AN: This is a one shot of Brennan, a 17 year old Brennan. This is her POV, warning it is sad but I feel like this is what would have happen if things had gotten too bad and Brennan was on the edge.
Maybe it's my fault they left.
I could have made them stay.
Where did I go wrong?
Why didn't Russ fight for me?
Why does no one love me?
I could end it…. It wouldn't be hard. No one would miss me, I am nothing but a burden. People would be happy if I was dead.
I cry to myself every night… I cry to them. I want to die.
I know enough about the anatomy, if I cut my curated artery it would be quick.
I could go to a cliff, jump, for a moment I could fly.
No one would miss me.
They say I am weird, they say I am ugly and that no one loves me.
They say I am worthless, I will never be anything.
I could just do it, no one would miss me.
Standing on the edge I can feel the wind in my hair, the sun on my face
Removing my flip flops I let my toes feels the curved edge of the cliff, It would be so easy to just jump…. Or fall.
JUMP….. that is what my class mates would say
Maybe they had to leave….
Maybe they are coming back….
Maybe I have it all wrong
Maybe….. I can be happy.
Maybe…. Maybe….. I shouldn't jump.
I gather my belongings and walk along the dirt road, back to a place where I am unloved, because maybe
Maybe one day…. Someone will love me…. And if I had jumped…. They never would find me.
AN: So…. That was that. I like it. Review please or just save to your favorites or just read and enjoy.