agreed to marry me and I'm the happiest man in the world, and beside you said your self you want to LIVE happily with me and what you want isn't living."

The tears began to fall. I couldn't stop, it wasn't that I didn't want to marry Edward, anything that meant Edward would be mine and mine alone I wanted, it just the whole process of the wedding and he still didn't want to change me, I knew it was because he wanted me alive and thought that me being a vampire wasn't living, but for me it was the only way I could spend forever with Edward as his equal, deep down I wondered if it was because he didn't want to be stuck with me forever. This bought on another round of tears. Edward had pulled the car over and was holding me in his arms before I had even realised we were slowing down.

"Bella. My Bella. Why are you crying," he said in his heavenly voice, the scent of his breathe filling my lungs and making my stomach ache. I stayed quite lost in a train of thought.

"Please talk to me my love tell me your thoughts the silence is driving me mad." Now I'd done it I'd upset him I could see it in his eyes. He smiled encouraging me to talk but the smile still didn't reach his eyes.

"I was thinking about how I was going to tell Charlie that I'm… I'm" the tears started again now with a new fuel, Edwards eyes had turned a cold, coal grey, he was sad. "No its not you," I sobbed.

"Just the thought of getting married to me, Bella I should never have forced you into this, you can wait as long as you want and Alice will just have to be happy with doing your hair because this is clearly upsetting you and I never want the tears falling from your face to be because your dreading being tied to me in holly matrimony." He looked like someone had just kicked him.

"Edward it has nothing to do with the thought of being with you, I want you now and forever, I love you with my whole being and I never want to lose you," he interrupted.

"and you never will Bella I'm here for you always until you no longer want me in which case I will still love you with my whole but I will abide by your wishes" his eyes now sincere.

"Edward that is not going to happen I would never leave you or want you to leave me." I said tears still running down my face.

"Then what my love has gotten you so upset?" he said his eyes returning to their usual topaz colour dazzling me as they always do.

"Charlie hates you and Renee will never forgive me for marrying young just like she did, she says it was the biggest mistake of her life its different with us we can't live without each other despite what you may believe we're soul mates, one of a kind, we're meant to be." He looked at me for a few moments, contemplating what I had said and what it meant. Suddenly he began to kiss me, passionately, I kissed him back with a little too much enthusiasm and he pulled away abruptly.

"Sorry, its just you haven't kissed me like that in so long." I said still short of breathe.

"Bella I kissed you like that 11 hours ago when you finally agreed to marry me. Which we are going to do when your ready and how you want to do it. No matter what other people think or say we will do it because we love each other and for no other reason." He was now kissing me again.

"Edward Cullen," I said fierceness in my voice. He immediately stopped kissing me.

"What did I hurt you?" he was worried.

"No," I replied hoping he wasn't mad.

"Then what is wrong?" he was worried now.

"I just wanted to say something before I lost my train of thought."

"You really should stop seeing me like that, its silly."

"That's beside the point I wanted to say… I…." great now I was nervous.

"Yes…"

"Love…. You"

"……"

"I love you Edward Cullen. And I do want to marry you and spend the rest of my life, no, I want to spend forever with you."

"As do I. I want to give you my love and so much more because its what you deserve for loving me."

"Your not that hard to love," I replied.

"You really should stop seeing me like that," he said with meaning in his voice.

"Be quiet and kiss me before I get mad," I now wanted to feel once more his lips pressed against mine. He obliged moving his lips up and down from my neck to my wrists until he finally met my lips where his lips lingered for several minutes before he finally pulled away. Completely breathless I tried to pull him back to me.

"Don't you think we ought to get you home Charlie will be wondering where you are and we wouldn't want him cross with me when we're about to tell him our good news. I groaned. Edward and his lips had made me forget all about Charlie and any news we had to tell him this was going to be a long night.