I wanted my life to be totally back to normal after my parents died. I didn't want any sympathy or any support. Support was worthless because really nobody cared and sympathy was just as bad. My friends well...they couldn't be my friends anymore. I was a slayer after all. I told them that I wanted them out of my life because well... I got my parents murdered and I refused to let anyone else follow. Well, at least I tried to refuse.
Almost every one of my friends had been bitten at one time or another. They all had scars to show for that especially Alexa Showell. She had to have been bitten at least twice a week because of how much she had been with me on my patrol duties through out the years. Alexa's the one girl that I have to accept that she will be on my side until the end of time.
She has dark wavy brown hair that reaches her cheeks and dark hazel eyes that glisten in the sun. She almost always wears a pair of skinny jeans and a plain t-shirt but still manages to look beautiful. Despite looks, she has to be the most lethal person I know. I wasn't too surprised when I found out that she was a slayer.
"Lexi, are we still on for patrol?" I ask, hoping the answer would be no but it never was. She's always up for killing vampires or demons.
"Yeah. Maybe we'll convince Ryan to come too. He could sure use a butt kicking." she says staring at him. Ryan is also one of my best guy friends that will probably never leave me. His hair, cropped in layers over his face, is one of my favorite features about him not to mention his amazing pale blue eyes that turn to hazel in the darkness. I have to laugh at this comment.
Ryan and Alexa use to go out and then they got into this huge fight and have never got along since. "He'll go but I can't promise the butt kicking thing." I say with a smile. Alexa rolls her eyes with irritation flooding them.
"Hey, Amy." he says with a smile.
"Hi Ryan." I murmur. He smiles at me and turns to Alexa.
"Hey." He basically growls.
"Whatever." she says in response. "So, patrol's at nine tonight. Be there."
"You can count on it...wait. Amy, you're going right?" he asks. Alexa won't give up trying to convince me that he has a crush on me but I still doubt it. I mean, a guy like that could never- would never have a crush on me.
:"Yep, I'll be there with my stakes polished and holy water ready." I say with a small laugh. He stares at me for a while which is weird because he never has done that before. "Yeah I'll be there. Just be careful when you come, okay?"
He shakes his head as if awakening from a trance. "Yeah great. Um...yeah I will. Bye guys, see you around." Ryan turns and walks to his locker. I notice him muttering to himself and my eyes narrow when I hear my name. I take my history book out of my locker as well as my math. I start walking to my last period, Drama but then I get stopped by Ryan's hand reaching mine. I turn with a smile.
"Um...hi. I really need to get to Drama." Really? I make up an excuse? How stupid am I?
"I know, I just needed to talk to you. Please, it'll be fast." His voice rings with a bit of plead. I hear a sigh escape past my lips. I really shouldn't go but my drama teacher usually allows us fifteen minutes or so to socialize so she doesn't need to mark anyone late so I think that I'll be okay...
"Sure. Come on." I walk out to a bench that's located near the gym for teachers or for kids to sit on for tests or whatever. Quickly, I smoothe out my dress and take a seat and watch as he sits down next to me. "What's going on?" I ask, a bit of worry sneaks into my mind.
"Well...something is going on inside my mind. I can't...I can't get involved with the person that I want to. I have no clue what to do and I need your help." he says looking down at his hands.
"The person?" I ask. "Who exactly?" Ryan smiles slightly and I catch him staring into my eyes again which I have no idea why. I've always hated my eyes. They're a dark brown that looks like a mud puddle. I would give anything to have blue eyes or green. Anything but brown.
"If I told you...if I told you, you wouldn't understand why I couldn't get involved in a romance with them. Then I would have to tell you my secret which would make you hate me. Literally hate me." he says, his eyes moving down to my tense hands. Ryan takes my hands, which must be freezing and places them in his own which are unusually warm. This makes me really uncomfortable so I take them out and put them on my lap again.
"I could never hate you, Ryan. That's one thing that drives me crazy about you. You're impossible to hate. Impossible." I say softly. He tries to smile but it ends up turning into a troubled frown. "Now, if you don't want to tell me-"
"I want to tell you, Amelia." I hate it when people use my full name but it doesn't bother me too much at the moment. "Believe me, I do but you'd hate me forever. All I want to do is ask for advice. What do I do to make me not...not fall in love with her?" he asks.
"Well...you'd have to understand that...that life has it's ups and downs but if you truly love a person, you can't stop it. You're only able to control it." His hands come back to mine and I don't move them away this time.
"But what if I can't?" he murmurs in almost a pur.
"Then you'd have to come out and tell her. Then you'd figure it out from there." I reply, my voice shaky.
"But I am already telling her." Ryan's voice turns into a deep raspy tone. I don't understand what he's talking about at first but then I do. The her is me. "And some how I don't think she feels the same way about me...do you Amelia?"
My voice refuses to come out and I feel my hands shaking but his remain a tight grip on them. I can feel my cheeks lighting on fire from what he told me. He's in love with me? How? Why would he love me?
"Because you're amazing." he murmurs. My eyes race to his. "I can read minds." he purrs.
"Great because that's even better." I murmur, irritation haunting my voice.
"You still didn't answer my question." I feel myself hold my breath.
"I um...I should be getting to drama. I'll see you at patrol okay?" My voice is shaky.
"I want an answer, Amelia." he says, gently grasping my hand.
"I don't know. Maybe. I need to go." I make a dash for the drama room praying that Ryan won't follow. I take a seat next to Alexa and smile but I can tell she knows that something is going on.
"You okay?" she asks sweetly.
"Yeah I'm..tired. That's all." I try to seem more confident of that than I am. She shrugs, knowing that I probably won't tell her. Why would a guy like Ryan be into me? I just don't get it. I'm expecting an answer during patrol. I jump as his voice rings into my mind.
We'll see. I think in response.
No. It will happen. I sigh and lean back in my chair. When the bell rings, I literally run into Ryan and stare into those pale blue eyes and almost melt. My legs buckle and I turn with out a word. Following Alexa onto the bus, I plop down and basically burst into tears. I get a hug from her and tell her what happened.
"You aren't going out with him right?"
"Of course not...I mean no. Well...I don't know. Not yet and maybe never." I sigh. I just don't understand what he finds...speacial about me. There's nothing except the whole vampire slayer thing. The bus stops and I notice Ryan follows me out the door.
"So...what should I do?" he asks stopping me from walking any farther.
"Tell me what your secret is." I reply, managing to give him a dirty look.
"I will...later. See you on patrol and I need an answer then. Goodbye Amelia."
"No. Not goodbye. Tell me what your secret is." I order. He takes my hand and kisses my hand softly.
"You'll see." he purrs. He walks away and I turn to Alexa.
"Want to spend the night?" she asks sweetly. I nod and we walk to her house. What is my answer?