Three Gabriel drabbles, AU for the most part. Spoilers from 1x10 (I guess) and 1x21 not that good, but I wanted to do some Gabriel fics. They don't get more than lil over 170 words per drabble thing Warning: OOCness ( I guess)
The fallen angel sits alone, he thinks of what he's done. Maybe in another life he can be forgiven. Not now, not with all the blood on his hands. He rises from the musty old couch, his perch, and surveys his old home. He's lost control he knows this for sure, what he thought was so innocent quickly spiraled out of control. He'd slain the unworthy in the beginning but…what happened after that…He shuddered at the thoughts of his recent victim. He could still picture her clearly, without the blood she appeared to only be sleeping. But what haunts him was the last word she whispered "Gabriel." Why had she cursed him with such a name so pure an innocent? He was clearly no messenger of God, and surely he didn't have the strength of God, surely God hadn't planned the deaths of those innocent….of her.
He had only wanted to be special, not this…this monster. He became the thing of every child's nightmare – the boogeyman. He still couldn't look that poor child in the eyes anymore, he sees through the childish innocence -there though deep-rooted- a grain of dread that surfaced every time he seemingly looked away. They say he's ok now, the voice is gone, but he knows the truth-the voice never left. It was always there waiting to bring up demons of the past. It seemed to enjoy watching him squirm at the details he'd forced himself to forget, showing him images that made bile rise up the back of his throat. What he had done had been inexcusable. He's tried to do things right, the best he could. He failed; apparently someone up there knows what their doing- he was an imbecile to think salvation could come from taking a life- let alone his own.
They say he's a danger to himself now, they lock him away. He'd been enraged before, he wanted everything to end, but the more he thought the more he realized they actually were right, after that he'd calmed down accepting his own personal hell. They come for him sometimes, people who have every right to hate his very existence; they come to see if he's ok. This puzzles him, why should they care? He'd done almost everything possible to make their live, hell he's even tried to kill a handful of them, succeeded that with some of their loved ones. One kept coming everyday, but why did he? Was it to see that he die slow and painfully? Or was it something else? He'd done the unthinkable he'd stolen the life of this man's father. When he first visited his eyes shown a sort of demented pleasure of what he'd become. Over time the man's expression changed, especially after coming around one day to find the former murderer sobbing in a corner.
Ok I know these prolly weren't that
great but it's been a while since I wrote anything. (Was watchin the season 1
DVD and got these ideas) Review if ya like, Flames will be used to keep me
warm, its freezing outside
on a few name sites I checked out they said Gabriel meant either
"messenger of god" or "strength of god"