Hey! As some of you may know i have changed this story a bit. I was not happy of how it ended, and many part of the story were just strange. So i decided to fix it up, but i didnt want to make it as a new one so i just changed the chapters. So this is in a way a new story based on the old. I have changed some parts of it, and cept some. I have also tried to fix some of my spelling and grammar mistakes, but thats not easy when you dont speak or write english daily. Hope you enjoy my story.
"Don't do it!" I screamed to her,"don't do it, I am begging you." I stood there with tears in my eyes. "I have to do it, I just have to!" I looked at my friend; she was standing on the edge of the roof. "You are drunk, you have been drinking too much, the feelings you have isn't real!" I screamed through the wind, but I knew that they were real, the feelings that Sam felt.
Sam had lost her brother in a car accident some months ago, and her parents died in a house fire a couple of years ago, but she never got over the loss. In other words, my best friend, Sam, was living in a nightmare. She refused to take the pills she had gotten from her doctor and had more than once been living on the psychiatric unit in the hospital. But now, I had thought everything was better with her. She had been acting so happy and strong, and now she was standing on the edge of the roof ready to take her own life.
I saw and heard the sirens from the ambulance and fire engines come closer, still the blue light was already under us. I looked at my friend, I saw her knees shaking and the same did the rest of her body. "Sam! You don't have to do this! You can't do this to me! I can try to help you, you are not alone! And you know that!" My voice cracked as I screamed towards her. The wind was playing with her long brown hair. All I wanted to do was walk over to her and give her a big hug and tell her that everything will be ok. But I know it wasn't that easy.
I could here the sirens from the ambulance and fire trucks get blown away with the wind.
"Can you bring my family back from the dead? Can you make the voices in my head go away?" It wasn't hard to know that she was crying when she all of a sudden talked back to me. I felt the guilt grow in my chest when she talked. She wasn't having it easy, I knew that, but I didn't know about the voices. She had never told be about the fact that she heard voices. "Sam! There are doctors, medication and many other things that can help you with that. You don't have to do this!" I cried and cried, she was my best friend, my only friend. I could not imagine a world without her.
Sam turned and looked at me. I hoped that she had changed her mind and was ready to get down from the edge, but deep inside I knew that it wasn't going to happen. I looked into her two big shiny eyes. "I'm sorry..." she smiled towards me and took a step backwards, a step into nothing. "Nooo! Sam!" I ran towards the edge, but didn't dare to look down. I was scared of highs, and scared of what sight was waiting for me down there.
I turned over and ran as fast as my shaking legs would go down the stairs towards the first floor. My sight was blurry and I guess I looked like a wrack there I ran with tears streaming from my eyes and my hands shaking. When I approached the first floor was the first thing a saw a huge crowd of people and the lights from the ambulance. I stopped a moment and blinked my eyes a couple of times, I begged inside myself that all had been a dream. But when I opened my eyes again everything looked the same. My heart was pounding in my chest, harder and harder for each step I took towards the door out to the crowd. I didn't want to see, but still, I could not stop myself. I opened the door out and started running into the huge ground of crying and scared people. I hadn't noticed that I had started to cry more and all of a sudden I screamed her name, Sam, no one looked at me. No one cared.
I tried to track through the crowd, but it was too huge for me to find the center. My howl body was shaking and I could not stop crying. "Let me pass! I need to see her!" I tried to push people aside so I could get through, but out of nowhere a hand took a hard grip around my arm. I didn't think before I acted. I was so scared and angry that I didn't take myself time to look at the person, who held tight around my arm, before my hand had placed itself right over the eye of the stranger. I don't know how hard my hand had hit, but the brown eyed man looked shocked at me. I didn't manage to stand anymore. Everything was falling apart, my life, my soul was floating out of my body. I didn't know I had more tears left to spill, but when I lost the power in my legs I felt more salt tears stream down my red and sour cheeks. "What the hell?" the man over me had used a couple of seconds to get himself together and talk to me. He lifted his hand to check on his head. "Ouch!" The man stuttered out between his clenched teeth.
The man bended next to me, "That hurt…" I didn't look at him; I just covered my eyes with my shaking hands. "Why are you crying? If it is because of me, you don't have to…" Why was this man so kind to me? It felt like I had seen him before, but my mind and eyes were to blurry to remember. "My name is Bill by the way. What's yours?" It didn't sound like he was affected by the fact that I was crying and sitting on the ground. "M-m-my name is Siren…" Bill laid a hand on my shaking back. "Why are you crying Siren? What's wrong?" I let my hands down and looked up at him. His eyes where so calm and warm. I didn't understand how he managed to stay that calm in this situation. "I could have stopped her! I… we… she…" I didn't manage to continue. It was too hard to think about. "So… if I understand you right; you know the girl who jumped? And you tried to stop her but she would not listen?" I nodded.
It was really annoying. I could not figure out where I had seen this boy before. I was sure I had seen him somewhere, but where…