Aaaaand we're back! I'm having a writer's block with A Couple of Forevers so I decided to work on something else for a little while. This story was inspired by a story I read on .com. I believe the name of it was Don't Blink but I don't remember the author. I found it thoroughly enjoyable so I hope you guys do too! Tell me what you think!

I opened my eyes. Sesshomaru was sitting on the edge of the bed as usual, staring at the floor or the wall or the ceiling. Because he wasn't blinking, tears ran down his face & his eyes were bloodshot. "Sessh, you can't keep doing this to yourself"

He didn't respond but I saw his jaw flex.

This had all started four days ago when a good friend of his commited suicide. It was awful; she'd tied a rope around her neck & jumped off a twenty story building, snapping her neck instantly. For some odd reason her eyes were gouged out though no one knows for sure if she did it or did birds pecked them from her skull. It was the building where Sesshomaru worked. He hadn't slept since.

I sighed. "I'm always here if you wanna talk"

He looked at me then. Whenever he looked at me he had such a pleading look in his eyes, begging, like he needed me to understand something he couldn't tell me. His lips parted like he was going to say something instead he just looked at the floor quickly. For a split second he blinked & jumped, like in those milliseconds, he found himself falling asleep & had to shake himself awake.

"Sessh, if you don't talk to me then talk to someone. Please"

"I can talk to no one about this" he said desperately, looking as broken as the day Rin killed herself.

"Then let me just help you any way I can. How can I help you baby? Please tell me" I begged, grabbing his hands. I couldn't take it anymore. It was an awful thing to see your Beta withering away, lonely & in pain & you could do nothing to help them. I just wanted my Sesshomaru back. I just wanted the love of my life to smile again. I just wanted to see that look go away & be replaced with a look of peace, happiness.

Sesshomaru's breathing picked up & it was a moment before he looked at me, fat tears hanging off his eyelashes. "Ok...I'll tell you"

...

I tightened my arms around myself as I watched Sesshomaru's casket being lowered into the ground. I wasn't going to be able to hold myself together much longer but I couldn't move either. A sob worked its way up my throat & I had no choice but to let it out. He was gone. I was never going to see him again.

Several days ago I came home from work to find Sesshomaru's body on the kitchen floor, my glock in one hand, his brains in the other. I don't even think I cried at first. I just remember falling to the ground & screaming at the top of my lungs until my voice was completely shot. I don't remember the paramedics coming. I don't remember them placing him in a body bag & driving away. I don't remember them trying to help me into the ambulance so I could ride with them & I'm very thankful I don't remember having to sign the death certificate.

As I watched several people drop roses onto the now fully dropped casket I remember Sesshomaru telling me what Rin had told him before she died. She said she'd been plagued with these images whenever she blinked or closed her eyes. At first they would start off very far away & unclear, blurry. But with each time you blinked they got closer & every time you closed your eyes they would draw closer to you even faster. They were horrible images of demons or ghosts coming towards you with the intent to kill you...& once they got to you, they possessed your body & you "committed suicide". You will die, regardless. The only way to make it a little less scary for yourself, a little less painful, was to tell someone else.

I'm so sorry.