SO rather than working on another multi-chapter my brain made this instead... I've had a very hard personal day, been very emotional, complete honesty to you all I've been to a funeral and wake today, so my emotions are all over... and thanks to a lovely request from a friend on tumblr this creation was born. SHE liked the first draft but told me to follow my muse with the ending, SO full disclosure the ending is PAINFUL, personally I think this is the most emotional thing I've ever written... so I'm sorry because I'm in pain, and my muse creates these things... But yes 3x19 speculation story (I'm not sure this will happen but this is what my muse wanted). anyway enjoy.

"We have to do this." Oliver said with a hint of hesitation in his voice.

"I know." Felicity replied softly.

"I can't let all our equipment fall into the wrong hands; I don't trust the police."

"Oliver." Felicity said gently placing her hand on his arm. "It's okay. I understand."

"But it's our lair, our base of operations... our home." His eyes softened as he looked at her.

"Hey. We can get a new base, a new lair, Arrow cave 2.0." He smiled at her then. "I know it's our home, I know it has a lot of memories good and bad, but a home isn't just a place Oliver. It's the people and feelings that surround us that make us feel like we belong. It's you and everyone else that makes me feel safe, makes me feel like I'm home." He smiled tenderly at the woman he loved, and realised that she was right. She was his home now.

"I can't ask you to-"

"Oliver it's fine you get us into the club, I'll set up the explosives, then we get out and boom."

"Felicity-"

"No okay, it is that simple. Verdants closed, there is literally 2 officers guarding the place."

"Okay."

"Good, now lets go."

Oliver easily took out the 2 officers, he placed them both in their patrol car driving it slightly down the street. They didn't need any casualties. Felicity quickly found the spare bombs from their explosive time last year, when they blew up the applied science building. She placed them strategically around the Foundry as Oliver grabbed a few belongings shoving them into his massive sports bag.

"Is there anything you need Felicity?" He shouted as he rammed a few guns and arrows into his bag. She didn't reply. So he span his head around to see her running her hand over her computer monitors. She sighed as she span the chair around; his hand on her shoulder caused her to tilt her head up. "Hey-"

"It's okay." She said placing her hand over his. "We can start over." He squeezed her shoulder reassuringly. "I just hate goodbyes." She whispered softly into the silence.

"I'm sorry."

"Oliver this isn't your fault." She replied instantly turning around to face him. "Not everything is on your shoulders. Sometimes bad things happen to good people for no good reason. I'd say you've had your fair share."

She placed her hand on his chest, feeling his heart beat a little quicker. She looked up into his eyes, his deep blue orbs drawing her in, she couldn't help the feeling of admiration, affection, tenderness and love that washed over her. He stared back unblinking as he felt his love for her soar. He didn't think it was possible but the look in her eyes had him leaning closer, then she blinked and the moment seemed to fade as her hand left his chest.

"We should head out, have you got everything?" He asked his voice sounding huskier than usual.

"Yes, I'll just set the bombs up, give us a couple of minutes to leave." He nodded as she typed something into the computers.

They walked towards the stairs, Felicity leading the way as Oliver took one last fleeting glance at the place he had called home for the last 3 years, where he had helped to tried to save his city, where he'd met friends that were now his family, where he had become the man he was now. His heart swelled at the memories he had made, as he slowly flicked the switch off the whole place tumbling into darkness.

He took the stairs 2 at a time as he met Felicity at the door.

"Come on," she smiled sadly, "we have to get out of here." Oliver nodded, as the two rushed through the deserted dance floor of Verdant. "We should be okay, I mean the explosion should just cause the club to cave in, essentially destroying the-" she glanced around her as she reached the door; stopping when she realised Oliver wasn't there. "Oliver?" She span around to see him walking back towards the Foundry. "Oliver?"

"I forgot something." He shouted.

"There's no time!" She rushed towards him.

"Felicity no, go get out, I promise I won't be long."

"Oliver." She said it in such a pleading way. He looked into her eyes and he saw all the pain.

"I promise I am coming right back," He said with an easy smile, "now get out of here." He said pointing towards the exit. She hesitated. "Felicity..." He said it so slowly and tenderly, as if her name was a whole sentence, saying everything he couldn't. How he'd come back, how he'd always come back to her, for her. She nodded before quickly spinning on her heels. Oliver watched her leave before he sprinted back into the Foundry.

Felicity was stood in the alley. The same one from all those months ago when she had told the man she loved she didn't want to be a woman he loved. Now all she knew was that she would never stop loving him. Even when Ray was perfect, when he should have been enough he just wasn't, because the reality was, he wasn't Oliver. It was Oliver Queen she had fallen for, his kindness, the way he wanted to help the city, the way he had changed for the better, and the way even in his messed up manner he cared.

