On My Own

by Belle an' Maria

I have noone. I have nothing. And I feel more alone than ever before. On my own. Really short. Reviews please?

"And now I'm all alone again
Nowhere to go no one to turn to."- Les Miserables

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I guess I just didn't think it would ever happen. I never considered it, never weighed the options, never thought too much about it. I knew what all the rest would want. I knew they would all want to find their parents, want to live normal lives. My heart was already braced for what I knew was going to happen.

And it did happen, of course. And my heart broke. But I dealt with it.. Because I had him. But I never knew, never suspected, never even thought that I would lose him too.

Maybe I did know. Maybe deep down, I knew that was what he wanted and just didn't want to face it. Which didn't matter, because I ended up facing it anyway.

And I can't blame him. I know I can't. If I still had a family, a real family, I would want to be with them too. I would want to live a normal life. But, for me, that's out of the question. My mother? Dead. Sister? Gone. Father? Don't even go there.

But after they all left, after he left, I was on my own. Completely and utterly on my own.

And seemingly heartbroken.

I think of them.

All of them.

And how things used to be.

And how things will never be again.

And every time I see a little girl's teddy bear, I think of my baby girl.

I think of Angel.

And every time I see a comedian, or hear someone mimic voices, I think of my trooper.

I think of Gazzy.

And every time I hear the talk show radios that go on and on and on, I think of the one person who could outtalk them all.

I think of Nudge.

And every time I see a small, black dog, I think of that annoying, lovable little fur ball.

I think of Total.

And every time I smell cooking food, or hear something about bombs and explosives, I think of my blind mutant.

I think of Iggy.

And every day, every minute, every passing second, I think of him.

I think of my best friend, my crush, the one person who shattered my heart.

I think of Fang.

So, maybe heartbroken was the wrong word.

I was heartshattered.

And yes, thank you, I know how totally cliche that sounds.

But you try losing every single person you care about and see how you feel.

As for me, I don't feel so good.

I have noone. I have nothing.

And I feel more alone than ever before.

Lonely, heartshattered, and completely...

On my own.

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a/n: Hmm... I totally meant for that to be longer... eh. It wasn't too bad though, just really short. Besides, I mostly wrote it because I was bored and avoiding two things-

A. Homework. Ick.

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B. Finishing Telephone. Which (For any of you who care) I am working on, I swear. Just a little blocked on a certain part. It's like, halfway. 0.0

But...

Review?

Love, Belle