A/N: hey so this just kinda came to me. I know it's not very good but R and R and tell me what you think. Constructive Criticism is always welcome :)
I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive
My mind and my thoughts roamed back to that night in the cabin. It ripped my heart out to think about it. Him holding me, wanting me, finally. It was my happiest moment. But now as I thought about it, it hurt so much. I tried as hard as I could not to recall the memories from what seemed like long ago. When he..wanted, loved me.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side
His soft lips on mine, the best feeling ever. I had risked everything and been reckless to get to where we were. Every time he kissed me I soared. Just thinking about that made my heart pick up speed. Oh how I wish that the Strigoi attack hadn't happened. I needed him, I still need him.
?Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life
I remembered the electric shock that jolted through me in the cabin when we succumbed to the need. Damn why did he have to be such a god? I love him so much I can barely contain it. But now…he claims that the feeling's not mutual. But despite that I just can't, I can't understand how he says he doesn't love me.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall
The incident at Spokane. A couple days afterwards when I walked into the gym to find him reading those stupid western novels, then I broke down because of Mason. He was there and somehow he comforted me more than anyone else. He dried my tears and told me that he had gone through the same thing. Then the best thing happened. He told me that he wasn't going with Tasha. He said no. and despite the sad mood I was in, that simple word, "no" made my day.
'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side
I know that even though he said that the Lust charm did nothing to him, I know that it did. Victor said that it had to have a deeper root of sorts. At that moment I knew that he was meant for me. You can't imagine how badly I wanted the moment to last. Lissa comes first though, always. That still couldn't keep me from wishing.
'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life
Even when he was Strigoi and I was with him as his…yeah I still loved him not the creepy version of him that did that to me. I knew that the real Dimka was down there somewhere. His kisses always made me melt.
Now he says the best thing, the safest thing for me is to stay away from him. He says he doesn't love me anymore, but I was there when he tried to save me from the guardians and I can't help but think that he wasn't telling the truth. No matter how much he denies it, he'll say he doesn't want me around anymore but that's not good enough. I need him in my life. He's the other part of me. Somehow, someway I'll get my Dimitri back.