There's Us

Disclaimer: I do not own Degrassi.

A/N - This is a MEMMA fanfiction. If you're not into that kind of thing, well, just don't read this story. ;) In my story, Sean is still going off to the Military, and Craig and Manny are still together. Reviews/Comments are much appreciated.

It all started when Sean broke up with me. Okay, he didn't break up with me technically, but he's going off to the military. That's pretty much the same thing... right? Anyway, I won't see him for months, and then after that, who knows how long. I don't want to get hurt and him leaving, it's hurting me. That sounds so crybaby, but this always happens. He always ends up leaving me somehow. Couldn't he have at least talked to me about this first before making a decision? It's so wrong, but part of me just can't put all my trust into him. I love Sean, but I don't want my heart to be broken again. I just can't let that happen.

Craig laughed loudly, interrupting me from my thoughts, and slung an arm over Manny's shoulders. I took another drink from my water and starting drifting away from their conversations again. I didn't really feel too stable at the moment. It wasn't really that Sean was leaving per se, just the fact that my world was off balance again. It made my skin crawl.

When Manny gave me a worried look, I started to pretend like I was a part of the group, laughing at all the right times and adding in comments here and there. This was too boring. I didn't want to be here. I wanted to be at home with Manny in my pajamas watching old romance movies or something. Anything but this really.

"We should have a party!"

I snapped my head upwards and sent a death glare in Spinner's direction. The entire table at the Dot was in chaos now. Marco gave Jimmy a high-five. Boys. I shook my head.

Manny elbowed me and smiled. Damn her! Her smiles were contagious. "Come on, Em. It'll be fun."

"Hell yeah, Vodka!!" Someone whooped in the air, over on Paige's side of the table.

Oh God, no. There was no way I would be drinking. The last time was enough for me. I've learned my lesson, I swear.

I scoffed. "Do you know how many calories are in one shot of Vodka?" I have to admit, I sounded very snobby.

But seriously - Oh. My. God. I have no idea where that came from. I honestly wasn't worried about the calories in a shot of Vodka. They could so be easily burned off throughout the night with all that hyperness. Manny stared at me as if saying 'What the hell?'

I shrugged as if to say 'My bad. Did I say that out loud?' in response.

"Sorry, bad joke." I smiled at them brightly. It was totally fake. "So, yeah, where will this party be at?"

I wish I had never said that. Now Manny's going to worry and start watching me. I don't even have a problem anymore... not really. I mean, I can eat. It's hard sometimes, but I'm getting through it. Right? Yes.

"Em, do you need to go to the bathroom?"

I opened my mouth to say a quick 'no', but before I could answer, Manny pulled me by the arm, rather painfully, to the girl's bathroom.

"Are you okay?"

I nodded. "Yeah, why?"

"Emma, seriously," she said, giving me a pointed look.

I sighed and reached for her hand. "I'm fine, okay? I pinky swear."

This was obviously a good thing to say because she laughed and linked my pinky with hers. "Good, because this party's going to be awesome! Plus, it'll help get your mind off of Sean. You're going, right?"

"Of course," I said.

She squealed and threw her arms around me in a hug. "I can't wait! Oh god, this is going to be so much fun! Come on, we only have twenty-four hours to pick out our outfits. And Em?"

"Yeah?"

"I'm always here for you if you need to talk, okay?"

I smiled. Manny was something else. I wasn't really too psyched about this party, but it's Manny's night. She deserves to have some fun.