Kisses tickled my neck and I smiled.
I didn't realize I had fallen back asleep until I woke up.
I felt Can's body on top of mine, suffocating me and I loved it. As his tongue peppered my neck with continuous kisses I sighed, revealing that I was awake.
"Duru," Can whispered in my ear. The sound combined with the kiss gave me goosebumps.
Although we had spent almost the entire night attacking each other, I still felt that I wanted him.
I wondered briefly if the feeling would eventually go away, but as he began to suck on my neck I found myself not caring.
"Can," I whispered in pleasure, as he bit my neck harder.
All of a sudden, his teeth and lips were off my neck.
My eyes lazily popped open as I wondered what happened that made him stop.
I stared at him funnily.
"I wanted to see your eyes." He smiled as he pet my forehead and my hair.
This smile made my heart clench and I hated it. Every time he looked at me, it was as if he was the happiest person in the world.
"Good morning," I laughed. While I hated his smile, I couldn't help but feel giddy. When he looked at me, he seemed so innocent. It was adorable.
"The second of many." He kissed my lips.
Many? The thought seemed strange. Did Can really believe we could last that long?
"The second?" I said, ignoring the thought of the future of our relationship for a while.
He grinned.
"We've slept together before." He said.
"No, we haven't?" I looked into his eyes.
"We have," he kissed my neck. "But you wouldn't remember." He laughed into my neck.
While the feeling of kisses was wonderful, my curiosity beat me and I pushed him above me for a moment.
"When?" I looked up into his eyes.
He sighed.
"Remember the night you were very drunk? And I took care of you?"
I searched through my memories. It was strange to think in such a short time I had developed so many with Can.
"Oh, yes." I nodded, after a brief moment. Looking back I should've thought it more strange that Can would be so helpful. He even cooked me breakfast the next day.
"Well, that night you were trying to drunk drive and you were throwing up." As Can spoke, my cheeks turned red for a moment. I barely remembered the night and Can's re-telling brought back my previous embarrassment.
"I carried you from your car to the bathroom and then from your bathroom to the couch. I was worried you would try to leave again so I tried to put you to sleep on the couch. Your head was laying on my arm just as it is now," he smiled, and pet my cheek. "And you fell asleep on it. I didn't have the heart to wake you, so I just laid there until I fell asleep." He breathed for a moment and it seemed he was trying to figure out how to say what he wanted to say. "The next morning was our first morning together," he finally began, he was playing with my hands. "But your eyes were closed. That's why-" he looked up from our hands and into my eyes, "why I asked you to open them just now." He softly kissed my nose.
His story filled my lungs with a weird sort of air I had never felt before. Can's words completely overwhelmed me but before I could think his kiss on my nose reset my entire brain.
He stared into my eyes and pressed his lower body against mine. The feeling was intense. I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what I was feeling but I knew I wanted him more than anything.
Rather than speaking, I threw my arms around him and attacked his lips with mine. I had never wanted anyone as much as I had wanted the man I was kissing in that very moment. I wasn't in love with Can Manay, but I didn't doubt that I was willing to spend the rest of my life in bed with him.