AN: This takes place right after the dub episode 'Sibling Rivalry', that is the one with the turning of the four sisters, and Chibi-usa finds out that Usagi is Sailor Moon. This is another one of my revisions. This one went under the knife a bit more than the others. I got the names right this time, but I was proud of this little story, and decided it needed a lot of work to still make me proud of it. This was originally 4 chapters, but I may do some consolidation. Either that, or make each chapter longer ;) I wish I had expanded upon this originally. I'm glad I'm taking time to do this! Since this story is completed, it shouldn't take long to post.
Enjoy!
~*Dear Diary:
Today I saw Mamo-chan again. He saved me and my friends from yet another brush with death. I don't know what to do anymore. It hurts me too much to see him day after day....and when he is in that mask...is there no end to my hurt? My heartache? I just wish that this nightmare would end and that Mamoru would tell me he loves me again and that we would one day rule the moon together. But is that
all I want? No, I want my love back...for good this time.*~
Usagi put the pen down and reached up attempting to stretch her back. The stress of the past few months was really getting to her. When she was home by herself, in the comfort of her room, gone was the happy-go-lucky ditz that the world knew and loved. She was replaced by a very unhappy and depressed individual. Her unease had seemed to upset the others around her, so she continuously tried to hide it. In doing so however, it made her increasingly exhausted. Her diary entries were the only outlet these days. If she complained to the girls one more time about her confusion, she thought she would be banned from their good graces forever. Suppressing a yawn, Usagi crawled over to her bed, carefully hid her second most treasured possession, and gave in to the overwhelming sensation of exhaustion under the snugly covers of her bed.
"Now, where is that diary?...I know it is here somewhere." She yet again tore apart Usagi's room. This was an act that was not unfamiliar to her. She had done so before right when she had first joined the Tsukino family. She was told to make herself at home, and she definitely did. She hadn't found what she was looking for then, but she hoped that this time she would be successful. Maybe, if she was lucky she would stumble across her locket. This was, after all, Sailor Moon's room. That thought made her shudder. For one to think that Usagi was Sailor Moon...no, she couldn't even think of it. It was way to much for her to handle. Now if she could only find the diary to find out more about the situation, she could do something to help her mother in the future. Chibi-Usa finally slid her hand under the mattress and felt the coldness of hard leather. A smile appeared on her face. 'I found it!' she inwardly screamed as she stole away, the diary tucked safely away in her shirt. "She won't miss this for a while."
When she was leaving the room, she carefully looked both ways down the hallway before creeping up to her attick room. When she was safely hidden away in her sanctuary, Chibi-Usa opened up the diary to the first page, noticing that it was a relatively new diary, having just started a week before her own arrival. Chibi-usa knew that she was deeply interested in everything in this diary had to say, so she started with the first entry.
~*Dear Diary:
Hey! Usagi here. Well, I got this diary...well, a 'journal' as part of school work, but this might actually be fun. I get to write about my thoughts and feelings. Now to only keep my brother away from this...
Anyway...I finally had my wish come true!!!!!!! We were hanging out with Ann and Ail, and Mamoru remembered our past life together. It was an emotional time for me and I am so happy. I have yet to see him since that time we talked on the roof, but when I do, I can't wait for him to put his arms around me again. I wish I could write more and tell more, but journals are not the most secrative place. I shall keep the unedited parts to myself. Well, that is all for now...more when I know it.
Love Usagi.*~
Chibi-usa threw down the book in frustration. Edited? Now how was she supposed to get the information that she needed? Upset, she decided that she wanted to pout. While she was contemplating her situation, it dawned on her to read the diary anyway. What a perfect opportunity to find out about Usagi's other little secrets?? So with that in mind, Chibi-usa opened the diary back up, and turned to the next page.
~*Dear Diary:
'Chibi-usa' showed up today. I was perfectly happy kissing Mamo-chan when the little spore decided to show up.*~
Chibi-usa cringed at that. She wasn't that bad was she? She shrugged it off. She had a mission. She didn't have time to worry what Usagi thought of her. She slowly read on.
~*Now that she has wormed her way into my life I have to figure out what to do with her. I know we do not have a cousin Chibi-usa. Mamoru seems to have a fascination with the little brat. Will she pose a problem between us? Only God knows.*~
'Am I posing a problem?' Chibi-usa thought. She shook away those thoughts, again convincing herself that she didn't care. She wasn't here to make friends. However, it wasn't her intention, to cause a problem. But, to keep Mamo-chan away from her and have him all to herself...then she can live with the guilt. She decided that ramblings about her and her relationship were boring. She turned to the day in the diary where she knew Usagi and Mamoru had separated.
~*Dear Diary:
I am so upset now. I don't know whether I should cry or laugh, shed tears or break glass. The love of my life has left me, and I am lost to the world. I know that things don't always go right between couples, but things were going well with us. Mamo-chan loved me, and one day we were going to rule the world together. He as my King, and I as his queen. Our destinies laid out for us, we were to be one for all eternity. What happened that would make Mamoru forget his promise to love me forever? He might not remember saying the words...seeing as how they were spoken a thousand years ago, between a Prince and his Princess. But I remember. I remember every little word, every detail that has gone on between us in all the years we have known each other. I love him so much that I don't know what to do anymore. I want to throw all the badness away and create good. I, Princess Serenity, daughter of the late Queen Serenity, will get her prince back if it kills her. And you know, it just might...*~
Chibi-usa stopped reading. She had found out all she was looking for and more. Gone was the illusion that Usagi was just another person that was placed into her life to annoy her. She had always felt a small attachment to her...but she passed it off as simple admiration. She knew Sailor Moon from all the stories her father had told her. But never had she stopped to make the connection that Sailor Moon was her mother, or for that matter that Mamoru was her father.
And she thought that it was hard enough as it was having Usagi as Sailor Moon. This was something that required deep thought. She slowly went downstairs and placed the diary back to where it was. She held a bit more respect for the ditzy blonde, seeing as she will give birth to her someday....it doesn't mean she had to like it though. She sighed and slowly went back to her room. She definitely needed time.