Chapter 1

I couldn't stop staring, the perfect dark black hair falling around that perfect face. A small smile was forming on the lips of a god.

I told myself I had to quit, for the fear that somebody would see me. Edward more than likely already knew. He knew everything about everybody, except Bella. I was so envious of what Edward had; the love, the girl, the devotion. Yeah sure I love Alice, but we've decided to break up for a little while. There was a new vampire addition to our family, other than Bella that is. His name was Jonathon and he stumbled across our family about six months ago. His hair was to the top of his ears, he was about 5'8", and utterly repulsive. But to Alice he was the next best thing since fashion. Whatever, I didn't care. She was always in bed with my by the end of the night anyway. Guess he couldn't satisfy her. But I let her go, just as long as she was happy.

At first it killed me. Then I started hanging out more and more with Bella, amazingly. Once Mr. Hotshot came into the picture, Alice sorta ditched everybody. That brought Bella and I a lot closer. In ways I enjoyed it, but I also hated it at the same time. I despised Bella. I think we all did deep down inside. Bella got to choose her immortality, unlike the rest of us. I wasn't even on my death bed like the others. But it's nothing to be mad at them for, they aren't the selfish ones who changed me. I was just a minion, part of a newborn army to overtake the south. I finally got sick of it and left. I later found Alice and fell in love with her instantly. I always thought she was gorgeous. After Alice and I found each other, we set out to find the Cullen's. Since we've been in Forks, Rosalie and I were pretending to be twins and Emmett, Edward, and Alice were our younger siblings. Rose and I are twenty-one while Emmett, Edward, and Alice are nineteen. I doubt anybody actually believes it though; Emmett and Rose could easily pass for twenty-five.

Alice was even distancing herself from Edward, and between the five of us they were the closest. No matter what they were always there for each other. But even he wasn't worried about her now. It seemed like Bella and I were alone. We had noticed the change in Alice. I guess Edward was ok because he could read both their minds. Whatever.

Bella and I were good at getting our minds off it. Well for one, there was Nessie. But when the two of us weren't stuck with Nessie, we were training or hunting or hanging out with Jacob and Seth. Usually it was just the two of us and Seth because Jacob never wanted to leave Nessie's side. Damn imprinting. Even Nessie, the baby wonder, had love at her side. Carlisle and Esme would also take Nessie when Jacob wasn't available. But they had their limits.

Jacob was always here. Damn him imprinting on Nessie. Him being here just kept getting harder and harder. The second he would get here after school I would usually drag Bella away. I really don't think she realized why though.

Today Alice and Jonathon were in the living room with us, I wanted to stab him. He was ugly and annoying and did I say ugly? They were all lovey dovey with each other. I was getting worked up and I was supposed to be the calm one.

"Bella, are you ready to resume where we left off yesterday?"

"Sure Jazz, let me say bye to Nessie," she replied.

I never understood why Edward always let her go with me without question or fight or anything.

I had to get out. "I'll be out back Bells." Everybody used her nickname now, except Edward. He was always too prim and proper.

In the whole six seconds it took me to get to the backyard I managed to plan out yet another way to get Jonathon alone and off him.

"Are you alright Jasper? You look a bit disgruntled."

"I'm fine. Why would you ask?"

"You seemed a bit on edge in there. It was hard for you wasn't it?" Bella always had to know everything these days. She wanted to know everything Edward knew; it was really starting to annoy me.

"No, I'm fine. I promise!" I probably shouldn't have put that much emotion in it. Damn it all.

"Alright whatever," she said as she came flying towards me. "I'll pin ya' tonight, I promise I will."

"You always say that and yet you never pin me." And those were the last audible words of the night.

"Jasper? Jasper answer me. I know you're in there." I knew that sweet musical voice all to well. "Jasper, let me in please."

"This room is still technically ours, so therefore I can't keep you out." I could've said that a bit nicer, but I was really mad at her this time.

"Jasper. I'm sorry. I treated you like crap and I am all torn up about it. I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I'm begging you Jazzy. I don't even care if you'll take me back or not, I just want you to know that I'm sorry and I hope that you'll forgive me."

I didn't know what to say. I knew what I wanted to say, but I didn't know if this would all change tomorrow or not.

"Jazz, please. I realized that he was a complete grade A asshole. I'm done with him. I never should've left you." I felt so horrible inside. I didn't know what to say. If she could still cry, I'm sure she'd be bawling her eyes out right now.

I couldn't think of anything to say, so I just wrapped my arms around her and laid back in our bed.

"Jazz," that all too familiar voice started, "I miss this. I'm glad we're back to this."

"Who ever said that I was taking you back? Like you said, you treated me like crap. But to me, crap is an understatement, and I think Bella can vouch for that too. If you could understand how horrible I felt, if only…"

"Jasper please, I feel horrible enough for putting you through this. Please don't send me through this big whole guilt trip." The sadness in her eyes was real.

"I just can't take you back as if nothing happened. I went through real pain. It killed me to see you so happily with him." I sneered his name.

"Jazz, I said I was sorry. What else do you want me to do? How can I prove to you that I'm sorry?"

"Well to start you can kiss me, then maybe breakfast in bed." I smiled wryly. "Then we'll see from there."

As she leaned over to kiss me, her hair fell into her face. I pushed it aside gently as her perfect lips met with mine. I was hungry for this. There was no way she was getting out of this with just one kiss.