I'm Nothing Without You

Disclaimer: I don't own Soul Eater. I also don't own this part of the lyrics from All That Remains- What If I Was Nothing.

Anyway, this is my first time writing a fanfiction so please review and tell me how I did. Sorry if it's bad or for any grammar or punctuation errors I may have made. Also, I am sorry to fans of Spirit Albarn. Warning: contains rape and self-harm.

Chapter 1: Betrayed

Maka stared at her door blankly. She heard the front door close but didn't call Soul's name. She didn't care who it was. She had locked the door the second she got home. She didn't want to be around anyone, not even Soul. She didn't want him asking her what was wrong.

"Maka!" Soul called his partner's name. She didn't answer. He ran up the stairs to her room. The door was locked. "Damn it!" he swore under his breath. "Maka! Open the door!" He said while pounding on the door. "Maka, answer me!"

She didn't. She just got up and pulled out her razor, holding it for a bit then sat back down on her bed. Soul kept calling her name but she didn't care. It was like she was deaf to the world and the only thing that mattered was the small sharp object in her hand and her arm. As she put the razor to her arm and pressed down, she heard Soul threaten to break the door down. She sighed and yelled, "Soul go away already! I don't want to talk to you. I don't feel good anyways." Well, the last part wasn't a lie, she thought to herself. She told him the truth.

"C'mon Maka I just wanna see if your ok. Please open the door?" Soul pleaded through the closed door.

"No Soul. Go away." Maka said coldly. She didn't want to be around anyone. Not after getting in an argument with Black*Star and Kid, Liz, Patty, Soul, and Tsubaki just sat there looking at her. Soul hadn't even defended her when Black*Star was making fun of her. She wasn't going to forgive him that easily, or anyone else for that matter.

Later that night, after Soul finally left her alone, Maka decided to go for a walk. Sure, it was late, but no one would give her a second glance anyway, as Black*Star had earlier pointed out smugly. She grabbed a coat and put it on. She was still wearing her school clothes; she hadn't bothered changing when she got home. She opened the door and stepped out in to the cool, refreshing air. As she got lost in thought, she ran into someone. She looked up and mumbled and apology when she realized it was her father, Spirit she ran into. She looked around and realized she was near her old house. How long had she been walking for anyways?

"Dad, what are you doing out this late? Wait a second, are you drunk?" He smelt of alcohol, bad, and was barely able to stand up much less walk. She took his arm and led him to his house as he slurred, "My Maka-chan! I haven't seen you in for EVER! How have you been? Papa has been worried about you!" he gushed. She rolled her eyes. "You saw me like five hours ago dad. And you REEK. You need a shower." She opened the door with the spare key that her dad had given her in case she ever wanted to come by and visit.

She flicked on the light, and her dad slurred, "If I need a shower so bad, take me into the bathroom and turn the water on for me." He said pouting. She figured it was a weird request but did it anyway. As she set him down on the edge of the bathtub, she turned to turn the water on and asked him if he wanted the water hot or cold. "Uhhh warm please sweety." As she was turned around, Spirit locked the bathroom door. Maka didn't realize it and when the water was warm she said, "Ok dad the water's set. I should be heading home now." Then she noticed a glint in her father's eye. She didn't recognize this look, and when he spoke she got shivers up her back. "Maka-chan, why don't you help your Papa undress?" She backed away from him. "Too late!" he snarled at her. He pulled her down with him. As she struggled trying to push him off, he grabbed her arms in one hand and snarled in her ear, "You aren't getting away from Papa that easily, little girl."

He put his free hand on her hip while still hovering over her; then he slid it up her shirt and then behind her back and unhooked her bra and moved his hands back to her stomach, sliding it up and rubbing her nipple. She gasped and struggled again, only to be back-handed. While she was recovering, he slid her shirt off. Holding her arms above her by her wrists again, Spirit smirked. Maka had given up on fighting and closed her eyes, wanting this to just be a bad dream. She wasn't so lucky. She felt his hand edging her underwear, and then slipping in. She felt his fingers in her, as he added one in so he had three fingers in her. Then he stopped all of a sudden. She stayed silent, not wanting to get hit again. She opened her eyes when she heard a zipper. Then she looked above him to find a clock above the doorway. She focused on that as he slipped inside her, making her cry out in pain and she knew she was bleeding now. His mouth was on hers now, forcing her mouth open. Maka didn't fight back. Spirit was pleased with this but also slightly annoyed. She stayed looking at the clock until it was over, ignoring his hands roaming around as best as she could and his taunts. Finally it was over and he fell asleep on top of her, not even bothering to pull out. It had taken him 15 minutes to stop moving inside her. She tried pushing him off, but to no avail. He was too heavy so she cried until she fell asleep.

Yes I end on a cliffhanger, but hey gotta keep people interested right? Sorry haha next chapter will be out soon after this since I have most of it typed already.