She loved every part of his tattered soul because every scar, mark, meant he had survived and turned into the man she loved. The man that believed she could be more than just an IT girl. She stood in the alley praying to every god available those bombs didn't go off before he came out. Her heart was hammering in her chest as she paced the alley.

"Please Oliver, please hurry up." She whispered to herself. Then the ground shook as the explosions over took her ears. "No!" She screamed. "No! OLIVER!" She ran towards the doors as they flew open. Oliver stood there his face and clothes covered in dust as she practically ran into his arms. He didn't hesitate in pulling her into his arms as he carried her out and down the alley.

"Hey I'm okay." He whispered into her ear as he planted her feet on the ground. His hands landed on her cheeks brushing away the tears, she didn't even know she was crying.

"I've already lost you once I can't lose you again." She said her hands wrapping around his wrists, feeling his pulse, feeling it strong and steady.

"You won't not if I can help it." He pulled her closer and as their lips met the rest of the world faded away. This kiss was exactly like their first in the hospital, tender soft and full of emotion but this time no one had any intention of walking away. As they slowly pulled apart their foreheads touched, and slowly they opened their eyes, seeing the matching feelings in each others.

"What did you go back for?" She whispered. He slowly pulled away, her hands slipped from his, as he dropped his own into his bag slung on his shoulder. He slowly but surely pulled out the green shrub.

"The fern."

"You went back for a damn plant!" She said staring at him with disbelief. "You nearly got killed-"

"Our fern Felicity, the plant you brought me, that thrives in low light..." He looked her in the eyes, "just like me." He whispered. She stared at the plant so lovingly held in his grasp, and then at the look on his face.

"You... You saved the plant I brought you, because it means something." He smiled sadly.

"Yes, I know it's stupid but I've been watering it, taking care of it... I love you Felicity and by extension this plant was a part of the time when things were good and I... I kept holding onto that with this... And I just I couldn't let it go." Felicity smiled then.

"You aren't going to lose me anymore Oliver." She said softly.

"There are no guarantees."

"There never are... But you have my heart, you always have and you always will... I'm done fighting against it." The smile that adorned his face made Felicity weak at the knees. She'd never seen him smile like that, and it was then she realised she wanted nothing but to see that smile on his face every day, for the rest of their lives, no matter how long or short that was.

"Here, hold this whilst I get the van." She smiled softly, taking the plant from his hands. Their fingers gently touched and she felt the sparks fly, and from the look on his face so did he. He leant forward placing a soft kiss to her lips. "I love you." He whispered before running off.

Felicity stood there at the edge of the alley watching Oliver sprinting down the street. That's why she didn't hear him coming, didn't hear him till he grabbed her by her hair pulling back. The fern fell to the floor, the pot shattering into tiny pieces. She tried to fight. She really did, but his hands around her throat crushing her wind pipe hindered her. She stared into the man's face; he was wearing a policeman's uniform. She could feel her lungs burning from the lack of oxygen as they ached for release. Her head was pounding as she tried to think.

Olivers phone rang as he sat in the van.

"Hello."

"Oliver man." Diggle said sounding exasperated.

"Hey what's up?"

"He got away, the police stupidly underestimated him."

"Dig..."

"We think he's heading for the Foundry, we think he's after us all."

"Oh my god..."

"What?"

"Felicity..." He didn't even finish the sentence as his foot hit the gas and he threw his phone into the passenger side.

"Seems like your friends aren't here to save you now." The man said menacingly, Felicity's vision started to blacken as she could no longer fight. Suddenly the man was being pulled from her; she dropped to her knees clutching her throat struggling to breath.

"Don't you dare touch her!" Oliver snapped as he punched the man hard in the face sending him crashing to the floor. "Felicity?" He dropped to his legs a hand on her back. "Breathe Felicity. Steady breaths." Her hand shot out to his as she calmed herself. Once her breathing returned to normal, she knelt up properly, wrapping her arms around his neck. His arms wrapped around her back pulling her impossibly close, their bodies were pressed together. "You're okay, you're safe now." She pulled back slowly.

"Thank you." She smiled as she glanced down at him. "Oliver!" She exclaimed. He glanced down at his open leather jacket noticing his grey shirt was red. He hadn't been hurt, had he? He pulled his shirt up, no fresh wounds, and then he glanced at Felicity.

Her skin had turned pale, and then his gaze dropped to her hand on her stomach. She slowly held it up, her fingers stained with blood. She fell into his open arms. He placed her gently down, as he pressed his hands hard onto her wound trying to stop the blood.

"Felicity..."

"I didn't know... I never felt it." She said softly her eyes fluttering slightly.

