A/N: This chapter is completely safe in content. However some chapters will have mature content, like sexual parts etc. I still ratted it as mature though, just for warning the readers. Also i still don't know if in this fic, i'll make Lilith as Roland ex-girlfriend just like in the game. Plz be patient with me, and my writting since i'm new at this and plz enjoy~
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She was alone in her room. The sun didn't even rise but she was awake, or rather said, she didn't sleep at all. She sat on her bed, elbows on her legs and hands on her hair. It would be one of those days, where sleep would not come to her, even if she had the Eridium on her veins to be in control of herself.
She wasn't in the mood for anything these days. She didn't want to talk to anyone, she didn't want to see anyone or rather be seen by anyone.
After Roland's death and the incident at the Vault of the Warrior, she's been blaming herself for what happened. She felt that if she did as she was told, nothing like that would have happened.
- Suave Lilith... - the siren said while thinking bout the mistakes she did back then, burying her head more in her hands breathing a exasperated sigh.
She decides to get up and take a bath. Maybe the hot water will calm her down, even tough she is certain that it won't. Still...she gives it a try.
She heads to the bathroom,takes off her dirty salmon top, and then her brown torn pants, proceeding with her pink panties tossing them with a kick to the side of the room. She entered the shower, she turned the hot water on and let the warmth of it flow through her body. But she's the Firehawk. And the Firehawk is used to the heat, and so she turned the heat of the water a bit more. She let out a sigh. The droplets of water touching her skin, running down her little breasts in a quick motion to her belly, legs and feet. The sensation was pleasant. She allowed herself to relax, even tough a few minutes later,tears and dropplets of water are mixed and even Lilith couldn't tell the difference if it wasn't for her aching heart. She felt defeated. Long ago.
She turned of the water. She took the closest towel to her and wrapped it around her, letting her cleavage be seen in the slighest. She took her clothes in her hands, looking at them. - So much for new clothes... - she sarcastically smirk. These were the clothes that accompanied her through everything, every moment of her life.
They were dirty, torn and pretty much useless...just like she felt.
She dressed up and went to the veranda, looking at the silence and calm Sanctuary. It was like nothing had ever happened, like no one died, like she wasn't captured and tortured, like everything was the same. Booze and punches, nothing else.
Since that turn of events, she tried to keep her distance from everyone.
She avoided everyone. She knows that if she stays long in a conversation with someone, either they will give looks of pity or looks of hatred. She knew some people blamed her. She can't judge them, she blamed herself too.
She approached her personal vault and took one Eridium nugget in her hand and absorbed it. Then she opened the door of the room and headed downstairs to the town. She needed fresh hair. Through her walk on Sanctuary, she felt more alone. There was no soul to be seen. What she was expecting? It's so early in the morning, everyone is sleeping, everyone except her. Moxxi's was closed, so she had to take her emotions on another thing and she just had an idea.
In a minute she teleported to another area and instead of the strange calm Sanctuary, she was in the desert right in front of some bandits lair. She smirked taking in the feeling of freedom and the fact that she was gonna have some fun frightning some bandits 'til the death. She went like this on and on. It was her only way of keeping her head focused on something that wasn't Roland's death, she being tortured and she feeling like crap for disappointing everyone.
Time passed fast without she noticing and when she realized how ate it was, she decided to go back to Sanctuary, because she was still the Leader of the Crimson Raiders and there's still stuff to do. Even though she just feels like keeping killing shit.

She arrived at Sanctuary and she saw Mordecai and Brick running to her at full speed, yelling her name.
- Lil! Where were you? - Brick asked. - We need to discuss startegies bout the Hyperions.
- Hum...killing some stuff? - she dared. - Brick eyed her. - Lets talk then. - The red haired siren said, feeling slightly annoyed.
When then went upstairs to discuss the matter, Lilith saw that Maya,Zero,Salvador and Axton where there too. The New Vault Hunters, the ones who helped her save the planet, the ones who saved her from her death.
"Did they?" She wondered.

- So... i see you guys missed me. - The Firehawk gave an half smirk.
Everyone stayed silent much to the Firehawk's annoyance. She felt all eyes on her, worried looks that she could have spared.
- Let's talk. - She said fiercely, hand pounded on the table like a warning. Everyone looked away. She hated that. The meeting was taking about an hour and Lilith was getting impatient. She needed space and another nugget or two of Eridium. Few minutes later, the matter ended and everyone knew what to do, she dismissed everyone as she was heading to the exit door. She turned to her room but felt a pair of eyes following her. She looked back. It was Maya.
- Can i come in? - the Azure siren asked. Lilith hesitated, she didn't want anyone to see her, but she nodded without saying a word anyway.
The two entered Lilith's room and Lilith sat on the chair and Maya just stayed on her feet, looking at her, scrutinizing every movement.
Lilith felt all the looks the other was giving her.
- Sup. What was that you wanted? - Lilith finally said.
- Where were you? We were looking for you.
- Around. Why the question? - Lilith didn't want to talk at all, so the less she said, the quick the conversation would end, but Maya wasn't buying that.
- Lil... We were worried. I was worried.
- I bet you were. But i don't need that. - She was starting to feel her heat rise and she knew Maya could sense that too. Damn she was a siren too.
Maya approached her and touched her shoulder with her hand.
- You can tell me if something is wrong. - she insisted. The Firehawk slapped her hand and turned to the veranda only saying, in a tone so low but so powerful.
- Leave. Now.
Maya looked at her friend's back, eyes full of hurt.
Hurt because Lilith was in a state where she wouldn't let others reach her. Maya knew she blammed herself for Roland's death and all the shit that happened and it hurt her that the Firehawk wasn't letting anyone in to care for her. But she knows Lilith is like this. She keeps it inside and then she explodes, just like her Phasewalk.

Maya has left and Lilith is all alone now. She sees the other one down the street, looking up to the veranda, looking up at her. Lilith looks away, she can't bear to look into Maya's eyes, she would just feel more headed to her little vault and took another nugget, and another...after another.
She headed to her bed and tried to sleep.

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Continue...
Idk how well this is going. I must tell you that i dont wanna make Lilith a junkie here. Only addicted to Eridium since its controsl her power and makes her feel at ease.