***I know this chapter is super short, but it needed to be. Going forward they will be much longer. Just in case you didn't know, I don't own anything SOA, I'm only writing a different point of view because I can't control myself :)***
Prologue
Gemma. She looked at me with a crazed hatred and I knew I was in trouble.
My face hit the water and I struggled back with everything I had, not willing, even for a second, to give up on my boys.
They need you….you have to fight! My mind screamed at me.
But then everything changed.
I don't remember what happened and how I ended up on the floor, but Gemma was gone and I was alone.
I heard someone coming in towards me from the front of the house. Please no, please don't be Gemma again.
But it wasn't Gemma. It was Jax. And when he came in the room his eyes changed, it was a look I had never seen in them before.
"Jax, what's wrong?" I asked him. His face contorted and I just wanted to run to him, to hold him, something horrible had happened and I didn't know what. He came over to where I was and what happened next, I couldn't really tell you. It felt like a dream, like I was stuck, trying desperately to move but my body remained still.
His face twisted and he started to cry. I had seen him cry only a few times before, but this time was different. He was sobbing, choking on the tears that wracked his body. Something terrible had happened.
I screamed at him, but no matter how loud I made myself, he wasn't hearing me. I couldn't move, my arms were as heavy as lead and my body paralyzed, pinned weightily to the floor. All I wanted to do was make him feel better. The anguish in his eyes, the pain, and I couldn't fix it, all I could do was stare back into his agony. He pulled me into his lap, looking down at me and everything finally started to slowly come together.
"No!" I screamed, "No!"
But his face told a different story.
"Jax, no…I'm not ready," I whimpered, knowing it was no use, "I don't want to leave you."
Tears welled up in my eyes, but nothing spilled over.
"I'm scared."
I pleaded with him, "Please don't let me go."
But there was nothing I could do. The boys. I had failed them. And I found myself laying in the arms of my love. His face telling me something had hurt him terribly, and there was nothing I could do to make it better. "Stay with me." But my words fell on deaf ears.
He leaned over to me and kissed my lips and there was nothing I ever cherished more. I wished that he would stay with me forever.
"I love you."