Faith

Faith

She has no idea.  No idea at all that behind this mask of complacency and tranquility is the soul of one containing unbridled passion and unspoken desire…

Well I guess it would be nice

If I could touch your body

I know not everybody

Has got a body like you

Of course, I can't exactly tell her this.  I mean, how would it look?  I'm supposed to be the good one, the honest one, the NORMAL one.  How can I act like that when all I want to do is run over there, sweep her in my arms and take her away from this life?

But I've got to think twice

Before I give my heart away

And I know all the games you play

Because I play them too

But I can't do that.  But I can want to, and I can hope that one day my love will be requited.  Because, sometimes, she doesn't know this, but I watch her, and I can see she's watching me.  But I can't leave anything to chance.  I cannot, no, I WILL not tell her how I feel.

 

Oh but I

Need some time off from that emotion

Time to pick my heart up off the floor

And when that love comes down

Without devotion

Well it takes a strong man baby

But I'm showing you the door

And then, there are times when she gets me so angry I could just wrap my hands around her throat.  But I won't because it would mar her beautiful white skin and delicate features…

 

'Cause I gotta have faith...

It's not easy, but I believe, despite her shortcomings, she's a good person; and that's what makes me love her.

Baby

I know you're asking me to stay

Say please, please, please, don't go away

You say I'm giving you the blues

And still, I can't understand why she does what she does.  One minute she's screaming at me, and the next she's coming over to me, begging for my help.  I can't resist her when she begs; I only wish she would beg for me…

Maybe

You mean every word you say

Can't help but think of yesterday

And another who tied me down to loverboy rules

But it's hard to think that I could possibly have these feelings for her.  I once had feelings like this for another, but her ship has sailed, and a new ship has come in.  I just wish the inhabitants of the ship weren't so hostile.

Before this river

Becomes an ocean

Before you throw my heart back on the floor

Oh baby I reconsider

My foolish notion

Well I need someone to hold me

But I'll wait for something more

But I guess I'll just wait until she needs me.  I'm strong, I can handle it.  But when that day comes, I know that these walls I've built up around me are going to tumble down, and I'm going to take her with me.

Yes I've gotta have faith...

"What're you writing?" asks Annie, coming over towards me.

"Nothing," I reply as I close my book.

End