"Hey it's okay... I should have never-"

"No." She said a little more forcefully, her hands covering his on her stomach. "This... isn't your fault." Her eyes closed briefly before she forced them open again. A car screeching caused them both to turn their heads. Dig and Roy were running towards them.

"Oh my god..." Roy said his eyes widening at the blood pooling around Felicity.

"Get that stupid meta-human!" Oliver snapped tilting his head back. The guys looked up but the rest of the alley was empty.

"Oliver man, he's gone." Diggle replied. Oliver tensed up, Felicity could feel it. "We need to get her to a hospital." Oliver nodded as he glanced back to her.

"We're going to have to move you Felicity okay? It might hurt but I promise I'm not going to leave you." She nodded; squeezing his hands still lay on her.

"The fern Oliver... I'm sorry."

"It doesn't matter." He replied softly as Diggle scooped her shoulders, Roy her feet as Oliver still pressed into her wound.

They gently lay her in the back of the van and Diggle slipped into the driver's seat.

"Oliver..." Felicity whispered. He looked at her instantly.

"Yes Felicity..."

"Stay with me."

"I'm not going anywhere baby." He whispered softly into her ear. His head shot up, "Roy your jacket, I need you to hold it onto her wound."

"I..."

"Roy, please." He pulled his red jacket off handing it to Oliver who pressed it into her wound, it was still bleeding. His hands were a deep scarlet and he glanced at Roy who took over as Diggle drove off in haste.

"Oliver..." She whispered again. He took her hand in his as the other ran through her hair pushing it from her face. He horrified himself as he realised he had tarnished her blonde hair. "Hey..."

"Yes?"

"I'm cold Oliver." He gave Roy a sideways look, who pressed a little harder, his hands now turning red too.

"It's okay, we'll get you to the hospital... You'll be okay..." She shook her head a little. She knew deep down she wasn't going to make it this time. She could feel it in her bones, that ache was easing and the pain going. She felt tired, she just wanted to sleep. She closed her eyes. "Hey!" Olivers voice snapped her eyes open. "Just stay awake for me Felicity okay? Just stay awake."

"Okay..." She said softly, she glanced at the younger man staring at her. She gently lifted her free hand placing it over his. "Take care of him Roy." He couldn't stop the tear that escaped then.

"No Felicity." Oliver protested, but she ignored him.

"And Diggle. Take care of each other all of you. You're like my... little brother." She said it so delicately; she could feel the tears cascading down her face.

"You can take care of them yourself blondie." He replied and she smiled squeezing his hand but he gave her a reassuring nod. She slowly moved her hand from Roy to Olivers jaw and cheek. He leant into her touch placing his own hand over it whilst squeezing her other.

"Promise me..." She took a breath forcing her eyes to remain open. "You won't blame yourself..."

"Felicity no! You are going to make it; I'm going to take you on a date that won't blow up. We'll go on lots of dates, get married, have kids, and have a future... You and me." Her thumb ran over his cheek gently wiping a tear away. She smiled softly.

"You and me..." She repeated. He nodded.

"Yes you and me, finally." She felt her eyes closing once again, so she opened them, she looked into his blue eyes full of sadness and pain.

"I want you to be happy..."

"You make me happy Felicity... You." She shook her head.

"I want you to have some happy endings..."

"You're meant to be that Felicity, you are my happy ending!" He said squeezing her even tighter. The tears fell freely then from both of them.

"Listen..." She whispered, so he leant closer. "I need you... Promise me... If... I don't make... It... You'll be happy... You'll carry on... You'll get happy endings." He shook his head. "Please... Promise me."

"No, without you I can't-"

"Please." She pleaded. Her blood stained hair and pale skin made her tear filled blue eyes shine even brighter, he could see the pleading in them, see that she was trying to hold on.

"I'm nearly there!" Dig shouted from the front.

"Please..." She said softly.

"I promise..." He stuttered out with a small sob. Her eyes closed. "Felicity, please baby keep your eyes open for me..."

"Too heavy." She whispered. It fell oddly silent.

"Talk to me." Oliver said forcefully.

"Oliver..." He leant even closer placing a kiss to her forehead. "I... I... Lo..." Suddenly her arms went limp and slumped.

"Felicity?" Oliver said slightly shaking her. "FELICITY!" Roys hand shakily checked for a pulse. Nothing.

"Oliver... I..."

"No... No!" He pulled her closer to him, wrapping his arms around her, one running down her face as he sobbed, his heart shattering in his chest. "Please Felicity please come back for me... Please..." Roy sat there watching the pair, tears streaming down his own face as he watched his mentor losing the woman he loved. He'd never seen him this broken. The car slammed to a halt.

"Let's get her inside NOW!" Diggle shouted jumping out the van.